-Jade's POV-
The days drag by but the weeks go fast. Ida infects my mind like a plague.
I watch the flames flicker in the Shack, remembering the moment where I first meet her...and everything that happened after.
"Jade?" Hazels voice is soft, tentative even. I look up slowly, seeing her concerned face with emotionless eyes. Hazel, nursing her 9 month old baby Luna, still has the energy to be concerned about me. It makes my eyes line with tears and I curl my arms around my knees, shaking my head.
No I'm not ok. I might never be ok again.
I had lost many people in my life. Break a little more each time. But this? This is what shatters me completely. Like a crumbling of a wall, breaking of a dam, shattering of glass. Can never be fixed, barely be put together again, if that.
So no. I'm not ok.
And Hazel? She trying to tape me together, so desperately. But I need the pain. I deserve the pain.
I couldn't protect, couldn't save her. I let her die.
And so Ida sits here, at the forefront of my mind, refusing to leave and I don't fight her.
I'm at the back of the Shack, in the dead of night. I can barely sleep. At this point I'm a walking corpse, stuck in thoughts and memories. In love with a dead person. And when I attempt to sleep, I feel the lack of heat, the absence of her body curled in my arms. But waking up is worse. When I wake, I realise she's not here, that her lips will never touch mine and I will never get to hear her voice, her laugh.
And that I have to live without her.
Every. Single. Day.
I try to imagine the ghost of her next to me. But her body lays buried not a mile away and I can feel her heart stop beating under my palm like it was yesterday. And so I stare up at the stars that failed to save her.
Like I failed to.
I have lost many people in my life. So many people gone, because of me. And while their blood may not lay on my hands, I still feel the ache inside of me, saying that I could of saved them, could have protected them.
But they are all dead.
And then Hazel will die and I will be alone in this terrible terrible world. Silent tears streak tracks down my cheeks as I stare up.
"Why did you have to leave me?" I whisper with only the shadows in the night to hear me.
"Why did you have to leave me Ida?" As if someone would respond.
Just a little emotional Jade scene. Sorry, nothing exciting, that hopefully will be coming soon. I've got a bit of a lack-of-motivation-writers-block happening, probably because I just need to force myself to write. Anyways I hope you all have an AMAZING day :)
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