Growing on me Sirius x OC

Prologue

Sirius POV

      'Come on, you can do better than that!' I yelled while dodging another hex. This one was a bit too close, the rational part of my brain tried fruitlessly to remind me. I paid it no heed. I felt normal again. Like the old Sirius. Before the home arrest, the 13 years in Azkaban, and the war ruined whatever innocence I had somehow held on to. Back when I was just another reckless teenager. 

       I could feel the adrenaline rushing through my veins as I taunted an enraged Bellatrix. 

Ahh.

 That familiar feeling I almost forgot. Your heart pumping. Fear trying to creep in. The yelling. The confusion. 

        I realized with a start that I was thankful. Thankful for my Godson, who liked playing the hero a bit too much, for conjuring up another life-threatening situation. 

Why?

 Because I needed it. After being cooped up in a house where I spent the worst years of my life and being forced to clean it, I needed a reminder that the old me still lived under the layers of dust.

   Lost in my thoughts I failed to see Bella fire a red jet of light at me. I mutely watched it come closer and closer and finally hit me squarely on the chest.  I gracefully fell back, the ghost of my last laugh still present, with traces of fear and surprise in my eyes. 

It didn't make sense. There were still so many things left for me to do. I still had so many more stories to tell Harry about his parents. I still had to have my name cleared. I still had to take a walk through London without fear. I still had to tell Remus how sorry I was for leaving. I still had to take the ring that I knew she hid in the bottom of the old boxes that she refused to look through in fear of digging up old memories that she tried harder than any of us to suppress and slide it onto her finger, this time to stay. I still had to live in a world that was free of war.

        It felt like time had slowed down as my body curved into an arc and fell through the tattered white veil hanging from the arch that I hadn't paid much attention to. As I  fell through the ancient doorway and disappeared behind the veil, I fell into a strange state where I wasn't asleep but not quite awake either. Was I dead? Was this the afterlife?

    Suddenly memories flooded my mind. They were the happy, light memories that you would reminisce about on a warm sunny day alone on the patio with iced lemonade next to you. Her husky chuckles as James got rejected once again. The evil smirk she gave me when she was going to play dirty. James talking about Lily Evans as we walked down the familiar path to the lake.  Arguing about quidditch teams with Marlene. Remus giving me another lecture. Basically, all the memories I never appreciated but would give anything to re-live.

    Suddenly the memories took a sharp turn. They got darker and darker without warning.

James yelling at me after finding out about what I told Snape. 

The look of disbelief on Remus's face after finding out.

 Her tear-stained face after Mary left. 

James and Lily finding out about the prophecy that ruined all of our lives.

Lily and James dead and Harry crying with a gash on his forehead.

I felt a sudden urge to scream but I couldn't. I felt trapped in my mind.

     As the random memories and words raced around in my mind in no particular order I felt a sudden shift. All the memories were of her. Us arguing about who had the best alcohol tolerance. Us picking out clothes and toys for baby Harry who we vowed to spoil together. Our first date. Our first kiss. The first time she confided in me. The first time she told me she loved me. I saw her face so vividly in my mind.

     I could never figure her out. She always managed to surprise me. She was the breath of fresh air I needed so badly. The only one who understood. She related to my pain instead of sympathizing with it. She tormented me but put me at ease. She was my safe place. The first person who knew the darkest parts of me but loved me anyway. The first and only one I truly loved. 

    Without warning the memories stopped. The words ceased. I felt strangely empty. Everything was dark. All of a sudden I felt a light engulf me. I opened my eyes slowly. What I saw made me blink and shake my head in disbelief. It was everyone that was gone.

I could see shadows of Lily and James waiting for me to get up and run toward them. I could see Regulus with a happy look in his eyes, one that looked forgiving. I could see the people he had loved so fiercely even in death. I was filled with a sudden light feeling in my stomach. One that I hadn't felt in years. 

I stepped forward and felt myself move toward the happiness. I moved into the foray of souls that I had yearned to be with for years, and for the first time in what felt like lifetimes, I was at peace.

Hey guys! You will find out her name in the next chapter. I hope you liked it. Pls comment on how you feel about this so far. To everyone taking the time to read this pls know it means a lot to me. Thank you! I will update soon!