Beautiful Soul

Chapter 17

"Scared"

"I've got her CT Scan checked and luckily there's nothing to worry about. Let's be thankful that there's no serious damage happened when she fell." Mom was scanning the result on her hand dahil sinugod namin si Ly sa clinic nya.

The bleeding wont stop and incision was needed dahil sa malalim na cut. Kahit anong insist ang gawin naming lahat na sa ospital dahil si Ly ay sobra ang naging pag tanggi ni Kim at Mela, therefore I suggested na sa clinic nalang sya dalhin dahil kumpleto naman ang gamit ni Mommy.

"I also put an antiseptics on her wound para sa mas mabilis na pag galing nito. For now, she needs to take a rest para mas mabilis na maka recover ang katawan nya dahil mukhang ilang araw ng walang pahinga ang katawan nya." She set aside her things before she look at me. "Are you ok sweetie?" She asked me worriedly na agad ko lang tinanguan.

"I was just carried away by what happened, her friend Kim don't wan't to bring her to the hospital that's why I called you. Sorry to disturb you Mom."  I said in a low voice.

I know how open they are in a same sex relationship. I don't know if they can easily accept me kung sasabihin ko na I fell for Ly. That I love the latter and her happiness is all that matters to me. I admit, I'm scared of my parents judgement, but it's not like something I can avoid.

"Is there something wrong anak?"

I was pull out from my reverie when I heard Mom's question.

Is this even the right time to talk about my sexual preference with mom?  A voice at the back of my mind asked.

"Anak I know for a fact that you were straight as a flagpole before you met her. If liking her as a woman keeps on bothering you can tell us. We won't judge you anak, dahil if there is someone who should accept and support you first -aside from yourself of course- with your decisions that should be us. Your family."  Napa angat ako agad ng tingin kay Mommy when she said that. Nahahalata na kaya nila?

"I just don't know what to do Mom. Were good as friends. I don't want to cross that boundaries yet dahil baka masira ang kung ano man na meron kami ngayon. I know how she hate committments. And being in a relationship means committing with someone." Pag amin ko sa kanya. There's no point of hiding dahil mula ulo hanggang paa, bawat kilos at mga galaw ko, Mom knew it all.

"First, you were afraid that we might not accept your gender preference, now your friendship with Ly is at stake simply because you love her and you don't wanna lose a good friend ng dahil sa nararamdaman mo sa kanya. Tama ba ako?" Mom clarify na tinanguan ko naman bilang pag sang-ayon dahil yun naman talaga ang totoo.

"Deinnielle anak, we raised you as a strong a woman. You never fold with any problem despite the circumtances. You're smart as well to figure out what to do. Alam kong malalagpasan mo din ito. Malay mo mahal ka din pala ni Ly but maybe she has a reason why she's not yet ready to committ. Kung willing kang maghintay sa kanya, then stay by her side. Iparamdam mo sa kanya yung pagmamahal na meron ka while being her friend. Dahil baka sa paraan na yon, you can ready herself to committ with you willingly. Love will always have its way afterall." Naka ngiting payo sakin ni Mommy. Tumayo ako at lumapit sa kanya to give her a backhug.

"I'm thankful to God dahil meron akong magulang na sobra ang pagmamahal na meron sa mga anak nila. I love you 'my, thank you for accepting and understanding my decisions in life. I would be forever grateful for having such an amazing Mom like you." Pag da-drama ko kay Mommy na tinawanan lang nya.