Beautiful Soul

Chapter 18

"Memories"

Ly's:

"Zhachii... come here baby."

"Zachii... time to take a bath baby..."

Those were soft familiar voice... Mama!

"Hahahaha! Shtop Mama! Hahahaha Taki tummy hertch Hahahaha!" A laughter of a kid echoed in the whole room.

Am I dreaming about Mama about our moments when I was a kid?

"Zhachi what do you want for your merienda baby?" A sweet smile form in her lips while talking to my younger me.

"I want your cake! And can you alsho make an ayshlim for me Mama?" Bulol na tanong nito habang naka tingala at yakap si Mama sa bewang.

Fuck I wish I could hug her like that again. Tila lahat ng swerte ay nasalo ko... ay tumingin si mama sa gawi ko..

"I love you Zhachii..." puno pag suyo at pagmamahal ang mga mata nya habang naka ngiting tinuturan sakin ang bawat salita na iyon.

A tears ran down my face...

Mama...

I run into her to hug her but I fell from a cold ground..

No! I don't wanna wake up! Piping kausap ko sa isip ko. Pero parang may sariling isip ang mga mata ko at unti unti itong bumukas.

And there... In a bed...

I saw a beautiful angel who was peacefully sleeping...

"Deinnielle..." I muttered in a very low voice.

I tried to sit back when I realize that I was in a familiar place. Agad na nabaling ang tingin ko sa babae na nakahiga sa higaan ko.

"No.... this can't be..." my voice was shaking... why is she here?

My mind was in berserk. Fuck! My eyes scanned the whole room and looking for something. I need to fucking call Kim.

"Ly?" A soft voice called my name. Napapikit ako habang nagtatagis ang mga bagang ko..

I need to calm down... don't do anything reckless you mother fucker... Ilang segundo pa kong nakapilit at pilit na kinakalma ang sarili ng maramdama ko ang marahang paghalos sa mga pisngi ko...

Fuck!!! Piping sigaw ng bahagi ng isip ko..

"Ssshhh... it's ok baby..."  marahan nya kong hinila palapit sa kanya at hinahaplos ang buhok ko habang nakapatong sa balikat nya ang ulo ko. I can smell her familiar sweet scent. "Shhhhh now baby.... I'm just here..."

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Biglang nag unahang magbagsakan ang mga luha mula sa mga mata ko... My heart can't contain what I've dreamed about. I was longing for that person,for those smiles, her happy face,  for that soft gentle voice. I fucking missed my Mom so much.