You Never Asked (Completed)

Revealing Some Hard Facts.

      Sid and Sana were sitting in each other's arm, their fingers entwined.
Sana: Ring bahot pretty hai.
Sid: Hmmm.. 
Sana: Tujhe yaad hai Siddharth tune mujhe Mahi di ki shadi ke din ek bracelet diya tha...
Sid: Ha jo tune lene me kitna natak kiya tha....
Sana: Natak nhi.... Mujhe tujhse sirf pyar chahiye tha. Yeh sab cheezo ki mujhe na kabhi kwaish the, na hai. Mujhe sirf tu chahiye. Aur ha fir tune usse gusse me fekh diya tha. Kitna gussa karta tha na tu?? Bracelet fek diya... Aise koi karta hai kya??
Sid: To aur kya karta?? Tu maan he nhi rahi the.
Sana: Par fir le liya na??
Sid: Hmmm.
Sana: Siddharth vo bracelet mujhe bechna pada tha....
    Siddharth bend and looked at Sana with confusion in his eyes.
Sana: Siddharth mai iss ghar me shift hue, tab Zoro bahot bimaar ho gaya tha.
     Sana could feel Sid's body stiffen.
Sid: Kya hua tha usko??
Sana: Jaundice ho gaya tha. Hospital me admit karna pada tha. Di aur bhai dono out of lndia gaye the. Aur mere paas paise nhi the. Nayi job the yeh company me. To loan bhi nhi mang sakti the. To mujhe bahot majburi me usse bichna pada. I'm sorry Siddharth...
    Sid pulled her closer and hugged her tight.
Sid: I'm sorry Jaana. Hamare bacche ki liye sab kuch tune he to kiya. Mai bass tujhse nafrat karne me itna busy tha, ki zindagi ke aise mushkilen kabhi ho sakti hai, yeh soocha he nhi. Yahi to farak hai tere aur mere me. Maine cheh saal tujhse sirf nafrat ki aur tune sirf pyaar.
Sana: Aise nhi hai Siddharth. Tune mujhse kabhi nafrat nhi ki. Bas tu naraaz tha mujhse aur khud se bhi yeh sooch kar ki tu nafrat kyu nhi kar pata hai mujhse. Yeh sab baate chod chal mujhe ek acchi si kiss de.
Sid: As you wish ma'am.
     Saying so he laid himself on the mattress pulling Sana over him. He brought his lips to hers in a slow sensual kiss, suckling and nibbling, making her shudder against him. Sid pulled down one end of her saree exposing her blouse, holding her full round breast. He moved down and kissed the exposed valley above the blouse. She moaned and he again moved upwards to take her half open mouth with his. He was hard as a rock by now. He just wanted to be inside her at that moment.
Sana: Siddharthh.... Baby...
    Sid felt Sana go still.
Sid: Kya hua??
Sana: Baby kuch kahu??
Sid: Abhi??
Sana: Hmmm...
Sid: Jaana please baad me na....
Sana: Sun na Siddharth....
    Sid moved and looked straight in her eyes.
Sid: Bolo....
Sana: Baby kya hum shaadi tak rukh jaaye to??
Sid: Kya?? Par kyu??
Sana: Baby hamari first night special honi chahiye.
Sid: Baby par hamari first night already ho chuki hai. Hamare baccha hai.
Sana: Siddharth..... Hamare shaadi ki night.
Sid: Mujhe yeh logic he nhi samaj aa raha hai. Thek hai agar Tu yahi chahti hai to.
Sana: Baby Tu naraaz hai?? Agar Tu rukna nhi chahta to.....
Sid: Jaana mai bilkul naraaz nhi hu. Meri Jaana ka hukum sar aakho par.
Sana: Ek aur baat bolu??
Sid: Ab yeh mat bol ke kiss nhi kar sakte. Vo mai nhi maan sakta.
Sana: Aree nhi..... Vo baat nhi hai.
Sid: To fir??
Sana: Mujhe bhuk lagi hai.
Sid: Ohhh... Ha ha sweetheart, abhi arrangement karvata hu.
     Sid made a phone call and within no time the table was set.
Sid: Chale??
Sana: Hmmm chal. Dekhte hai iss baar kya order kiya hai tune??
     Sid took hold of Sana's hand and led her to the table. Sid had ordered Punjabi cuisine this time. Sana's eyes became wet.
Sid: A special chef was  flown from Punjab, taki tujhe vo typical punjabi khane ka taste aaye.
     She hugged him encircling her arms around his neck and kissed his lips.
Sid: Ab tempt mat kar. Nahi to yeh khana, yehi reh jaayega. Aur hum uss mattress pe honge.
Sana: Nahi nhi. Chal khaate hai.
    The food was delicious. Sana loved every bit of it. She told him stories about her childhood and her memories related to each dish. Sid realised she is a total chatter box. She could talk non stop when she is not in any stress. Just like a small kid. This was cute. And Sid felt happy that he could bring out this side of Sana. Sid sat with his face in his hand, looking at this beautiful innocent girl. How lucky he felt right now. As if he had conquered the world, when he conquered her heart. Sana waved her hand in front of Sid's face. He blinked.
Sana: Kaha khoya tha?? Tu meri baat sun nhi raha tha na??
Sid: Sun to raha hu meri Jaan.
Sana: Nahi tu nhi sun raha tha.
Sid: Accha sorry. Mai teri aakho me kho gaya tha...
Sana: Yeh filmy dialogue mat maar mere saamne.
Sid: Aree sach me. Accha bol konsa ice cream kaayegi??
Sana: Ice cream??
Sid: Zoro bhi itna excited nhi hota hoga ice cream ka naam sun ke, jitna tu ho rahi hai.
Sana: Aise kuch nhi hai. Tu manga.
Sid: Yeh bhi mai he mangau??
Sana: Haa.
Sid: Chalo theek hai.
Sana: Ab aadat daal le. Yeh ab hamesha aise he chalega.
Sid: Aur mujhe iss baat ki bahot khushi hai.
    Sid pulled her chair closer and kissed her cheek. They ate icecream. This time Sid spoke about his childhood. It was passed midnight.
Sid: Chale??
Sana: Hmmm.
    Sid stood up, pulled her to him and started walking. But Sana pulled him back.
Sid: Kya hua??
Sana: Ek selfie to banti hai.
    Sid chuckled and obliged. They clicked many. At every spot every corner. She wants to remember every bit of this night.
     It was one at night when they reached home. Sid entered Sana's flat and stood in the middle of the room.
Sana: Chai piyega??
Sid: Nahi. Mai chalta hu.
    Sana turned and looked at him. She walked towards him and circled her arms around his waist pulling him closer.
Sana: Kyu??
Sid: Jaana Mai...
Sana: Yahi ruk jaa na. Mujhe apne baaho me leke so.
Sid: Baby.....
Sana: Beta bolta hai to ruk jaata hai. Aur mai bolu to....
Sid: Sana tu jaanti hai aise nhi hai. Why don't you understand?? Tu jaanti nhi hai, tujhe apne baaho me lekar sona aur kuch na kar paana, kitna mushkil hai.
Sana: Siddharth aise kuch nhi hai. Tu chahe to hum kar sakte hai. Vo maine bass, aise he mere mann me aaya to keh diya.
Sid: Aree nhi baby. Aisi koi baat nhi hai. Aur teri har khwaish har marzi puri karna ab meri zimmedaari hai. Aur mai koshish karunga ke mai vo pura tarah nibhau.
Sana: Mai jaanti hu.
Sid: Chal de mujhe vo shehbaaz ki kapde. Mujhe apna ek night dress yaha laakar rakhna padega ab.
Sana: Hmmm. Chal deti hu.
Sid: Aur acchi se chai pila ek. Nahi infact mai tujhe apne haato ki pilata hu.
Sana: Thek hai.
     They were sitting in Sana's bed. Sana has rested her head on Sid's chest. They were sipping tea, both lost in thoughts.
Sid: Jaana??
Sana: Hmmm??
Sid: How was Zoro born?? Was it normal or C-section?? Tune kya kiya?? Akele kaise manage kiya?? Mujhe sab jaan na hai.
Sana: Siddharth mai tujhe bata dungi. Par promise kar tu har cheez ke liye khud ko guilty feel nhi karvayega. Tu dukhi ho jaata hai. Aur mujhe accha nhi lagta.
Sid: Baby, par mai....
Sana: Fir mai nhi bataaungi.
Sid: Accha accha. Nahi dukhi hota. Bata.
Sana: Siddharth tere jaane ki do mahine baad, jab mujhe periods nhi aaye to mai samaj gayi the. Mai bahot darr gayi the. Us waqt mai Mahi di ke Mummy ki ghar par reh rahi the. Bhai aur Di ko privacy mile, isliye maine aunty se request ki the ki mujhe thode mahino ki liye unke yaha bula le. Di bilkul bhi maan nhi rahi the. Mere mamle me vo bilkul bhi kisi pe trust nhi karti the. Ab bhi nhi karti hai. Par fir maine aunty ko apne akele hone ka bahana banane ko kaha. Di badi mushkil se maan gayi. Di ki mummy mujhe bahot pyar karti hai. Unke yaha ek bahot purani lady thi. Hum sab unko tai bulate hai. Vo Sunita ki mummy hai. Tai bhi bahot pyar karti mujhe. Uss din mai parlour se aate aate pregnancy kit le aai. Himmat nhi ho rahi the test karne ki. Uss din nhi kiya. Next day bhi pura din aise he nikaal diya. Fir shaam tak meri anxiety bad gayi the. Test kiya to positive aaya. Mujhe pata to tha hi. Ander se feel aa gaya tha mujhe. Confirm hote he tujhe message kiya. Tera jawaab nhi aaya. To dusre din fir kiya.... Khair fir mere paas koi option nhi tha. Di ko batana tha. Par..... Siddharth mai sab kuch seh sakti hu, par di ki naraazgi nhi. Fir jab di ko bataya to pehle to vo bahot tension me aa gayi.
     Sana still remembers that scene very clearly. She had told Mahi one month later, after she came to know about her pregnancy.
    SIX YEARS AGO, IN MAHI'S BEDROOM.
Mahi: Sana yeh kya bol rahi hai tu?? Yeh sab kab, kaise?? Mujhe sab bata... Kon hai vo?? Usse bataya tune??
Sana: Di mai aapko uska naam nhi bata sakti.
Mahi: Kyu?? Kyu nhi bata sakti??
Sana: Kyuki vo chala gaya hai. Aur mujhe pata nhi vo kaha hai.
Mahi: To call kar usko...
Sana: Usne number change kar liya hai.
Mahi: Fir isse to clear hai, ki vo tujhse koi rishta nhi rakhna chahta.
Sana: Haa di. Nahi rakhna chahta vo mujhse koi rishta. Usne jaate samay yeh clear kar diya tha.
Mahi: Sana... Baby.....tu mujhe bata. Mai usko accha sabak sikhati hu.
Sana: Di.... Mujhe yeh sab nhi karna hai. Vo meri zindagi me laut kar nhi aana chahta. Aur jo nhi aana chahta usse wapas zabardasti lakar kya fayda??
Mahi: To fir to baat he khatm na?? Tu abortion karvale fir. Tujhe bhi kyu chahiye yeh....
Sana: Kya?? Nahi di. Please yeh mat khaho. Mai bilkul iss bacche ko abort nhi karungi. Mujhe yeh baccha chahiye. Please. Please.
Mahi: Par baby. Tu kaise manage karegi yeh sab. Tu sirf abhi twenty two years ki hai. Puri zindagi padi hai tere aage. Yeh bacche ki sath kon apnayega tujhe??
Sana: Nahi di mujhe abhi apne life me koi bhi adami nhi chahiye. Bahot dekh liye inke pyar aur inki wafadari. Mai apne bacche ko he zindagi ka sabse pada sahara bana ki jina chahti hu. Please mujhe iss bacche ko iss duniya me laane me madat karo. Mai bahot mehnat karungi. Mai isse bahot acchi life dungi. Please meri help karo di. Please.
    Sana had cried with pain and craving for Sid. But she knew he will not come back.
Mahi: Theek hai. Chal hum dono milkar iss bacche ko yeh duniya me laate hai. Tere liye. Tu bilkul tension mat le. Mai hu tere sath.
Sana: Thank you. Thank you so much di.
    Sana came out from the past and looked up to see, Sid sitting still, like a statue. Hearing Sana tell him her's and Mahi's conversation, made Sid want the ground to open and elope him in. How was he so reckless?? He should have atleast enquired about her once in these years.
Sana: Siddharth??
Sid: Aage kya hua??
Sana: Siddharth Tu aise.....
Sid: Please continue jaana...
     Sana knew she will have to finish what she has started. It may pain him now. But it is time to tell him everything related to his son. It's his right to know. She lay her head again on his chest and he automatically circle his arms around her, as if he was needing some support , Something strong to hold on to.
Sana: Fir di ne mujhe ek office me kaam dilvaya. Vo estate agent ka office tha. Vo thoda bait kar kaam tha, aur pay bhi acchi de raha tha vo banda. Bhai ka friend tha vo. Kaam, padai aur pregnancy me agli cheh mahine kaise nikal gaye pata hi nhi chala. Aur fir Zoro iss duniya me aa gaya. Ek dum normal delivery the aur jab maine usse godh me liya na Siddharth to mujhe laga, ki bass iske baad mujhe ab kuch nhi chahiye. Sab zindagi ke armaan pure ho gaye mere.......Fir mere mummy papa ko pata chala aur vo mujhe lene aaye. Mai unke sath Punjab chali gayi. Soocha thoda aaraam se reh kar jab Zoro thoda bada hoga to aa jaaungi. Par fir ek raat papa ne mujhe bagair bataye, mere bacche ko anaath aashram me dene ki koshish ki. Unhe laga ki yeh baccha na hoga, to vo meri shaadi kisi acche bande se kara paayenge. Par vo nhi jaante the ke yeh baccha he mere jine ka maksad tha. Mai vaha se papa ko bagair bataya wapas laut aai. Di ko bas ek call he kafi tha. Unhone mera flight ka ticket karvaya aur mai jab mumbai pahuchi to airport ki bahar vo mujhe khadi mili. Bhai aur di ke liye mai apni jaan bhi de sakti hu Siddharth. Vo bhi kam he hoga. Fir jab Zoro do mahine ka ho gaya, mere graduation ka result aa gaya. Di ne mujhe Mba karne ka suggestion diya aur usse waqt mujhe ek call centre se job ka offer aaya. International bpo tha to, night shift the. Sab kaise manage hoga. Raat ko mai Zoro ko kaise chod jaau, yehi sooch me the, tab tai ne mujhe kaha ki raat me vo Zoro ko Sambhalegi. Fir mai raat ko kaam par jaati aur din me apni padai aur hamara baccha sanbhalti. Do saal  ki aise struggle ki baad mere Mba complete hua aur mujhe iss company se job offer aa gaya. Aur fir jaise maine apna beta tai ko soupa tha vaise he tai ne apni beti Sunita mujhe soup di. Thode dino baad mai iss ghar me Zoro aur Sunita ki saath shift ho gaye. Aur fir bhagwaan ne mera sath diya aur promotion bhi fast milta gaya. Aur ab dekh sab kuch hai mere paas. Tu hai mere paas.
    She looked up and saw Sid's sad expression. She brought her arm up and stroke his cheek.
Sana: Baby tune promise kiya tha....
    Sid did not say anything, but just looked at her, as if he was watching the most precious thing in the world. He kissed her forehead and laid on his back, taking her with him.
Sid: So jaa Jaana...
Sana: Par baby....
Sid: Maine kaha na, just sleep.
     Sana knew he needs time for himself. To think, to register all this information into him. He will feel better by morning. She knew. So she lay, her head on his chest, her hand circled around his waist and closed her eyes.
    Oh God. What all has this woman gone through, just to bring their child in this world. He needs to worship the ground she walks in. Sid thought. She had worked day and night, just so as to give Zoro a good life. She could so easily have aborted the child and led a carefree life, just like other girls of her age would normally do. But she choose this impossibly difficult, path just because she loved him and wanted to bring his child in this world. She had done this all alone without any monetary support from anyone. Not even him. Where she had every right to ask for. How can he get so lucky?? It must be his mother's prayers that he is blessed with such wonderful and amazing woman in his life.
    Sana woke up to find the empty bed. Has he left?? She walked to the Hall to find him standing in the balcony lost in thought. She went to him and hugged him from behind.
Sana: Tu soya nhi na??
Sid: Hmmm
    He leaned behind, so as to feel her more closer to him. She turned him around and looked directly in his eyes.
Sana: Kya sooch raha hai?? Kahi mujhe chodne ka to nhi sooch raha??
Sid: Pagal hai kya tu?? Tu aur mai to ab mere maut pe he alag honge.
Sana: Subah subah bakwas baate mat kar.
Sid: Tujhe chod kar kaha jaaunga mai Jaana. Chal andar chal. Baithe hai.
     Sid led her and sat on the sofa taking her on his lap.
Sid: Yes. This feels just perfect.
Sana: Hmmm
    She encircled her arms around his neck.
Sid: Pehle to thank you. Yeh word ka koi mol he nhi, tune jo kiya hai uske aage. Par fir bhi. Thank you so much. Jaana tujhse mai ek vaada karna chahta hu.
Sana: Vada??
Sid: Ha vaada. Vo yeh ki Zoro par hamesha pehla haq tera hoga. Life me uske koi decision ho, ya koi kamyaabi ho, ya kuch bhi... Uspe mere se pehla haq tera he hoga. And that's a promise from me to you.
Sana: Siddharth aise kyu bol raha hai tu?? Hum dono milkar sab faisle karenge uske liye. Hum dono milkar hamare bacche ko acchi parvaresh dengi. Hum.
    She gave him a peck.
Sid: Jaana mujhe kuch aur logo to thank you bolna chahiye. Jay aur Mahi ka to mai zindagi bhar ahsaan mand rahunga. Aur mujhe tumhari tai se bhi milna hai.
Sana: Ha thank you to bolna chahiye tujhe. Tujhe pata hai Sid di aur bhai ne mujh par aur fir Zoro par bahot paise kharach kiye hai. Aur kabhi uss baare me baat bhi nhi ki. Mujhe to pata bhi nhi kitne. Aur mai ab usse dekar unke feelings hurt nhi karna chahti. Isliye maine tara ki naam ka ek account khola hai. Har mahine mai usme paise daalti hu.
Sid: Ab se mai bhi usme daalunga.
Sana: Uski koi zarurat nhi hai Siddharth...
Sid: Jaana ab se mera ya tumhara kuch nhi hai. Sab hamara hai. Yeh yaad rakhna.
Sana: Thek hai baby.
Sid: Hmmm. Accha ab bata shadi kab karni hai??
Sana: Mere liye sab kuch bhai aur di he decide karenge. Aur mujhe apne ghar walo ko bhi batana hai Siddharth.
Sid: Theek hai. Par jo karna hai jaldi kar Jaana. Ab mai tujhse aur apne bacche se zyada der dur nhi rehna chahta.
Sana: I love you baby.
Sid: I love you too meri jaan.

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