Always You

Why Her?

Emily POV

Watching my best friend get married should he a happy occasion but for me that's not the case. You see watching the man you've loved most of your life marry someone else is heartbreaking the first time, but this is the second time and it's damn near killing me.

Add to that his new wife can't stand me and well you can imagine why I want to be anywhere but here right now.
You may ask why I don't just walk away and allow myself to move on, there's two reasons, one regardless of how he feels about me I want him in my life and two his beautiful 13 year old daughter, my god daughter Alanna.

Alanna's mother Samantha and I have always got along so much so that she is also my best friend. She figured out quite early on how I felt about Randy and she never saw me as a threat becuase she knew I would never act on my feelings.

Kim on the other hand does see me as threat so much so that she treats me like some sort of disease that needs to be eradicated quickly.
I tried once to tell Randy but he has this ability to see nothing but good in everyone to the point that it blinds him to their less attractive qualities.

It came as no suprise to me when I arrived and found that I had been given a seat as far back from the ceremony as possible, and I knew exactly who was responsible.

At the reception we can sit where we like so I made sure to sit right where Randy and Kim would see me, and it pleases me no end to see the look on her face as he makes a beeline for me.

"Em, there you are I thought you hadn't come" he says wrapping his arms around me.

"You know the deal, my best friend wants me there I'm there" I say taking the opportunity to smirk at Kim over his shoulder "I was sat right at the back"

"Odd I had you seated right up front" he says looking confused

"Well there must have been some kind of mix up I guess" I smile

"Yeah I guess so" he agrees "anyway I've got to go mingle but you'll save a dance for me right?" He asks

"Don't I always" I reply and he smiles at me before heading off to mingle

"Just the girl I was looking for" a voice says as an arm is wrapped lazily around my shoulder

"Hi Bob, how are you doing?" I say turning to smile at Randy's father

"All the better for seeing you" he smiles "now you know my son better than anyone, so can you explain to me why in the hell he's married this woman?" He asks making me chuckle

"You know Randy he sees the good in everyone, maybe he sees something we don't" I shrug

"Well I know exactly what she sees in him" he grumbles and then points at Kim "that should be you"

"Well now for that to happen he would have to love me and we both know he doesn't" I sigh

"Yeah and that makes him a damn fool" he sighs

As Bob heads off to find Elaine I return to my seat at the table, a quick look at Kim tells me I have daggers in every available appendage right now and I couldn't care less.

"Aunty Emily" Alanna calls out as she heads over to me

"Hey sweetie" I say giving her a big hug "hey Sam" I say smiling up at her mother

"So I was just talking to Randy" she says giving me a look that says I have explaining to do "a mix up really?"

"Come on Sam you know he won't listen" I sigh

"Alanna honey go find grandpa, me and Aunty Emily need to talk" Samantha says and Alanna skips off.

"So you're just going to keep letting her do this?" She asks

"What am I supposed to do?" I ask "he won't listen and I can't prove a damn thing"

"He needs to see her for what she is, a petty, jealous, crazy ass bitch" Sam says making me chuckle "you and I know he's not perfect, that he has his faults, but do you know how many times I have heard her on the phone to somebody bitching about him!"

"Seriously?" I ask "she better hope I never hear her, nobody bitches about him and gets away with it.......what?" I say noticing her smiling at me

"Nothing it's just sweet how protective you are of him" she smiles "and I'm also loving the fact you sat right in her line of vision"

"Well she needs to know that I'm not going anywhere" I say "and she is not going to win, the only way she'll get rid of me is if Randy tells me to get out of his life and she knows that will never happen"

"What in the world is she trying to achieve?" Sam asks nodding towards the dance floor, following her gaze I see Kim making out with Randy but her eyes are open and fixed on me.

"I think she's trying to make me jealous" I laugh "she has no idea"

"Wait she doesn't know?" Sam asks "oh this is too perfect"

Back when Randy and I were 19 we had had one night together, at the time and in the heat of the moment I was happy that he was kissing me that it never occurred to me that he was doing so because he'd had a couple of drinks.
The next morning I woke up to an empty bed and when I finally found him the regret I saw in his eyes told me all I need to know.

But thats why Kim's attempts at making me jealous never work becuase of the three women in his life, I had been with him first, I knew what it was like to kiss him, what his touch felt like, I knew what it all felt like and so how can I be jealous when I had him first even if it was just one night.