One week later
Emily POV
The day of Alanna's party rolled around a lot quicker than I would have liked, it wasn't that I didn't want to see my god daughter it's more that I was nervous about being around Randy.
We hadn't spoken since the day he had come to my house and I'd be lying if I said I didn't miss him, I missed him so much that it physically hurt, I missed talking to him, I missed being around him, I missed his hugs, his laugh, basically everything about him.
But no matter how much I missed him I couldn't forgive him, and that's what was going to make today difficult, it's easy to stay mad at him when I don't see him but being around him is a whole different matter, when it comes to him I'm weak and he knows just how easy it is to get me to forgive him.
Arriving at Sam's I'm suprised to find that I've got their before Randy, normally he's the first to arrive at Alanna's birthday parties.
"Hey how are you holding up?" Sam asks giving me a hug
"I miss him Sam" I sigh
"I know but you are doing the right thing" she says "do not let him turn your head today, no matter what he does or says"
"I won't I promise" I say "where is he anyway?" I ask
"Running late apparently" she says "but then it must take Kim a long time to look that cheap" she says and I laugh
"Where's the birthday girl?" I ask
"In her room getting ready" she says "you can go through if you want"
Heading through the house to Alanna's room I hear Steps music flowing down the hall and I can't help but smile, at least there is still some one to torture Randy with this.
Walking in to her room I say nothing I just join in with her dancing and she smiles at me.
"Hey Aunty Emily" she smiles
"Hey happy birthday sweetpea" I say smiling back at her
"Do you think you me and dad can do this later?" She asks
"Um I don't think so honey" I say "I'm really sorry"
"I wish dad never met Kim" she says sitting on the bed "since she came along all you do is fall out, she's ruining everything"
"Hey I know this isn't easy for you" I say crouching in front of her "but I promise things will get better it's just going to take time"
"Pinky promise" she says holding out her little finger
"Pinky promise" I smile hooking my little finger around hers before giving her a hug
"I love you sweetpea don't ever forget that" I say
"I love you too" she says
"Alanna your dad is here" Sam calls from the kitchen and Alanna looks at me
"Go it's fine" I smile
I follow a few steps behind her and watch as Randy scoops her up in his arms, there no doubting how much he loves his little girl, or how much she loves him, I just hope that Kim doesn't try to come between them too.
Randy, Kim and Alanna head out to the garden with Sam following behind with food for the buffet, I head over to the kitchen to see what I can do to help, I start to slice up a cucumber for the salad when I feel arms wrap around me from behind and I don't need to look to know who's they are, but for the first time the embrace I have always loved hurts instead.
"Don't touch me" I say trying wriggling out of his grasp and resisting the urge to lean back against him
"Em talk to me please" he says tightening his arms around me and resting his chin on my shoulder
"Please Randy, there's nothing to say" I sigh "just let go of me"
"You really want to throw everything away" he says his breath tickling my neck
"Look today is about Alanna not us" I say turing to face him well aware that his arms are still around me and he nows has me trapped between him and the worktop "let's just focus on her and leave this alone for one day"
"Em I......" placing my hand over his mouth to stop him I look straight into his piercing blue eyes.
"I don't want to hear it Randy, right now it's just empty words" I say "You're saying it to get me to forgive you, you don't really mean it, because if you loved me at all you would do as I ask"
"You really think I'd say it if I didn't mean it?" He says stepping back from me "you know I don't use those words lightly Em, and it hurts that you think that of me"
"Well then we're even" I say "we've both hurt each other" I say walking away from him and out into the garden
Heading towards Sam, she takes one look and me and then at Randy and she knows he's been with me.
"What did he do?" She asks
"Tried to get me to talk to him" I sigh "tried to tell me he loved me but I stopped him before he could"
"I'm proud of you girl" she says rubbing my shoulder "but I know it must of hurt like hell"
"I think it hurt him more, I said he didn't mean it when he said he loved me" I say
Staring back in time
The two of us intertwined
And your black boots
Walking fast next to mine
"Is that what I think it is?" Sam asks as music starts to play
"Yes it is" I sigh "it's our song" turning around I expect to find Randy making a beeline for me, instead what I see shatters my heart completely.
They called us crazy cuz we never fit in
We never thought of keeping up with their trends
It didn't matter that we weren't on the list
Cuz we were misfits
We were misfits
As the words fill my ears tears roll down my cheeks as I watch Randy dance with Kim to our song. Instead of him walking towards me I had had to watch him walk towards her.
"I'm going to fucking kill him" Sam growls moving forward but I stop her
"Leave it, let them have the song" I say my eyes fixed on them "it obviously didn't mean as much to him as it meant to me"
"Em, he's crossed a line here" she says
"It doesn't matter" I say "He's made his point, me and him are done, the part that hurts the most is I promised Alanna things would get better"
Walking back into the house I go back to the cucumber I was chopping earlier and try to ignore the song that meant the world to me playing outside.
Sam joins me but says nothing as we continue preparing the food.
"Aww whats wrong" Kim says in a mocking tone "finally realised he doesn't want you"
"YOU FUCKING BITCH" Sam shouts and again I stop her moving
"Camera now" I whisper and she nods
"Whats the matter, afraid I'll kick her ass" Kim laughs
"Honey you couldn't fight your way out of a wet paper bag, ain't no way you'd kick Sam's ass" I laugh
"Don't underestimate me" Kim says
"What the fuck is your problem Kim?" I ask "I've done what you asked I've stayed away and yet I'm still listening to your bullshit"
"Then why were the two of you alone together in here?" She asks
"Take that up with your husband, he came to me" I say
"I'm warning you stay away from him" she says before walking back outside.
Sam hits the stop button and walks over the the door
"Randy get your sorry ass in here now!" She shouts
When he walks through the door, she hands him her phone
"You wanted proof watch that" she says
We both watch Randy as he watches the screen but his face is unreadable, he places the phone on the counter and looks at both of us.
"All I see is Em starting a fight and provoking Kim" he says before walking away
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Always You
FanfictionEmily has been in love with her best friend Randy for as long as she can remember, but she has always kept it to herself. Randy's new wife Kim seeing her as a threat is doing all that she can to push Emily out of his life. But when Emily finds out t...
