Surviving Bucky

Woken Demons

As Mya was thrashing on the bed, she felt the breath leave her body as her body began to go limp.

Why?

Wanda and Vison came crashing through the door after they heard the lamp shatter.

"Mya!" Wanda yelled as she threw a ball of energy at Bucky, knocking him off. Bucky stood up and lunged at Wanda, but Vision was quick to grab him and fling him out of the room.

Wanda stood over Mya as she was smacking her cheek, trying to wake her up. She then began to do compressions on her chest.

"Mya, wake up damnnit!" With the final one, Mya woke up choking for air as her face was red from trying to breathe too rapidly. Wanda wrapped her arms around Mya as she comforted her. Wanda knew all too well what it was like to fight with the demons in your head.

"Are you all right?" Vision sat next to Mya as he grabbed her wrist," Your pulse is racing."

"I'm fine.... But what the hell just happened?"

"As much as I hate to say this, but you need Bucky to explain it to you," Wanda said as she squeezed her hand, nodding at her reassuringly.

"Will you stay with me?" Mya asked her with pleading, scared eyes.

"Of course, Vision, bring him back here." Vison nodded his head as he flew through the wall. He soon came back in with Bucky, who had his head hanging low and had a disgusted look on his face.

"Mya... I am so sorry. "

"Bucky, tell me what happened, please."

"I promise Mya, I am not going to hurt you. Let me talk to you alone. " he searched her eyes with his blue ones that were pleading with her to trust him. Mya looked over at Vision and Wanda and nodded her head. Once they left the room, Bucky grabbed the chair on the other side of the room and placed his head in his hands, rubbing his temples.

"I am so sorry that for a second, I even thought about hurting you. I would never hurt you, Mya."

"When I think about it more and more, Bucky, I don't even know you. But not once did I ever think you would hurt me."

"I wouldn't! Just sometimes, when I sleep, I have flashbacks of who I used to be, and I can't control the demons in my head." Mya stood up from the bed as she walked over to Bucky. she grabbed his hand and pulled him towards the bed. She motioned for him to sit down next to her.

"I know all about not being able to fight your own demons, but just talk to me, Bucky. Let me help you." Bucky shook his head as his eyes got glassy, and he bit his bottom lip.

"I've hurt innocent people before because my mind was not my own. Hydra had taken me in the First World War and trained me to be an assassin for them. Killing hundreds until they decided to save me as an asset for the future by freezing me. All that time I spent frozen, I had nightmares of all the people I killed. Families, politicians, children, women. Everyone and anyone that they put on my hit list." Mya threw her arms around him as she pulled him in, holding the back of his head, his body shaking.

"That wasn't your fault. I heard stories of the Winter Soldier when I worked for SHEILD. But I always thought it was weird that they knew so many details about the gruesome deaths of the innocent people and how they only shrugged it off. That's when I first began to suspect that SHEILD had gone dirty."

"I promise you, Mya. I am not that same man anymore, just sometimes I have nightmares, and that's when the Winter Soldier comes back."

"Tell me what I can do, Bucky."

"I know this sounds insane, but please don't leave me alone."

"I won't, I promise. Go to sleep, Bucky. I will watch over you." Bucky and Mya laid back against the bed as she cradled his head with her arms. She took a deep breath as she inhaled the smell of his deodorant; he smelled amazing.

Mya knew she was insane for staying after he almost killed her, but there was something about his damaged spirit that called out to hers.

"I promise I'll be here in the morning." she leaned down and kissed his forehead as she watched him drift off to sleep.