Their Closure

thirty-nine

hey. so i just want to say that i'm loving that this book is getting so much recognition. i love seeing your comments and i love reading your opinions. however, i hope you all know that as much as i try to interpret your wishes into the book, i may not actually get a chance. i still have to develop the plot AND end the book for the next two chapters, so it'll be hard for me to include little things like quality time between two characters. i'm trying my best.
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Marinette's POV
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If I told myself three years ago that I'd soon be dating Adrien Agreste and carrying his baby, I'd simply freak out.

Being with this boy has completely changed my life. He's changed how I view life, and how I view people.

I look up at him and I see that he's fallen asleep. Ugh, he promised me last week that he would watch Clara's show with me.

Whatever.

I smile and give him a kiss on his cheek. I lean my head against his and he automatically leans his head against mine.

I close my eyes. I can smell his cologne and a mix of camembert and it instantly brought me back to that one day in class.

He fell asleep on me, and he got sad. Then I went home with him and we talked. And he confessed his love for Ladybug.

I inwardly laugh at myself. I was so hurt when I heard him say those words. If only I knew that this man was my soulmate, but also my partner in crime.

Adrien has taught me to be grateful for the little things. He never lectured me about it or even spoke about it, just watching his attitude and how grateful he is for everything is simply a lesson that I needed to be taught.

I'm happy to know that I'm not alone in this superhero world. I'm happy that he's Chat Noir. I wouldn't want it to be anyone else honestly.

But I'm not happy with who Hawk Moth is. I need to tell Adrien.

But how?

My eyes well with tears as I remember what happened the last time he figured it out.

"Now you're breaking more than my heart, Marinette!"

Chat Blanc's words rang in my ears every night. He lived in my nightmares and is ranked #1 in my worst fears.

It pains me to see him in that state, and it pains me to know that Chat Blanc is actually Adrien. It's Adrien's pain, Adrien's words, and Adrien's actions.

And it pains me even more to think about Plagg. He was powering up Adrien the entire time, and I'm sure he figured out who Hawk Moth was. He was probably crushed at the fact that he lived under the same roof as Nooroo, and he had to power up Chat Blanc for months on end.

And Tikki and Nooroo. When I went underwater, I felt my face. I fell apart. Literally. I was stone. I was dead. Hawk Moth was beside me and he was in the same state.

We were both dead, and we still had our superhero suits on.

So what happened to Tikki and Nooroo?

I shook the thought out of my head and I looked up at Adrien again.

How the flying fuck will I tell him that his own father is Hawk Moth?

I feel so selfish.

So greedy.

I need to tell him.

But how?

I want to kiss him. I want to kiss him for eternity. I want to be with him with absolutely no worries in the world. I want to be with him and our baby. I want to run away to an island, live off of nothing but fruit, raise our babies in the most natural way, have a hamster named-

"Marinette?" Adrien woke up and looked down at me with concern. "What's wrong?"

I realized that my face is wet and I had been crying.

I quickly wipe my tears and fake a smile. "Nothing."

He looks over me and I follow his gaze. Plagg and Tikki are cuddled up on a blanket and they're fast asleep.

"I know there's something wrong." He whispers to me. "I just want to know how you feel. I love you."

I felt my eyes well up with tears again. He never failed to tell me how much he loved me and I hate myself for allowing him.

I don't deserve this.

I don't deserve him.

I'm a liar.

He deserves better.

"Don't cry, baby." He wipes my tears and cups my face. "I'm here. It's okay." He hugs me and I practically melt.

"You deserve better." I whisper in his ear and pull away from him. I can't do this. "I'm not perfect, Adrien. You know that. I can't be the person you deserve."

"I love you just the way you are, m'lady." He reminds me. "You are more than enough, especially for me. I want you, and only you. I love you, and only you."

I sit in silence. I'm not used to hearing those words from him, I'm way more used to being vulnerable with Chat. I don't know how to feel. I always vented to Chat, and this would be my first time venting to Adrien.

It's almost as if Adrien read my mind. He sits up straight and says, "Plagg, claws out."

I blink and next thing I know, Chat Noir is sitting in front of me and my heart melts.

"I love you just the way you are, m'lady." Chat Noir repeats. He cups my face again and brings his face closer. "Don't ever forget that."

He leans his forehead against mine and we close our eyes.

I must tell him.

I must tell him now.

"Adrien..I have something to tell you." I break apart from him.

"Of course. You can tell me anything." Chat smiles.

"You won't forgive me..cause I've known for so long.." I look down and the tears escape my eyes.

"I'll always forgive you, Marinette." Chat Noir's face starts to express concern. "I'll always love you, and I'll always protect you."

I looked up and I can barely see him. My eyes are blurred with my tears and they're streaming down my face.

Chat sits there with a loving look, and he's waiting patiently for me.

Can I do this?

People may say "just say it", but how do you just say to your boyfriend that his father is Hawk Moth and he's keeping his mother in a coffin in their basement and he's after our magical jewels that we swore to protect with our lives?

I open my mouth to say it.

Next thing I know, Theo's calling for me and my room door opens. Chat quickly detransforms and I wipe my tears.

It was almost as if it was a sign that I shouldn't have told him.