"Uhm- paint I was painting in my room..."
"Okay..." Liam responds and everyone seems to let it go.
I changed and then we all watch a movie sitting on the couch and it was quite awkward for me. Zayn and Louis both decided to sit by me and to say I felt overwhelmed and crowded would be an understatement.
"I'm bored...Harry you aren't very entertaining as a host" Niall jokes.
I know he's joking, but he's right...I'm boring. Maybe that's why they all abandoned me. Maybe that's why I'm their last option.
"Then leave." I say in full seriousness.
Everyone turned and looked at me with a confused look. Oh my god I hate everything.
"Actually maybe all of you should leave I kinda don't really like any of you so-" I say without realizing what was coming out of my mouth. Shit! I knew this would happen! I knew I'd try pushing them all away at one point.
"Way harsh Haz..." Liam says.
I just look down at my feet on the verge of tears. Everyone gets up and leaves me alone once again. I go upstairs and into my bathroom.
"FUCK YOU! YOU FUCKING UGLY PIECE OF GOD DAMN TRASH! COULDNT YOU HAVE NOT BEEN SUCH AN IDIOT FOR ONCE! I HATE YOU! I HATE YOU! WHY DONT YOU JUST DIE! NOBODY WOULD CARE ANYWAYS!" I yell angrily at my reflection while sobbing.
"Harry?" I hear a voice that I recognize as Louis' say while he knocks on the door.
"Can we come in?" Liam chimes in.
"Sure hold on" I say as I walk out of the bathroom to see none of them left yet. "What's up"
"We heard you yelling...who were you yelling at?"
"Oh uhmmm I wasn't must've been the tv"
"No Harry it was you..."
"Harry please talk to us"
"I am"
"Harry why were you yelling all those cruel things...we just can't believe you'd talk to someone like that...it's so cruel..."
"I wasn't talking to anyone..."
"Harry don't lie...admit what you did was wrong...you need to apologize to this person..."
"Well it'd be strange to apologize to myself wouldn't it..." I accidentally say a bit too loud for just my ears.
"You were saying those things to yourself?"
"No!"
"Harry..."
I just stay quiet, afraid if I say anything else it'll get me more in deep shit.
"I don't think we should be hanging out with you anymore if you're gonna treat people like this...it's rude and unlike you...what happened to nice you.." Louis says and they all agree before taking they're leave.
He said he wouldn't leave me again. He said he would be there for me. Was it all a lie? Was it just because he felt pity for my pathetic self.
He promised....
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Goodbye l.s
Teen FictionWhen Harry falls into mental disorders of all sorts nobody is there to save him. He's at his lowest when forced to come have a reunion with the boys. He's embarrassed about his issues and doesn't want the boys to worry. What happens when they find o...
