Goodbye l.s

Chapter 25

Me and Louis have been getting along quite well for the past few months. We aren't back together, but it's nice to have him around.
"Louis"
"Yeah?"
"Can I paint your nails?"
"Erm...I don't know..."
"Oh okay"
"Sorry Haz it's just not something I do"
"Yeah no I get it"
"Harry...would you ever be willing to give us another shot?"
"I don't know.."
"Harry..I like you..a lot"
"Louis..I'm still hurt I don't think I'm ready for anything right now.."
"Oh."
There's a knock on the door and I answer to see zayn with a girl.
"Hi..." I say confused
"Hey! This is Perrie!"
"Oh hey..."
"Harryyyyy come backkkkk" Louis whines
"Do you wanna come in..?"
"Sure!"
We all sit on the couch. I sit with my leg s up to my chest in the corner trying as hard as possible not to take up too much space.
"So who's this?" Louis questions breaking the awkward silence.
"Perrie! My girlfriend." Ouch. Why did that hurt.
"Hey" I heard her say in an angelic voice
I sit silently as everyone else talks, eventually excusing myself which they hadn't even realized. I just to my room to sit on my bed and cry while watching Degrassi. A bit later everyone comes into my room. Seriously?! Im trying to chill. I noticed the episode playing was the one where Emma develops an eating disorder. Now they're gonna think im watching this cus I'm struggling again...great.
"What you watching?" Louis questions with wide smile.
"Haz...you know not to watch this! It triggers you!" Zayn says turning it off. Louis's smile quickly drops.
That wasn't even why I'm watching it. God everything is a trigger to them I hate it. Zayn starts giving me a long lecture.
"God Harry the fact you do this!" He hells and it suddenly all becomes too much.
"SHUT UP! RIGHT NOW SHUT THE FUCK UP!"
"Harry..."
"Leave." He stays there so I repeat, "LEAVE NOW GOD DAMMIT!"
"Haz...please don't...I wanna help you!"
"I wasn't watching it to trigger me! Not everything is a trigger! You treat me like a child that'll break at any given moment!"
"Harry...I'm just worried!"
"Yeah and you're just leaving! Byeee."
"No im not!"
"I HATE YOU! ALL OF YOU!" I didn't mean to say that. I quickly slap my hands over my mouth. Everyone's eyes are on me, it's unbearable. I get up and I walk into the bathroom, lock the door, and cry just cry. I don't hate them. I hate myself.
"Haz..let us in!" Louis says.
"No..."
"Please Haz...please!"
"Louis I...im sorry"
"Why are you sorry? Please just open the door."
I open it for him but quickly close and lock it again. He holds me in his arms and whispers sweet nothings to me.
"Louis I don't hate you I didn't mean to say that im sorry...I don't hate Zayn either..or Perrie.."
"I know love I know..."
I cuddle into him and try to relax. Eventually I'm calmed and I open the door to see zayn.
"Zayn..I'm sorry I don't hate you. I know you just care.."
"It's okay Haz I could've reacted calmer..."
"Where'd Perrie go?"
"We got into an argument...so she went home..."
"Oh...I'm sorry" it's my fault.
"Why?" Louis questions
"She said something rude about Harry and I confronted her..."
I froze. It's my fault. I'm a failure. I'm so useless. How do I manage to fuck up everything? Everyone would be better off without me...
"Haz? You good? Seem pretty deep in thought.."
"Huh oh yeah no I'm fine uhm I'm gonna go to sleep so you guys should probably head home" I say with a large smile.
Zany leaves looking sad, but Louis stays.
"Can I stay the night...?"
"Sure I guess..."
"Okay thx"
"Ofc"
We head to sleep and he wraps his arms around me, pulling me closer to him. I cuddle into him and bury my head in his chest. He plays with m
y hair with his free hand, which is super nice.
"Haz.."
"Hm?"
"You're pretty"
"Stopppp"
"I'm just being honest!"
"But its embarrassing"
"No it isn't it's cute! Especially cus it makes you blush"
"It does not!"
"It so does"
I just giggle.
"Your giggle is cute"
"Shut up"
"Noooope"
We just stay quiet for a bit. It's quite lovely, calming.
"Louis..."
"Yeah?"
"Thank you"
"What for?"
"Just you know for making me feel okay...for understanding..."
"I'll always do that for you babe.."
What did he just call me?!
"Uhmmm I mean...Haz..."
"Louis...I'm sorry but we aren't together anymore..it's just a bit weird for you to call me that when it's what you called me in our relationship..."
"Harry I-"
"We can fix that though..."'I say with a smile before kissing kiss.
He responds quickly and it's a sweet, short kiss.
"Does that mean you're agreeing to be with me again?"
"Yes."