Burial, Farewell
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Caleb Austin POV
"Condolence, pre." Bati nila Drace sakin, sabay tapik ng balikat ko. Tumango lang ako bilang sagot.
Pina-cremate lang namin ang bangkay ni Lexta dahil nasa state of decomposition rin lang naman iyon.
"Condolence po," Bati roon bati dito, minu-minuto may bumabati.
Sila mommy nasa harapan tahimik na umiiyak, di parin na aabsurb ang mga nangyari. Jenylilian and friends was also here they at the back, silent but sad.
Dumating rin ang magulang nila Diane, Minerva, Hades, Davi and Jenylilian noong nakaraan. We didn't tell them about what happened bakit nagkaganito.
"Okay, I'll call on Caleb Austin for his farewell message." A host called me.
I slowly stand and walk at the front, he gave me the microphone.
I cleared my throat, first.
"G-good day every one!" Bati ko, pilit na pinapasigla ang boses. "Lexta for me is.. the best little sister you ever had, she always makes me feel happy each day.. kahit sa simple niyang ginagawa napangite ka niya or tawa! When she strangling about something, she never bother you for a help, because all she know pagkaya niya kaya niya talaga..." Tumulo na ang luha ko naalala ang mga araw na yun when we were kids.
"Need help?" I asked her, she's doing her bike break.
"Nope i can do this." She answered, continuing what she doing.
And she's right! She can.
"See." She proudly said.
Pinahid ko muna ang luha ko ng tissue, "And that's what i admired here the m-most.. When our first day here in philippines she shows us how badass she was, funny she can torminate people with her authority! But now, I can't see it anymore."
Tinignan ko si mommy sa harapan, umiiyak siya, si daddy naman tahimik lang nakatingin sa akin tumango siya kaya pinagpatuloy ko na.
"She was my beloved sister and a best friend.. I know whenever she is, I hope she's happy. I hope no more pains for her anymore she is peaceful now. No hurt, not cry, and no hate. S-saranghae yeodongseng!" I finished my words.
Nilapag ko ang mic at umalis na doon dumiretso sa upuan ko umiiyak, pinahiran ko uli pero patuloy parin sa pagtulo. Naalala ko ang minsan sinabi niya sa akin noon when i have my first heartbreak.
"A man crying because it's shows he really love the girl. It's not gay, it's only mean you're a true man not a boy! So if you're hurt, just cry until everything will be fine."
Naiyak ako sa ala-alang iyon, when I'm with her you only can feel is positivity!
Hapon na natapos ang serimonyas, dinala na siya sa earn niya, nilagay ni mommy ang cremate jar niya doon. Binasbasan ng pare pagkatapos,binigay nito sa amin tatlo ang kuwentas, kung saan laman nun ang abo ni Lexta.
R.I.P
"You have been through.."
Lexta Eloise Gomez
Date Born: August 21, 2000
Date Died: June 15, 2017
Yan yung nakalagay sa earn niya. Tinignan ko ang kuwentas.
Are you here right? With me, sana mapatawad mo si kuya little sis.
Umuwi kami sa bahay, si lola nasa kuwarto niya alam niya ang nangyari pero ayaw niyang lumabas sa kuwarto niya, umiiyak rin siya pagkabalita namin nun sakanya.
Dumiretso akong kuwarto ko, at nahiga sa kama. Nakatingin sa kisame, inaalala ang kulitan namin dito sa room ko noon.
"Talo ka!" Natatawa niyang turo sakin. We're playing chess board that time.
"Ulit-ulit," nilagay ko uli ang mga chess sa posisyon nito.
"Pag natalo, may pitik sa taenga ha!" Sabi niya. Natatawang tumango ako.
Makalipas ang ilang minuto, "Check!" She excitedly exclaimed.
Napabutong hininga ako, at hinanda ang taenga ko para sa pitik niya, "Amp!aray ko!"
She laugh.
Di ko namalayang umiiyak naman ako, miss ko na siya!
If only i could go back time, I'll spend more time with her and i don't want hide secrets to her. But, i know it's to late! Wala na siya.
Naramadaman ko ang pagod. Pagod sa iyak, pagod sa katawan. Pinikit ko ang mata ko at nakatulog na ng tuluyan.
"Oppa saranghaeyo. I'm lonely..."
Napabangon ako sa panaginip na iyon, tinignan ko ang orasan.
3:45am.
Madaling araw na pala, medyo mahaba ang tulog ko sa pagod siguro. I get my phone, pinatugtog ko iyon.
I played her favorite song.
Now playing: "FINE" 가사 - Taehyun
"Haru han dal il nyeonjeum
doemyeon,
Seoro dareun ilsangeul saraga."
Trans: Days turn to months and months turn to years,
I wonder how different our lives will be.
"Naneun aniya..
Swibji aneul geot gata,
Yeonjeonhagedo neon nae
Haruhareul cheugo,"
Trans: Will you be fine..
Even though I know you won't be mine,
Still you fill up my days,
I can never erase your face,
"Ajigeun aniya~
Pabocheoreom doenoeneun na,
Ipgae maemdoneun mareul samkil su eopseo.."
Trans: Will you be fine~
Will i be pretending it's alright,
Like a fool i believe you and I could stay the same..
"It's not fine...
Ah ah ah ah, it's not fine."
Now I now why she loved to hear this song, you can relate whatever your thought is.
It's really not fine, and I'm like fool take you for granted when you were alive.. how i wish i can have the time to go back from started, an app can reset everything!
But it didn't have, it will never be have.
Mianhe, yeodongseng.. mianhe
Tumulo na naman mga luha ko, iba... Iba ang pakiramdam ngayon. Tahimik, walang saya, malungkot at may kulang.
Being alone is not fine. A thought suddenly came, she once said it to me.
"Pagmag-isa ka naramdaman mo lahat!" She said, "Depende kung ano ang nararamdaman mo."
"Wae?" I asked.
"Kasi pagmalungkot ka, ang enirhiya nun ang nasasagap mo." Sagot niya,"Pero pagmasaya at kalmado ka, yun rin ang mararamdaman mo!"
"Ganun?"
"Yes Kuya, ganunnn." She laughed, kaya natawa rin ako.
Hindi ka nga nagkamali ito na ba yun? Yung mag-isa ako, nararamdaman ko ang sakit, lungkot at guilt.
Are in there yeodongseng? Are listening to my rants? Huh? I look at our picture together in my beside table. Tumayo ako at kinuha yun.
"You look happy in here," Sabi ko, "Are you still happy now? I bet not. You left with sorrows in your heart, i know you're mad at me or at us. I hope you'll forgive us."
Bogoshipda.
Trans: I miss you.
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A/N: hahahaist I'm to lazy todayyyy! Sorry, short update.
