Under the Moonlight~(Komahina)

Chapter 36~My Reason...

Nagito's POV:

As I run away, I sadden some. I didn't want to do this, but...I had to. I...can't let mom or anyone else get this necklace...knowing that they would become what Hajime was. Though...now that I think about it...I'm not sure what it would actually do to non werewolves...I guess I'll find out.

After a while longer, I stop running, catching my breath. This should be far enough...I look at my surroundings, feeling...confused. How far did I run...? I'm...at the other side of the forest by a lake...did I...get faster?

Why...?

Agh! I grab my head, falling to my knees.

Why would you do this...?

Is that...Izuru...? This must've been what Hajime felt when he was inside his head...

We need to talk.

We...do...? Before I could even respond back, I see a flash of light.

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Ugh...I raise my head up and look around, seeing a room that's...half light...half dark. Where am I...? From what I see, it looks like I'm on the light side of the room...I look over at the dark side, seeing someone standing there. Is that...?

Tell me why...

My eyes widen some. It's...Izuru...I think to myself some. Are we...inside my mind...?

Why would you wear the necklace...after every thing you know...?

I sigh a bit and look up at him, "I did it because...I don't want anyone to be controlled by you." I say, making him look away from me.

Don't lie. Tell me your main reason for doing this...

I give him a confused look, "Huh...? What are you talking about...? That really is my-" Izuru looks back at me, getting irritated.

Your 'reason' can easily be done another way and you know that, so tell me the real reason your doing this!

I look down, sighing a little. To be honest...he's right. It's not the real reason...I know that there's better way, but..."Your power...it doesn't leave the necklace...does it." I say, as I look back up at Izuru, surprising him some.

How...do you know that...?

"My mom mentioned it when she explained what happened between you two..." I say, making him sigh some.

It's true...when my necklace is taken...it doesn't redistribute the power...it stays inside it. Well really...it stays inside the gem that's in the necklace. The gem is what actually keeps the power from letting loose and keeps it under control...the necklace itself serves no purpose.

I think to myself some, "So...if that's the case...what about your consciousness...? Does it stay inside the person wearing the gem...? I ask, making him nod some.

From what I've already experienced...it does. My consciousness is only absorbed back into the necklace on the day of the blood moon. I tested that theory on you by having Hajime give you the necklace that had the gem...

I look down, saddening some. So...that's why Hajime gave it to me...it was because of Izuru...I shake away my thoughts and look back up at him, "What about the power that was in it...? I didn't feel it at all even though I had it..."

That's because the power belonged to Hajime once I died...no one would be able to use it. In the blood moons case...you would only be able to use the power if you have the gem by the end of it...

My eyes widen some, "So...if I wear the gem...I would be the only one who could use the power inside it...? No one else...?" I ask, him nodding some.

That's right...now what does this have to do with your reasoning...?

I take a breath, releasing it when I start talking, "It...kinda lines up with my original reasoning. I don't want anyone get this necklace...after seeing the power and what it can do, so...now that I know about everything involving the gem...I...want to keep it on. If I do...your consciousness would stay and...once I take off the necklace, I can destroy the gem inside it...making sure no one can get the power when the next blood moon shows up." I say, surprising and irritating Izuru some.

Why would you want to do that?! It would be better for you to just destroy it with me inside! Why would you want me to stay...after everything I did...?

I sigh some and walk up to him, "If you want me to be honest...I'm not sure why. I just...feel like you should still stay alive...maybe it's because I feel like I owe you...or it could be because your life was taken too soon. It's possible that the reason could be that I pity you after everything you went through...it could honestly be all three or even something completely different, but...the reason doesn't matter to me. I...don't want you to leave..." I say, making Izuru speechless. After a little while, he finally speaks up.

You do know that if you did this, I'd take control of you and go after you mother...I still want her dead...

"I know, but I'm not worried about that...I can easily resist you. You probably don't believe me, but I can promise you...I won't give in to you or your desires unless it's something I actually want to do. I'm also not gullible, so trying to get me to believe something you say won't be easy either..." I say, irritating him more.

What about your friends and Hajime...? Have you even considered about how they would feel if you did this...?

I look down some, "I'm sure they will all hate me, but-"

Right there. That right there is the reason why you shouldn't do it. You have friends and a partner that care so much about you. You have what I no longer have...what I'll never have again...so don't waste your life just because of me. I'd rather you just destroy the gem...

I look back up at Izuru, surprised some, "This is weird to hear coming from you...I would've thought that you'd jump at the opportunity of having a host for your consciousness..." I say, making him huff some.

I would if the reason was good enough...your reasoning is idiotic and makes no sense. If anything it's weird...

I watch as Izuru turns away from me, sighing some.

I unfortunately can't stop you...so if you want to ruin your life by saving me the way you want to, go right ahead. Give up your happiness for someone who's not worth it...make them all hate you...I couldn't care less.

I watch as he walks away, my vision fading to black.
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After a bit I raise my head up, rubbing it and looking around. I...must've fainted...I look up at the sky, seeing that the red of the moon is close to its end. I sigh some. It's almost over...I look down at the necklace, staring at the gem. He...really does care...I could see right through him. Despite his cold attitude, he still has a heart...he just doesn't want to show it...I sadden some. He does want to live...I can tell that he...wants what I have. He's using my mother as an excuse...

I tighten my grip on the necklace. I know what I have to do...I'm honestly not sure how it will turn out, but...It feels like the best option to me, despite the risks that I know will soon follow behind it...