How To Love

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Omniscient POV

"Hello,You are about to receive a Collect Call from Deandre Gaulden,an inmate housed at the West Baton Rouge Parish Jail. If still want to accept this collect call, please press 1. To prevent future calls from this facility press 2."

He swallowed the lump in his throat,pressing 1. He had no plans on calling his father,he never knew what to say. His leg bounced up and down as the the phone continued to ring.

"Hello?"

"Hello." Kentrell said bitting his lip. "It's been a minute son." His dad chuckled lowly.

"Yeah." He replied dryly,playing with the ends of his hair.

"How you been? I know you heard the news. I ain't getting out in this bitch til you a grandpaw'." He joked.

"I heard. Shit sad what they doing to you." Kentrell said,shaking his head at the thought. "You need anything?"

"I'm good in here. Been good in here for the past 18 years. Ain't nobody visit me,no nothing."

Kentrell sighed,and fiddled with his fingers,staying silent. He felt guilty but he didn't like to  visit him because He didn't like stepping in a jail. He's been in and out of jail all his life,and didn't wanna be in that space now that his life was the way he wanted it. He hated himself at times for leaving his dad lonely for years.

"I heard you got another baby on the way. Lemme guess you got Star knocked up again?"

"Nah." Kentrell forced a chuckle. "My girlfriend pregnant."

"Who? Jania?"

"Mane' niggas need to start catching you up around here. I'm back with Jalanee."

"Who?"

"That girl that was my therapist a few years ago."

"Congrats son.You know how having a baby with your therapist sound though?"

"Yeah ion give a fuck though." He shrugged. "How you feeling?" His father asked

"To be honest. I'm scared as fuck. It ain't nun like when I was having the rest of my kids. I knew me and they mamas was going to have to co-parent. I live with this girl,this kid going to grow up in a two parent household. I ain't have that shit growing up."

"You sound sure as hell that you and her going to be together for a while." His dad said.

"I am. I love her. I lost her once and I put that on granny grave I ain't losing her again. Ion wanna fuck up with this baby and never be there cause I'm so used to seeing my kids every other day."

"You asking the wrong person. Ion know nothing about two parent households." His dad laughed.

"She grew up in one,but ion wanna tell her I'm scared. That shit just might scare her off too."

"If she really love you then you ain't got no reason to be scared. This parent shit just comes to you,can't be taught."

"I'm sayin. But ion got no doubts about her though. She treat my kids like her own."

"She got kids?"

"Nah. This her first. I think I'm ready to marry her though. You think a baby and a ring at the same time too much?"

"Oh so it's serious?"

"Shit yeah. The shit we got on another level. Ion know nothing about having a wife,but I want her to be more then just my baby mama or my girlfriend."

"That's wassup. You got some shit going for yourself. Don't fuck it up. Say' i think i got a couple minutes left,I need to call yo sister."

"I love you pops." Kentrell said.

"The Inmate ran out of daily minutes." The automated voice said,hanging up the call.

Kentrell sat there,starring into space,feeling numb. He threw his phone to this side of him.

It's been forever since he spoke to his dad,it reminded him so much of those 5 minute calls he would get every week when he was younger. Then the calls just stopped coming,and Kentrell no longer even wanted to speak with him. He couldn't help but be proud of himself for not being like any of his parents.

"I need a girl who gon' tell me that we good,hold me down and just show me how to loveeee" Jalanee sung walking into the room,making him jump out his deep though

"You a fucking kid." He said putting a smile on his face. Out of everything that was going on his life,the high of his day was coming home to be laid up with Jalanee every night. She didn't have to do much to make him happy,even at his worst moods she always managed to put a smile on his face.

"What you doing in here?" She said puffing her chest out.

"Nothing. Watchu on?"

"I baked some muffins. They in the oven right now."

"Ya ass always doing sum." He said raking his eyes over her body.

"There's nothing for me to do around here. Jayda out of town." She sighed. "She'll be back tomorrow though."

"Lil Gay ass." He sat back on the bed. "Whatever." She giggled. "Nisha called."

"And said what?" He said.

"I don't know. She just told me to tell you to call her. Why didn't she call your phone?"

"I blocked her ass."

"Why? How are you suppose to get Draco?"

"I come and get him when I need to get him. She pissed me off the other day."

"What happened?" She said fixing the blinds in the corner of the room.

"This bitch kept ducking me when I was tryna get Draco. She had Draco out with pure opp niggas." 

"By himself?"

"Yeah. That bitch piss me off. It was late as hell too."

"Unblock her...yall suppose to be co-parenting. Let her know you don't want him around certain people."

"Man fuck her. All I know is I'm getting my son before I go."

She sighed,and gave up knowing how stubborn he was.

"I think I'm starting to show." She said admiring herself in the mirror. "I don't know. Maybe it's just breakfast from this morning." She said.

"Your ass getting bigger too." He said walking behind her,snaking his arms behind her.

"Bye." She said chuckled. "I wanna go get my hair done but knowing you,you won't finishing packing if I don't force you." She said.

"Ion even need to pack a lot. Just put some white tees in there and jeans. I'll be good."

"I can't believe you really leaving me." She whined,
placing kisses on his face.

"You bet not be out every day either. Yo fast ass." He said gripping her butt. "I won't...I don't enjoy going out like how you make it seem I do" She smirked.

"You should just take me with you." She said running her hands,under his shirt. "You think I wanna keep you here? Just doing this to keep you safe. You know I'll kill for you to be by my side on stage."

"Mhm I hope this is just a smart decision. And you won't do nothing dumb when you're out there."She said.

"Like what?" He said licking his lips. "I don't know. Just don't do nothing stupid." She said,tugging on his shirt.

"Guh why you keep touching me? You tryna get fucked?" He said pulling his .38 out his waistband,placing it on the dresser. She started cheesing,and nodded slowly.

"You gon' let me marry you one day?" He said brushing his lips against her ear. Her body was covered in goosebumps,and the hairs raised on her neck.

"Yeah...of course...you wanna marry me?" She mumbled,leaving kisses on his chin.

Kentrell nodded,thinking back on his conversation with his father. He pulled up her dress,smacking her ass.

"Take this off" He mumbled,pressing his warm lips on hers.

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