Destined hearts

Chapter XV

Aisha.

I was literally fuming. Why would he do that? Jump at me like some obsessed crazy fiend. In,his defense he did seem ututterly obsessed. But that's besides the point.

I had taken a cab back home but had it drop me just around the block so I could walk and air my head before reaching home. I couldn't risk  Christain seeing me in such a dishavelled state. It looked like I got jumped and knowing him, he had jump unto the worst conclusions.

I stopped walking for a while and touched my lips. I tried to reign in the tears from all the pain that was building up in me. I have no idea why in that given instant my body decided to betray. Even my mind had a temporary setback in reaction time before reason kicked in and I pushed him away. Why does it always feel like my body is always against me when it comes to him?. Like all It wants the most is to completely surrender to him. I wanted to hate him; oh how much I had tried - so hard to loathe him with everything I had but I just couldn't. Despite how broken I was after our breakup, I tried moving on but he was a constant thought I just couldn't obliterate. Even the resentment i had for him was long gone but my greatest demon was my uncanny ability not to forget; especially when someone wronged me. I couldn't forget how much he hurt me, how much pain he caused, how many nights i had spent crying myself to sleep and sometimes even sobbing in my sleep. And yes maybe I wasn't as bitter as I was then but I couldn't look at him past what he did and what I went through. I could never look at him the same because all I would see is his mistake. And yes, we had good times but that couldn't still make up for anything. And even if he approached me about being friends, I was not sure of taking it because we just couldn't be friends with the amount of mistrust i had now in regards to him.

I bit my lip still unable to remove the annoying lingering feeling of his lips on mine. I never should have trusted him with looking the other way when we met. He's clearly not over me and that's not going to be solved anytime soon apparently...

Stopped and looked up to find out I was already in front of our gate. I frowned. I had wasted so much time mulling over him I wasn't even watching where I was heading too. I must have been on autopilot. This can't keep happening if not Christian is going to suspect something. Plus, I need to get my head in the game for work. Then I remembered the incident with Javier and groaned leaning against one of the pillars of the gate. Damn it! I had totally forgotten about that thanks to some idiot that decided it was a smart idea to mess up with my thoughts.

I heard the front door open and I pushed off the wall to walk in. If it happens to be 'mother dearest' I will have an earful the entire evening with her grumbling about how much of a burden I am to her ohh so precious son.

"You back. " he greeted with his hands in his pants and I smiled. "Took you long enough" he said as he opened his arms wide and I walked right into his arms. I melted in his embrace. I really needed the comfort. "Hmm, someone had a rough day." He commented with a chuckle.

"Just hold me a little longer. I really need as many bear hugs as I can get right now." I replied into his chest and he chuckled.

"At the risk of getting your makeup cleaned all over my cardigan I'll have to decline as appealing as the offer sounds." He replied and I looked up to him with a frown and a pout.

"Why?" I whined. "Is your mom gonna give us stares for being over affectionate in our home?"

"Maybe. But she's not around..." he said suggestively.

"So we got the house all to ourselves then." I said with a smile.

"And it's her home too..." he corrected. That took off my smile really quick.

"Yeah of course." I replied sarcastically.

" plus, I think we could get more comfortable snuggling inside than standing out here on the patio. No?" He reasoned out.

I rolled my eyes. "I guess." I replied. Michael never had a problem with that... shit! No. I'm not supposed to be thinking about him now.

"Are you alright?" he asked worried.

"Huh? Oh yea just had a rough day. You know how hectic work here can be at times. Plus, I had this misunderstanding with Javier so, I'm little on edge." I explained.

"Sorry about that sweetie. Hmm... now how about this? I got something that will definitely change your mood." He said with a smile. "Remember I said i had something for you?" He begun.

"Yes and you vehemently refused telling me what it was." I replied crossing my arms over my chest with an arched brow.

"Yea well I assure you. It was worth the wait. Close your eyes." He said excitedly.

"Christian you know how I don't feel comfortable about this things." I complained.

"I know honey just close your eyes for me. You trust me, right?" He asked

"Yes." I replied without hesitation. Oh, I did trust him unlike a certain someone... stop that Aisha.

"So close your eyes." I did as he said and heard the rustling of the grass as he moved closer to me. Then I felt him place something over my head and onto my eyes.

"Blindfolds? Getting kinky aren't Mr. Ngan." I teased.

"I always have been but not this time." He replied and kissed my temple. "C'mon." he urged as I followed him blindly in the literal sense of it. It wasn't long before we stopped.

"Christian what's happening?" I asked anxiously.

"Just keep your eyes closed ok." He replied pulling off but I frowned. "Ok now,... open your eyes." I did and squinted due to the sudden shift to light before my eyes turned into saucers.

"Oh my God." I whispered and he dangled a key before me. "You got a new car." I said.

"You got a new car." He corrected. "Well technically, I got it for you but..." not letting him finish, I crashed into him giving him a passionate kiss.

"Thank you." I said against his lips, our eyes locked on each other's.

"Anything for you." He replied with a smile.

He's exceptional  and I'm the worst. This man that is willing to give off everything for me and more... and I was busy obsessing about some kiss from my ex. In that moment a flash of the kiss and what he said came to my mind. "...I'm never giving up on you. ...I won't let you go this time.. I won't lose you this time... I can't get over you. "

I felt like a horrible person: he gets me a car after I shared a kiss with Michael... He kissed me first however, I did kiss him back even if it was just for a split second...

Regardless of how I felt about him, what happened can never repeat itself. I was inlove with him back then but I am inlove with Christian now. I can't just throw that away... he's probably one of the best people to have ever come into my life. And I'm never loosing that... not to Michael.