Bittersweet

26: Even if I die, it's you

"Taehyung, don't you think you are a bit overdoing it?"
Jin shrugged as he handed him the soda to Taehyung. Taehyung was tired out of his wits. Besides Kiera was just not in her best condition. Plus the additional departmental stress.

Taehyung looked tired and dull. There were dark circles under his melancholy eyes. His smile was nowhere to be seen.

He took a sip, the cold drink freezing his vocal cords. He looked down on the ground. Why did he have to be so destructive? Why can't he just have feelings, and like a normal person accept those feelings? Jin patted his back,
"Taehyung?"
"I don't know what I'm doing. I just can't see her like this. Knowing that, I am wrong. She has gone through a lot all her life. I shouldn't have yelled at her. I could have just told her that I'm busy. But I yelled at her. A lot..."
"She should've just forgiven you. It's not a big deal. I think she should've been consoderate."
"Hyung we all are not same. She was built that way. The only emotion she can show is her fiesty anger. That's all she was taught. Maybe we both were equally wrong. But I don't care. I want to just fix my mistake. Can't you see, I would die without her?"
Jin didn't know what to say. He just thought Taehyung was acting foolish. But he was still his friend. He patted his back. That was the only thing he could do,
"Let's just say that you and Kiera both feel the same way..."
"WE DO JIN HYUNG!"
Taehyung screamed, his eyes popping off his sockets. Jin plastered a smile on his handsome face,
"I don't deny it Taehyung. I'm just saying, that it's easy to fall in love. But can you live all your life with this love?"
"What do you mean, Hyung?"
Taehyung's voice shaken. His face growing paler every second. Jin looked him.in the eye,
"I mean, are you willing to suffer the consequences of loving Kiera?"
"Don't beat around the bush Hyung! Tell me! What consequences?"
"Taehyung, Kiera is a criminal. A murderer. Look at you. You are supposed to fight AGAINST criminals. Love is nowhere to be considered. Imagine, what a catastrophe it would be for you... And well... HER! You think Tzuyu's after her for no certain reason? Or how about Jisoo? Let's leave that aside... In today's world everyone is jealous of one or the other. But, what would happen when Kiera gets convicted? She's bound to face conviction. You can't do anything about that, except get heartbroken. I mean I'm sure you love her. But wouldn't it be better to move on? There's plenty of fish in the sea. Take Jisoo-ssi for an instant. She's goofy, she's nice, she's kind..."
"I know! I know! But she's not Kiera! I see Jisoo just as a friend and nothing more. I know Jisoo like the back of my hand. Jisoo has always been such a good friend to me. But Kiera..."
Taehyung slumped back on the couch. His voice softer and his eyes glowing at the mention of Kiera's name. His face felt less pale. He continued,
"She came in my life suddenly. As sudden as a gist of wind. When I first saw her. I-I thought of having a bit of fun. Maybe use her. I mean she looked so seductive. Bit then she started caving in me. The way she talked. The way sje smirked. That darn confidence of her. I got more focused on her. And one day she had every bit of my attention. I swear to God, she likes me as well. I mean, I don't expect her to say love you. She maybe isn't all lovey dovey. But her actions. Her kisses. Her hugs. Her eyes. Her everything just said that she had started takimg interest in me. You know she started telling me about her past. She started telling me her emotions. She dropped her walls a bit low, when she was with me. It wasn't love at first sight. I slowly fell in love. Every moment I got closer to love. And one day. One day, she just became my everything. If only she would just listen to me for once. But for my stupidness, she's... She's in the hospital wing. If only I was still in charge. I would do anything I can to protect her. I would even put my life on the line for her. I would go to the moon and back. I-I-I... I just want her, Hyung."

Love. Complicated right? What even is love? A cheesy date? A nice and calm candle night dinner? A walk by the beach?
Or is it just a heartfelt conversation? Is it just sex? Is it just desire? What is it?

Taehyung was lovestruck. Kiera was all around his mind. His heart was beating lazily. Long were gone peaceful nights. He almost forgot what sleep was. He just wanted her.

Jin, on the other hand, was determined that Kiera was a bad influence on his dear friend.
"Well, I know you love her, but you can try workout something with Jisoo. Your relationship would be much simpler and appreciated that way. You won't have to go through any of this. Plus, the seniors would probably think you being in love with Kiera was a baseless rumour if ypu just start loving Jisoo. That will assure the department and you'd be less pressurized."
"Hyung, you can't force your heart to fall in love. I love Kiera not JISOO. Of course, Jisoo is any man's dream. But my heart beats for Kiera. If the only solution you have is to just hurt myself more by denying this pure emotion that I feel for her. Then, Thank you, but I don't need it. You are just advicing me to force myself to love someone just to... I don't know... SHOWOFF! What kind of a friend even are you Hyung?"
Taehyung got on his feet frustrated. Jin sighed,
"At this rate, you're going to die, Kim Taehyung! Is it even worth it to die for her love?"
Taehyung walked to the door. With a smirk painted on his face, he turned around and looked Jin in the eyes,
"Like I care? Listen Hyung, I love her to the moon and back. So, even if I die, it's her. Annyeong."