Bittersweet

48: I NEED U

The air was blowing with a heavier sound. Everyone was standing still, their knees about to snap. Jimin had his arms around Rosé's waist, proud of his girlfriend. They just won their part. Both of them had suffered all throughout their life. When they both found each other under Kim Su-Bong. Jimin was just a boy with loads of dreams. Su-Bong promised that she would help Jimin achieve his dreams. She would help him become a police officer. Jimin, with his dreams painted all across him, joined Kim Su-Bong. But he found Rosé and the others instead. They both found each other as their very own comfort zone. The clingy pair.

Taehyung looked up at Kiera, his eyes tearing up. Kiera's teeth sunk deep in her red lower lip. Her eyes also showing the vague presence of tears. Her dimples peeking out. Taehyung saw his little Doll in her. Not the doll he met a few months ago. But the doll he saw working under Kim Su-Bong.

------------------Flashback ----------------

"Namjoon, you got another rat! Take care of it!"
Kim Su-Bong pushed the small, fragile boy inside. His wrists red from being tied up. His shirt spotted with dirt. He hit the ground with a loud thud. A younger girl sprinted towards him,
"Oppa, get up. This is not a place to shed tears. Get up!"
A boy with foe eyes lended him a hand,
"I'm Jungkook and this is Kiera. And that's Namjoon Hyung, Jennie Noona, Jisoo Noona, Jin Hyung, Hoseok Hyung, Jimin Hyung, Yoongi Hyung, Rosé and lastly Lisa. Join us and follow what we sat for couple of days and you'd be avle to habdle yourself all alone. Cool?"
"What's your name Oppa?"
He looked in her eyes. A mismatched alluring aura in them.
"I'm Taehyung. Kim Taehyung..."
He muttered under his breath,
"Doll."

-------------End of Flashback-----------

"Doll..."
Taehyung said, his eyesight getting blurry every second. Kiera chuckled,
"Took you way too long to remember me."
Taehyung teared up at her words. She slowly walked towards him. Looking him right in the eye,
"This is not a place to shed tears."
Taehyung rubbed away his tears,
"I never forgot you Doll. You always stayed in my mind and heart and soul."
He paused for a second. His forehead pressed against Kiera's,
And I don't want to let you go now. I wish I could've just held you close and be yours forever."
"What's stopping you?"
Kiera felt a warmth around her pupils. She felt her heart shatter into thousands. She wanted to treasure Taehyung, after all she has lost Jungkook. She doesn't want to repeat the same mistake.
Taehyung looked deep in her eyes. He whispered, almost inaudibly,
"Myself. I can't seem to break through the pain and guilt of this change. I want every versions of me..."
"Let's not argue."
Kiera's cold voice made everyone feel a certain shiver. She was trying her best to stay civil. She had lost control over her emotions. She felt a warm feeling inside her heart. He felt colder, his head almost blurry.

He turned towards Jimin,
"Jimin, why? If only you didn't help her, I would've held her longer. I wouldn't have to let her go."
Taehyung hugged his bestfriend as tears ran down his eyes. His nose red and his cheeks heated up. Jimin hugged him back,
"Hold her close. Choose her over the world if your heart wants her so much. You got this, Tae. Listen to your heart."
Jennie, Lisa, Rosé and Jisoo were around Kiera. Not daring to say a word. Just letting Kiera find her feelings.

"Kiera, we gotta leave. Jackson has sent the helicopter."
Yoongi said, as if talking to baby. He knew how hurt his dongsaeng already was. Kiera rubbed away her tears and stood up,
"Guys. This is it. We leave now. All we've ever wanted from this mission was you guys. Yeah, the Oppas and Unnies we grew up with. The government and system info were just sub points. We'd be back. This won't be the last goodbye. We'd forever be friends, lovers, siblings. Each other's meaning of hope."
Everyone shared a hug after so many years. As if it's been ages. Their eyes lit with hope, they would be back again. The PLAYERS would again stride along the dark shadows.

Taehyung's fingers wrapped around Kiera's wrist instinctively. The feeling of emptiness bugging him. He mumbled,
"Kiera, don't you know I love you more than anything? All these days I've been confessing yet I feel as if I didn't tell you enough about my love. Don't you feel my love? Please, let's not just end things. I can wait like Namjoon Hyung..."
Jennie Unnie! Your absence kills me Taehyung. I feel as if I have lost something. But, waiting for you is way more deadly. Waiting does me no good. I'd wait forever, yet I'd never get you. I'd wait an eternity, but I don't know if the waiting's gonna work at the end or not. I hate this uncertainty. Kim Taehyung, I'd rather die than wait for a mirage. I love you an unhealthy amount. When I decide to leave alone today, I don't even know whether I'm going to survive or not. My heart's telling me to force you. My heart's telling me to abduct you and restrain you with me forever. My heart tells me to carve you in my life and never let you go whatsoever. Tell you that you are mine! You have to go with me and leave everything. But I just can't. I'd listen to my heart, but deep inside a little voice tells me, if I did I would break yours instead. I can't hold you close, neither can I let you go. This stupid differences. You know the thought if you falling in love with someone else scares me. It makes me feel bitter. But today when we both leave, I kill a part of me. But, I wasn't not wrong you know? Loving you wasn't a crime, letting you go was. From today onwards, if we part ways, I would no longer have any strings on you. I just messed up, didn't I? But I'm okay with this pain, till you smile. Before I met you, I was just a lost soul. But now when we both would walk away, I would just lose myself fully. I would be nothing but thin air. But I still am thinking about leaving you so that you can start a new life. A new love. I know it would be tough. But you are right. You can't give up your everything for just love. Goodbye Hot Stuff."
"But I can't do the same like
Kiera pecked his cheeks. She felt her heart tear into halves. Her hands going cold. She walked out, feeling as if nothing inside her was beating. As if she was dead inside. She needed him. He needed her.