Out of dut-.. love

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PIERS

One week later

One week. It was already one week since we arrived back to China. Here we go again. To say I wasn't happy about being here was understandable. All the bad memories were coming back. Memories I wanted to put away and never think about them again. Also the guys in the group were all dickheads. And sometimes that included Chris as well. He was trying so hard to treat me like everyone else that sometimes it looked like we aren't a thing at all. I understood that but...even I can't put up with his instant rejection all the time. Also I really really missed Jake and Leon. I don't even know if Leon is back home from the hospital. I don't know if he found the letter I left behind for him. Did he find something? The fear of hurting someone was still deep within me and if there is one person that can get the informations for me, it's Leon. Yes I could leave the letter for Jake but I felt like it would be too much to ask. Me leaving was a chance for him and Sherry to work things out. Having Jake take care of me all the time...I could feel the rising hatred towards me from Sherry. I felt horrible but the fact was that I can't live without Jake. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for him. For his blood. His antibodies. With a sigh I took off my bionic arm and put it next to me. I was getting ready to go sleep. I wasn't on watch today. Finally, I could use some sleep. But even after a week, I can't sleep properly. I have the feeling I have to sleep with one eye open all the time. Until I find out what's going on here, everyone is suspicious to me. Including Chris. Just the thought of him betraying me was breaking my heart but I have to be prepared. Even for the worst scenario. Please if I still have some role in this horrible world... don't let that role to be a monster that kills people. God knows I never wanted to hurt anyone. Well....maybe I want to hurt my colleagues..a little bit. But just because they are annoying. Sometimes I have a feeling they are trying to piss me off on purpose. I was looking up to the ceiling of my tent. I was sleeping alone. No one else wanted to stay with me and Chris said it would be bad if we would sleep together. Fuck I'm being too sensitive again...but I miss the feeling of having someone around me. Back at home, I knew that if I couldn't sleep, Leon was there with me. Or Jake with Sherry in the apartment right next to us. I was never alone. Right here, I was with a couple of people , including my boyfriend but I felt so lonely.
When I was recovering from my injuries,the second time, Jake was sleeping with me, making sure I know my nightmares are just that, nightmares. But Jake wasn't here. No one was. And I'm a grown up man. I'm a soldier. I survived worse than this homesickness. "Are you asleep?" I quickly turned my head to the tent entrance and hums. "Not yet. What are you doing here ? Isn't it against your rules?" Chris rolled his eyes and with a sigh he sat down on the ground next to me. "I just wanted to check on you. I heard the guys talking. I know you heard them too." Yeah of course I did. Abomination, that was their favorite word when talking about me. "Tomorrow we are going to check the facility. I just wanna make sure you are okay." I slowly sat up and sighed. "I'm doing fine Chris. I'm here to do my job. I don't care about what they say about me." Lies. I cared more than I was willing to admit. I felt his much bigger hand on my knee and I looked up at him. I wanted so bad to just let him hold me. But at the same time I couldn't bate his touches. I was so hurt. Mad. "Chris?" He gave me a small smile. "What?" I looked away for a moment before I continue. "I know you have to be professional and all but..are we still a thing or not?" He blinked before nodding. "Of course we are. I didn't even think about breaking up or something." He said so calmly it made me mad. "You don't act like you care at all." I whispered before gasping as he moved closer to kiss me. It was just a light, quick kiss but it was enough for a moment. "Okay. I get it." I smiled a bit. "Don't think about it that much Piers. Okay?" He rubbed my knee before standing up. "Get some sleep." I nodded and watched him leave my tent before I laid back down. Maybe now I will be able to sleep. Hopefully.

Morning came faster than I expected. I can't believe I slept without waking up. I rubbed my face before grabbing my bionic arm, putting it on. Once I had my uniform on, I went out of my tent. Chris and few others were already there. I made my way towards them slowly. "Morning." I whispered and Chris gave me a small smile. The others weren't that happy to see me. I guess they wished I would choke on something in my sleep. Chris waited for the rest of the guys to come before he told us the plan. Simple. Found all the B.O.Ws and kill them. Eliminate the threat.
It didn't take us long to get to the said place. You would notice you are where you are supposed to be even without the captain telling you. The stench of death, broken things, pieces of flesh all over the place. Yep, we are here. I felt weird. Sick down in my stomach. I felt the virus inside of me going alive. It was the place. I took a deep breath and closed my eyes for a moment. "Happy to be home Nivans?" One of the guys, Thomas, said to me. His stupid friend Kyle laughed. How easy it would be to just fry their little stupid heads. "You should watch your steps or it will become your home too." I whispered back before walking ahead a bit. I was looking around carefully, trying to find something. Anything at all. As I walked past a small building and noticed a slight movement. I raised up my hand and pointed towards it. Everyone else followed. "Cover me, I'll go inside first." I said and slowly entered. There on the floor was a woman. Mutated one. Poor soul.."Piers! Be careful!" Chris called to me lowly and I nodded. Something wasn't right. I wasn't scared. I didn't feel in danger. The woman looked up at me and walked slowly towards me. "Kill it Nivans!" Thomas whispers but I shook my head. "Just give me a moment." I said back, not taking my eyes away from the woman. She wasn't attacking me. She stopped right in front of me and raised her hand. She touched the scars on my face before moving her, skinny hand to my forehead. That's where the third eye was when I lost control after the incident with Carla. She let out an agonizing whine before tugging on my bionic arm. She wanted to show me something. I followed her. "Piers! Stop right there! That's an order!" I heard Chris behind me but I refused to stop. The woman took me into an almost empty room. There was one single bed, and there on the bed was a little girl, crying. "There is a child in here!" I called back but when they tried to move in, the woman attacked them. "Wait no!" I looked back but it was too late. The woman fell down to the ground, dead. I looked away at the crying child again. She was infected but she was still a human. "Hey sweetheart, can you hear me?"
"M-mommy. My mommy." She whispered and looked at the woman on the floor. I sat down on the bed and pulled her in my arms. "Everything's going to be okay little one." I took off my jacket and pulled it over her before picking her up. "Where do you think you are taking that thing?"
"With us. She needs help."
"She is dead already! You can't take that with us. It will attack us." I looked towards Chris and he looked down. "Are you kidding me?! It's a child!"
"She is infected Piers."
"So am I! And I live!"
"Sadly." Thomas said and I glared at him. "I'm taking her with me. I have a vaccine with me."
"No way. That's for you." Chris said but I waved him off. "You continue , I'm going to take care of that child." I said before leaving the building, making my way towards the camp. Oh I'm getting fired.

Back at the camp, I put the kid in my tent, preparing the vaccine before injecting it to the girl. I just hoped I wasn't so late. I sat down next to her, taking her small, weak hand into mine. I remember how bad it was when I was changing..and I was all alone. I won't let that happen to a child. I closed my eyes for a moment, replaying the moments in the building. The woman didn't attack me. She asked for help for her daughter. I guess a bit of her human side was still in there. She didn't attack me but she attacked them. Did she feel the c-virus inside of me? Was it possible that for them, I was the same monster as they are? Was I monster for everyone around me? I opened my eyes when I felt a gentle tug on my hand. The girl was looking at me, breathing much easier. "Can you hear me?" I asked her and she nodded. "Good. I'm Piers , I'm a soldier. I will help you, okay?" A nod again. I smiled and squeezed her hand gently.
After a while she seemed better. Guess I got to her just in time. She ate and had some water too.
Not so long after that, the others came back. Just as I was making my way back to the building. I wanted to take care of the girl's mother. Chris looked angry.
"What the hell was that?! That thing could have killed us all!"
"She wouldn't attack if you would leave it on me! You all would let the child die! She is in there , getting better! I saved her life and maybe, maybe I could save her mother too!"
"They didn't attack you only because you are the same monster as them. It was a mistake to take you with us!" Kyle yelled at me. "Everybody calm down!" Chris shut us up. "Piers what you did was dangerous. But you did the right thing." He said. "John call the HQ to send someone to get the kid." The said man left and I sighed. "If you excuse me now, I have to take care of the mother." No one said a single word as I was leaving but I could feel their eyes on me.

It was later in the evening when everything changed.
"Of course he is dangerous! His friends are bunch of weirdos too." I heard them talking again. "What did you just say?" I said while leaning again a tree. "You should all stop it already." Chris said with a sigh. He looked tired. "Captain it's true. Ada Wong, a criminal. Don't know how detective Kennedy and Sherry Birkin fit into this mess but I guess they just felt sorry for the poor mutant. And don't let me start on Muller." That was it. I big no. "What is your problem with Jake?" I asked and he snickers. Kyle again. "Weirdo like you. Mercenary, Wesker's son. Look I get you guys probably fuck, but you should be put in some lab for tests. Letting you both run around freely is a mistake."
I pushed myself from the tree, slowly walking towards him. "You can talk shit about me all you want but you don't insult Jake Muller in front of me ever again! The man saved my life, he saved thousands of people! Without his antibodies, we would never get the virus under control! He is a hero, not a monster." I stopped right in front of him, my bionic arm twitching slightly. All I wanted to do was to see this guy dead. "You can't do a shit to me. You would get killed." He laughed into my face and I smirked. I grabbed him by his throat and lifts him up a bit. "Killed by who? You? Oh please." I said and groaned as I felt the electricity in my hand. "C-captain" Kyle said and I looked over at Chris. My eyes went wide as I saw his gun pointed right at me. "Chris..."