Out of dut-.. love

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JAKE

We were sitting inside the hospital room,waiting for Redfield to wake up. Once we got away from the building complex, we went straight to the hospital. They took care of the shot wound in his shoulder and some minor burns on his chest. As I was watching his chest rise and fall, I was more and more angry. "Jake.." Sherry whispered and placed her hand on my shoulder. I shook my head, turning my head away from them, looking out of the window. We were taking turns to look out after Chris. Now it was me and Sherry, then Leon and Clair. Ada left not so long after she and Leon got Chris out of the lab. She said she has important things to take care of. I hoped she didn't go after Carla cause she was mine. I'm gonna make her pay for what she did to Piers. To all of us. "I think he is waking up Jake. I will go get Clair and Leon." Sherry said and I looked at Chris quickly. His eyes were twitching and he was groaning. Probably at the pain in his head when I ACCIDENTALLY let him slip of my hands when Leon let me hold him for a minute. I smirked a bit. Serves you right Redfield. I didn't know why I was so angry with him. It wasn't his fault that Piers was dead. It was Carla's.. And his too.. And mine. And Leon's. We should have been able to stop him. We never should have let him go to save him. I knew that if I will let him go to get Chris, I will leave without him. And yet.. I allowed him to go. And I was the one who put an end to it. To him. Clair and Leon joined us in the room, Clair was already holding her brother's hand. "Chris? Chris can you hear me?" She whispered and Chris slowly opened his eyes. "Clair?" He said with a raspy voice. "I'm here big brother. Everything is going to be fine again." She said and stroked his cheek. He looked at me, dead in the eyes. "You killed him." I froze on the spot. "He begged me to. He knew it could happen. He would have killed you." I said and Chris shook his head, trying to sit up. "He is really gone this time, hm?" He said so out of mind.. Like he didn't care. He then laughed before he started to cry. Chris Redfield was crying in front of me. "Stop crying. The only reason he even went there was you, to save you!"
"Jake!" Sherry yelled at me. "It's no one's fault! Piers decided like that. You promised him that you will kill him if he would become a threat. And he did." I knew she was right but they all acted like it didn't matter. "Why does it feel like you don't give a shit that he is dead?" They all looked at me. "I.." I took a deep breath. "I lost everything in that lab. Sorry Sherry you know what I mean. I never had a friend, not even as a kid. He was the first one and I loved him. He was my close friend, the closest one. My best friend. And I had to put a bullet in his head." I said and stood up. "He is gone and he will never come back. And I will avenge him, that I promise but if you want to pretend like none of this happened, I can't be with any of you right now." I took the hotel room card and left the hospital. Tomorrow we are all going back home from China. I just couldn't be with them in one room right now.
I arrived to the hotel not so long after, luckily it was really close. I locked myself in the room, falling down on the bed. I was looking up at the ceiling, sighing. "Damn you Nivans." I whispered as I felt a single tear sliding down my cheek. I couldn't sleep. Every time I closed my eyes I saw him. I could hear him, begging me to kill him. I fished out my phone from my pocket and unlocked it, searching for one video. I smiled sadly as I saw Piers, smiling. Alive. It was on his birthday. I smiled at the memory.

"Happy birthday Bolt! I love you!"
"I hate you Jake, you know that right?"
"Aww you love me too, you know you do." I paused the video just as Piers opened the present from me. It was his old BSAA uniform. He thought he lost it but I took it from him and fixed it. I played the video again. Piers looked up at me and smiled. He looked happy. Even without Redfield. Leon wrapped his arm around his shoulders and grinned. Sherry brought some snacks and glasses for the champagne we were about to drink. It was a perfect moment. We were family. We were happy. I gripped the phone in my hand and closed my eyes. Stupid stupid Nivans. We didn't realize how much he meant to us. He was the glue holding us all together. It was thanks to him we became friends. Because Leon decided to take care of him, because I decided that this stupid puppy will be my best friend.
I didn't how long was I out in my own thoughts when Sherry came into the room. "Are you awake?" I looked at her and sighed. "What is it?" She sat down on the bed and rubbed my knee. "Leon arranged earlier flight. We need to pack now." I sat up quickly. "Why?"
"There is no point in staying Jake. It's not good for Chris. For you." She whispered and I snickered. "I'm not going. Not now Sherry." She blinked before standing up. "He is dead. We are alive, we need to move on. The sooner the better." She said before packing our things. "I'm not going Sherry. You take that pussy Redfield and the rest with you, wipe his tears and take care of his boo-boo for him but I'm going to find Carla and I will kill her." I said and pushed her away when she attempted to take my hand. We were looking at each other before Leon and the rest stepped in. Chris was leaning against Clair and Jill. He waves at me a bit and I noticed what was in his hand. Piers' dog tags. He noticed my look and shook his head. "You take them." He threw them to me and as soon as they were in my hand, I closed it around it tightly. "You won't do anything to avenge him?" I asked and Chris looked down. "Look at me Jake. Carla and her game got me bad. I would be only a burden." He said and I looked away from them, looking for Leon. He was standing by the window. "Ada is still in town. She said she will find you later. She will help you. I will too as soon as I will deal with some things back home." He said and I nodded. Sherry didn't even look at me as she left the room. And for the first time since we got together, I didn't care. I lost someone important to me and I need time to deal with it.
" Take care Jake." Clair said and soon they all left, leaving me all alone with my thoughts.