Out of dut-.. love

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CHRIS

I knew that taking Piers on the mission is going to be hard. But I didn't think about it going that bad. The very first day of the mission, I noticed that the others were talking behind Piers' back. I knew he could hear them but he didn't react. He just wanted to do what he was here for. Saving people, fighting bioterrorism.
When we were transported to the base camp, I noticed he was looking kinda sad. First I thought I was imagining things. He was looking out of the window of the track and I sighed. I was so worried he will go wild. I was worried the guys will provoke him, just to get him out of their way. But if he goes wild, something much much worse is going to happen...

"Mr. Redfield, can we talk for a moment?" I looked up when the higher-ups came into my office. They all looked so serious. I have them a small nod. "Of course. What do you need?"
"It's about soldier Nivans. I hope you understand the risks of him joining the mission." Well of course I understood that. "Of course I do. But I can guarantee you, he won't do anything. He is in control of the virus inside of him." They looked at one another before nodding. "Are you sure? One hundred percent sure?" What was their point? "Yes." I was sure. They pushed a yellow envelope towards me and I opened it. I was reading through the papers while being watched by them. "You can't be serious." I looked at them. I was angry. Furious. What they wanted from me wasn't fair. "We are dead serious. You agree to this, sign it and we will let him join the mission without any problems. Refuse and we will find someone else to do it." I could tell they were serious. What should I do? I knew what I should do as a captain. As someone who swore to protect people, I knew what they were asking from me was just to protect all. But as a boyfriend, I felt like I was failing badly. How could I do this to him? After everything he went through. But did I have a choice? No...with that I signed the papers...I'm so sorry Piers.

Everything went quite smoothly. Yes Piers was being mad at me most of the time. I wanted to treat him as others. When we were doing our job, I was a captain. Not a boyfriend and sometimes it was hard for Piers to digest that.
Then the incident with the infected woman happened. I just watched how Piers communicated with her. He wasn't scared. She wasn't attacking. It was incredible but scary at the same time. It reminded me that Piers is not a normal human anymore. Everything went well until one of my guys killed the woman. Piers was pissed off even more when they suggested to kill the child. I knew there was no point talking Piers out of it but I felt uneasy. Piers gave the girl one of his injections with the antidote from Jake. I knew it was to save the girl but he needed it more. I need him stay calm. I could kiss calm goodbye when the guys brought Jake into the argument. Piers got mad. It was when I heard the soft noises from his arm, that I knew something is bad. He pinned one of the guys against the wall, holding him by his throat. He looked at me. "C-Captain." He manages to choke out before I pulled my gun out and pointed it at Piers. The look on his face when he turned around broke my heart. Betrayal. Hurt. Anger. "Chris." He whispered lowly. "Put him down Piers. Put him down and come with me. You have to calm down." I said and he growled before throwing the guy he was holding, to the side. He followed me into my tent. I looked at him, ready to talk but instead of a talk, I received a hard punch into my jaw. "You fucking pointed a gun into my face!" He screamed at me. I rubbed my sore jaw and sighed. "What was I supposed to do?! You would have killed him!"
"So you would shoot me to protect him? I'm your partner! You are supposed to protect me!"
"I'm your captain! I'm captain of all of them! My job is to protect you all! Like it or not, you are dangerous when you lose control."
"Of course because all I'm is a monster. I'm still waiting for you to accept who I'm. But you still treat me as a sick person." He said and rubbed his face. "I can't believe you would kill me." I walked towards him, cupping his cheeks gently. "I wouldn't. I love you Piers. But you have to understand that all of those guys are my responsibility. You understood it once." Before you almost died back in the facility. I knew I was being harsh. I knew I was hurting him. He looked into my eyes before stepping back a little. "When I lost all of my memories of you, Jake told me it's maybe for the best. Back then I was mad at him, for saying that but now...when I think about it..I think that maybe he was right." At that moment I knew I failed him. I was losing him.  "Piers...You have to stay calm in order to be able to join the mission. To continue the mission."
"I don't even wanna be here! Those guys, I want to kill them all so bad. And I'm missing Leon and Jake! Only two people who understands me! I would rather be with them than with you here!" He screamed before he turned around and left the tent. I plopped down on the matrace, holding my head between my hands. My head was pounding painfully. What should I do? Is there something I could do? What could I do if he would rather be with someone else. I allowed myself to close my eyes, resting a bit. Maybe he will sleep it off. Maybe I will be able to talk to him more calmly tomorrow. Maybe....just maybe I should do what Leon said would be for the best. I should let him go.
I need to sleep....I felt so tired. My whole body was begging me for a little bit of sleep. Just a little bit...

"NO! NO STOP IT PLEASE!" I jumped out of the matrace, back from the sleep as soon as I heard the scream. "CAPTAIN! HELP!" I ran out as fast as I could but I was too late. Piers' bionic arm was buried deep inside of Kyle. "Piers..." My hand was trembling as I took out my gun. "Provoking me. All the time. I warned him!" He growled out and pulled his hand back, letting Kyle's dead body fall to the ground. The other guys were in a bad shape but alive. Thanks God. "What are you going to do Chris? Are you going to kill me with that shaking hand of yours? Are you scared of me?" He said while wiping his hand clean into Kyle's uniform. He was so cold. This was the virus. Not him. He walked slowly towards Dave, the guy who took over his position when we thought Piers was dead, and I panicked. I pulled the trigger and hit Piers' shoulder. He stopped moving and turned his head towards me. "Y-You shot me!" He covered the wound with his other hand and walked towards me. "Stop right there! Piers please don't move." But he wasn't listening. "Piers" I whispered as I pointed the gun at him again.

"I wouldn't pull that trigger if I was you, Redfield." My body froze when I felt the cold gun head pressed against my head..