Out of dut-.. love

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PIERS

I don't regret it. And I never will. Saving Chris, my captain was the best decision of my life. When Haos went after Chris, I didn't hesitate and I pushed him out of the way. Haos was holding me by my hand and the grip hurt. Chris was shooting at his hand and that creature threw me against the wall, impaling my shoulder on a spike. It hurt like hell but it was Haos catching Chris, what scared me more. So when the only possible way how to help my captain was to rip off my arm  and inject myself with the c-virus, I did it. There was no other way how to defeat that thing and I couldn't let it to kill Chris.
When the mutated arm started to grow it felt weird. It hurt so bad. I could feel it spreading all over the right side of my body. I could feel it invading my mind, it wanted to control me. I looked at Haos and when I saw Chris, I was back. Again I knew what I wanted to do. This arm has to be good for something no? And it was. I shot a giant electric laser beam at him and he released my captain. The fight was long and I felt relieved when that thing died. I knew I couldn't go on much longer. The voices in my head, the mutation, the fear. I told Chris I did it for the BSAA and the future but the truth was.. I did it for him. And not out of duty but out of love. Yes I adored my captain. He was just amazing. He cared about his team as his family and he was a good leader. "I know. You did a really good thing." He replied and I wanted to hug him. "As long as you.." I started but he didn't let me finish.
"I don't wanna hear it! We are both getting outta here, all right?" He wrapped his hand around the back of my neck, pulling my head closer to his, our foreheads almost touching. He was determined to get us both out, I could see it in his eyes. He was afraid of losing another member of his team. After what happened to Finn, Jeff and Marco he was scared. I couldn't tell him that I can feel the c-virus slowly killing my human side. I couldn't tell him I feel that I'm dying. So I just nodded at him, following him out of that place, looking for the escaping pods. I tried to keep up with him, tried to kill everything that wanted to kill us and once we were just behind the door to our way out I collapsed. My whole body hurt and I couldn't go anymore. I wanted to sleep but I knew a would never wake up as me. Chris ran to my side and kneeled down. "Piers." He whispered and touched my side. "Oh God.." He said and tried to get me up to my feet again. "Just go.." I groaned out. I didn't want to be the reason of his death. I risked a lot to let him die like that. But this was Chris. He got me back to my feet and wrapped my good arm over his shoulders, supporting my body as he dragged me away.
He let me down once we were next to the escape pod. I leaned my back against the wall and I felt the mutated arm pulsing. I looked at it and I was disgusted. How could Chris even look at me? Or touch me? I was sure my face and the whole right side of my body looked just as disgusting as the arm. I looked at my other arm and saw the BSAA written on my jacket. BSAA.. I met Chris there.. I became the member of his team.. I came to my mind when I heard Chris talking to me. He picked me up and walked with me to the pod. And I knew I can't get in. What if I would lose control and attack Chris? I couldn't do that so I pulled my hand back, looking Chris in the eyes and I pushed him inside the pod, locking it once he was in. He yelled at me to open the door. He said that there is still time for me. But he didn't know what I felt inside of me. He begged me and he even used ordering me. Usually it worked but not this time. I was looking into his eyes and gave him a small smile. I wanted to tell him something, anything but I couldn't. All the words were stuck in my throat. I was looking at him when the pod took off with my captain inside of it. He screamed my name once again before he was gone. I wanted to fall down and let the death take over me but then I saw Haos going after Chris. That thing should be long dead and now he was going after Chris. No, no, no. It took all the strength I had left to shoot one more of that electric laser beams. And I killed it, finally. I smiled softly, tears falling down, rolling over my cheeks. "Thank God." I whispered. Chris is going to be safe. I fell down on the cold floor covered with water. I closed my eyes and for the first time in many years I cried. Like hard. I sobbed like a little baby. I remembered Finn. When he cried about his dead friend and I just told him to suck it up. I'm sure he would laugh at me if he could see me. I felt like I was drifting off slowly.
When I opened my eyes once again I was a bit lost at first. Where was I? Where is Captain? "Chris..?" I called for him and noticed the missing pod. Did Chris leave me? "Captain!?" I sat up quickly, looking  around myself. And when I noticed the arm I knew. I knew what happened. Chris didn't leave me, I sent him away. How long was I out? I was cold and scared. And everything hurt. I wanted to go home. I wanted to see Chris. I wanted to take a shower and go to my bed. I wanted to have that delicious steak once more. I wanted to do so many things but it wasn't possible. Not anymore. No steak, no bed and what was most important..no Chris. I looked through the hole, the only thing left after the pod, and saw the ocean. Water filled half of the facility now. It's not gonna last any longer before I will die. And even now I didn't care. I wanted to know of Chris was alright, if Sherry and Jake made it our safely. Was Chris worried about me? Was he sad? Is he going to try to look for me? I hope not because I didn't want him to be in danger again. But on the other side.. I wanted him to come. To save me and bring me home. I rubbed the good side of my face and screamed. Screamed so loud, as loud as I could. Please Captain... I'm scared. Please...come for me... Take me home.