Out of dut-.. love

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CHRIS

To sit next to Piers after such a long time felt good and weird at the same time. It was hard not to stare at the scars on his face. I took a sip of my coffee Piers made for me before talking to him. Why didn't I text him, what happened on the mission. He still wanted to go back to the BSAA. And as I looked at him, I knew he could do that. Leon and Jake did a really good job. We were talking about anything we could think of and it still felt like we didn't have enough of the time as I noticed it's already so dark outside. I tell him that I should go but he stopped me. He begged me not to go. He didn't want to be alone. I guess he was used to be with Leon at home all the time if he isn't outside with Jake. I agreed on staying then and I could see how happy he was about it. He showed me the way to the bathroom and said he will make something to eat. I stepped into the bathroom and saw all the things Piers had to use after the mutation. Ointments for scars, some things for his prosthetic arm and for part of his arm without the prosthetic arm. With a sigh I took off my clothes and got inside the shower. I didn't take that long in the shower. Piers gave me some clean clothes, tank top and some pants before I came out of the bathroom. Piers was already waiting at me by the table. I smiled at him as I sat down. We chatted a bit more while eating and then Piers went to take a shower. I decided to clean the dishes, wiping the table clean. As soon as I was done, Piers stepped out of the bathroom. I blinked when I saw him standing in the hall just in his boxers, with the ointment in his hand. He was clearly nervous, saying Leon is usually the one doing that. Something inside of me snapped. Leon was.. Touching Piers like that. I stomped towards him quickly, taking the small bottle with the ointment in my hand. "If Leon can do that, I can too." He smiled a bit. I put the soft, nice smelling ointment on my fingers and hesitated over his scarred skin for a bit. "If.. If you are disgusted you don't have to do that." He whispered slowly, stepping away a bit. "I can wait for Leon or I can call Jake. He did it too." He said and I looked at him. Jake too?! I stepped closer to him again before slowly massaging the ointment into the scars. The skin was rough under my fingers and I felt Piers shivering under my touch. "Does it hurt?" I asked him while following the lines of the scars with my eyes and fingers. "Sometimes. When I work out it hurts a bit more. Jake took me for a swim and it burns inside the pool." He said and I rolled my eyes. Jake again? "Leon said you and Jake are best friends now." Piers laughed softly. "He is the reason I'm still alive. Even not so long ago they had to give me his blood again. I guess it makes people grow closer. And it's not like I have a lot of friends. And after I hurt him.. And he still didn't let me go.. I realized he is not that bad." He smiled and closed his eyes as I got closer to the scar near his right nipple. I felt all over suddenly. I never touched another man like that before. Sure I was just helping him and this was anything but sexual but it still felt.. Weird.. In a good way. I got lost in my thoughts and I froze as I heard Piers moan softly. I looked where my fingers were. Right at his nipple. I looked up at him. His cheeks were red, eyes lidded. I never thought I could ever say that Piers is beautiful. But right now.. He was dashing. "I.. Um.." I could just say as I moved my fingers to his navel, massaging more of the ointment in. I could feel the skin twitch under my touch there and he let out a soft sight. I looked up at him, finding out his eyes are closed. I looked at the scars on his face up close. Even the right corner of his lips is covered with a scar. The skin there clearly rough. How would it feel to kiss it. Piers opened his eyes, blinking as he saw me being that close. He looked into my eyes before looking down at my lips. He liked his lips before moving his head closer and millions of questions flooded my mind. He was about to kiss me. So Jake didn't lie when he said Piers loved me? Is it safe to kiss him? Would it feel weird because of his partly scarred lips? What about the virus in his body? Can I get infected? Our lips were about to meet and I saw them up close. I moved my head away, stepping back. He looked up quickly, his eyes wide. "I'm so sorry captain! I thought you.. Wanted it too.."
"I did but.. I don't know.." I said and rubbed my face. Piers snorted a bit. "Are you disgusted? Afraid of the virus? Disgusted by how I look like up close?" He said and I wanted to say no. "I'm.. Not disgusted by you Piers I could never be." I said and moved closer to him but he raised his hands up. "Don't. I know how I look like. You don't have to lie."
"I'm not! But you are right about the virus. It went through my mind for a second." I said and he looked down. Here comes the uncomfortable atmosphere again. "Piers I'm sorry. It was disrespectful towards you."
"Disrespectful? You know how I feel about you. I know it's not easy to look at me But I didn't expect this from you." He said, taking his phone into his hand, calling someone.
"Leon will be back in 5. I think you should go home captain." He said and I shook my head. "Piers don't do this."
"Please go.. Come back tomorrow. I can't be with you in the same room right now." Ouch. I sighed and went to change into my clothes before looking at Piers as I stood by the door. "I will come back tomorrow then." He nodded without looking at me. As I was about to go out, Leon opened the door. "Oh Chris. Leaving already?" He asked and I nodded. "Bye Piers." But he didn't reply. I closed the door behind me, leaning against it once I was out. I almost kisses Piers..I shook my head, leaving the building shortly after. I screwed up big time. I knew it will be hard to get closer to Piers again after this. Well done Redfield. Well done.