Kirito x Asuna

Akemi or Kirito?!?

Asuna's P.O.V.

As I managed to force the incredibly hard words to come out through my gritted teeth, I looked up at Kirito as my face turned into one of resignation. Although I had made this decision on my own, by my own free will, I hated myself for even the thought of being separated from Kirito for mere hours. But thinking about how Akemi was feeling now, well for the past few years, I could definitely relate. So after saying these words with no expression on my face, I stared in the murky light grey void that was Kirito's eyes.

"Why?...." Kirito said in a voice that tried to suppress the sadness overcoming him. Making his face look distorted with grief.

I love him with all my heart, with all I am, without him, there's an emptiness that can never be filled. He's the one that found me-the real me, and brought me back to life-not the one with my family or troubles- but the one with him, and Yui in that cabin that felt more like home than anywhere else I've ever been. But I also know what horrible torture it was to have nothing to live for, for nothing to chase after, and for no one to understand you, nurture you, and love you. That was utter hell for me, and I thought it would never end. I remember the restless nights when I kept thinking to myself that I would never find anyone who understood me or loved me. Until I met Kirito in the virtual world of <<SAO>> under that inconspicuous tree.

"That's because...that's because I'm doing this for her... For Akemi."

"What does she have to do with this???"

I looked away, averting my sight away from Kirito's.

"The pain" my voice was barely audible as the words escaped my dry throat.

"Huh?"

"The pain!" I turned towards Kirito suddenly, making my hair whip my face from the sudden change in direction.

"The pain of not having anyone!" I yelled out, wincing at hearing myself. Kirito stared at me wide eyed, shock filling his eyes.

"Asuna, what do you?..."

"I hated it Kirito...I hated being alone, without any love" I heard my voice reverberate. "Do you know how it feels to have every single day without happiness? How it feels to go to sleep crying... And knowing that the next day will be filled with more sadness and despair?" I looked at Kirito's face that was clearly filed with pain,

"And then, you came along" I lightly laughed, still trying to hold myself together from crying. "You changed my whole world upside down" I continued "and most of all, you changed me" I said the last part looking at Kirito's eyes, expressionless.

"Asuna..." I felt his hand on my shoulder.

"But I still get scared...because...because I know this can't last"

"W-what do you mean?..." Kirito stepped closer.

"Right from the start, I was really happy that we could finally be together... But then, I started thinking..." My voice was getting hard to hear. "What if...what if...someone else needs you just as much as I needed you back then...and they...they can't survive...without you by their side..."

I remember now. That night, no, those nights I never had a single nightmare...when I...when I thought of him, after I met him. The reluctant, arrogant, stubborn, jet-black, dual-wielding swordsman who melted my heart from all the doubts and worries. Even if he didn't notice, I always appreciated him just being there. Just helping me to realize what he meant to me.

There were several seconds of silence between us. We could only hear each others breaths.

"No"

"Huh?" I suddenly jolted up, half surprised, half scared.

"No" Kirito said again as he looked up at me. His childish, naive face that I loved so much was filled with sadness, at my sudden confession, making me think of a child who lost their mother. "I won't accept that" suddenly his expression changed, his eyes wiped away any signs of grief, and was replaced with determination.

I knew it, he wouldn't give up this easily. He, the Kirito. He doesn't know the word 'give up'. He'll keep trying until there's a way.

"I'm sorry Kirito, but...you have to...you have to go to Akemi..."

"I won't....no, I can't" he cut me off.

"Kirito...."

"I love you Asuna, and I know you love me too. We made those vows that we would love each other forever, no matter what. So I can't just...just leave you!" Kazuto looked down at his feet.

It stayed like this for several seconds which seemed to be dragging on, without anyone's consent.

I decided to break the silence "Kirito, I'm sorry...bu...." I couldn't finish, since I didn't exactly know how to handle this situation, not to mention what to say.

When I was thinking through my next attempt to talk to him, I was arubtly cut off by Kirito's sudden...

I felt my numb lips become engrossed in warmness that felt like it could melt my heart at any given moment.

"....?!?" I said surprised.

Kirito's warm lips were covering mine. At first my eyes were wide open because of the surprise, but then I felt the familiar feel of his mouth against mine, and started kissing him back. Our moths moving together as one.

No, I can't...I'm going back on my own words that I just said to Him. I thought while thinking about maybe pulling away.

But...but at the same time, I can't betray my heart!

Before I could debate over what I should do, Kirito's hand found itself to my back, pulling me closer.

I unconsciously responded by placing my hand on his nape, closing the distance between us.

We continued for what seemed like only a few seconds, when Kirito pulled away slightly, so that he was a few centimeters away, looking at me with his beautiful eyes. Our noses were brushing each others slightly each time we took a breath. His breath mixed with mine as we continued to catch our breath.

An indescribable expression appeared on Kirito's face suddenly.

"If you really want us to break up, I'll agree. But let me tell you one thing Asuna." His hand slid behind my left ear, "you're going to put me through something unimaginable...something so utterly horrible, I don't know if I could survive." His other hand slinked behind my right. "And without you, I'm never going to get through it...because...because I love you Asuna, not only for what you are, but for what I am when I'm with you. And I am hopelessly at loss for words because everything I've ever wanted is right in front of me. And if you think I'm going to just throw it away, you're insane. You may not know it, but ever since I met you, my life has changed" Kirito face dug into my shoulder "for the better" he said the last part hugging me tightly, his voice muffled.

"Kirito...." I said hugging him back, tears running down my blushing cheeks.

"I love you Asuna, and I'll never leave you" Kirito held on tighter, like he was going to get pulled away if he didn't.

I was at loss for words.

I don't know what I should do... Save Akemi?...or Kirito?
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Hey guys so I'm super sorry I haven't updated in since: forever!

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So I changed Kazuto to Kirito cuz it just didn't sound right, plus, in the anime, Asuna calls him Kirito in the real world, so eh, I decided to change it.

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