We meet again. -Lachambers

My Reasons Why Not

-(Chris POV)-

"I know you miss him and you have the right to be upset but you have to take care of yourself."

"I can't look after myself wheni know i didn't look after Denny,now Denny's gone."

"Gordie if Denny saw yu like this he would reaxt in the same way now ut some joggers and shoes on.We're going for food"

With that i got up and left the cokes as i climbed out the window onto the tree i came in on. And soon followed Gordie, he had left his window open a bit so he could get in his room late. I when we got down to the end of the tree he couldn't jump down with his skinny legs so i jumped down and soon after he fell into my arms,we shared awkward eye contact then i put him down. Putting my arm around him and his around me we started walking along the streets where i led him to a little over night diner so i could buy him a burger, fries and a milkshake. Me having not money i was  relying on using my dad's beer money,I know i will get a hiding but atleast Gordie will be eating okay and if i had to do it everyday i would. The boy in my arms was emotionless and fleshless and i don't want him to be like that any longer, Denny wouldn't want him looking like this. I don't want him looking like this.

We had got to the diner and we walked in searching for a table. I found one in the corner, which was kind of perfect because i dont think Gordie wanted to  be seen as a skinny weak boy more tha he already was. I grabbed his hand and pulled him to the table then his hand slipped out of mine because it was so thin. I sat infront of him. His posture was too awkward and wrng for Gordie. I Looked at his hands the ones that had fell out of mine. You could see his white bones and pale skin matching each other and he thought he looked normal. That he looked somewhat perfect. I thought he always looked great but him in this state made me feel sad, seeing him sad made me sad and dissapointed i haven't been able to help him get out of his little depression bubble. And then i think Gordie caught me staring because his little hand and long fingers had moved out of my eyesight.

"C-chris don't.." He said stuttering and i had realised i made him uncomftable.

"Oh, i'm sorry man..It's just..How have you lost this much weight in only a week?" i asked with pauses.

"Chris i don't want to talk about this past week, it's been too painful. First i find out that Denny's dead buut i'm not allowed to know why or how it happened because nobody will tell me!" i could tell from his tone changing he was getting aggrivated,"And second whenever i leave my room my dad reminds me about how it's all my fault and Denny would have been alive if it weren't for me, but guess what Chris? I don't know what i have ever did to my dad to make him hate me!He fucking hates me and i don't know why!"

It was clear i had set something off in his head so i went over to him because a tear had fell from his eye,a singular tear dropped down his cheek, so i went to sit with him and he barged past me and went to the toilets and i decided i should let him have a moment so i called a waitress and ordered a burger and fries with a side of onion rings for me since i didnt have enough for two full meals. With the meal we got a milkshake and we also got two straws so i thought we could just share it. It had been about 6 minutes and the food had arrived at our table and Gordie got back from the toilet and he just sat there while i ate onion rings. I don't think he knew i bought the food for him. We sat in the positions we were in for quite a while then i broke the silence with,

"Y'know them burger and fries are for you"

"Oh i don't think i will have them you can have them" he replied shyly because he knew i was going to make him eat them anyway

"Gordie come on man eat. It's like your first meal of this week and i don't think you're okay.Gordie i'm sick of worrying, if i have t force feed it into i will, i just can't let you not eat!" i said firmly.

"Okay fine, but don't attack me if can't finish it" He said calmly starting to chomp on the burger like he hadn't eaten properly ever.

"Lachance i don't want it to seem like im attacking you i just want you to be okay and healthy. I know Denny wouldn't want you looking or feeling the way you are."

"Don't tell me what Denny would and wouldn't have wanted because i know. I know man, I fucking screwed up and my body hurts and i know Denny wouldn't want this for me.I fucking know so stop rubbing it in Chris." And with that last sentence it was silence.Complete silence until we left the diner.

When we left the diner i think Gordie was ready to go to bed and not get out til tomorrow afternoon. I took him back to him and helped him up the tree and took him to his bed. I stoodby his desk looking at his paper and pens spotting a page of paper labled

My Reasons Why Not

My name was at the top..