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Chapter 9

I can't seem to get enough of him. I don't know where this is going, and if it is leading to..sex.. My mind is fighting with my body. I'm a virgin, and I've always dreamt of my first time being romantic, with my husband. Something special. But right now, my mind is telling me to stop, not to go there. Not only because I barely know him, but also this is happening so fast, and it's the opposite of special. But my body is winning the battle and I can't seem to pull away from him.

His hands move to the hem of my shirt and his hands meet my skin, as he wraps his arms around me, making contact with my bare back. I burry my fingers at the top of his head and pull, I can feel him smile against my lips and I can't help but get butterflies. He starts to lift my shirt, but my subconscious breaks through and wins. Damn it.

"I'm sorry.." I say embarrassed as I break contact with his lips.

His hands are still on my back but he lowers my shirt down back to its original state.

"No I uhm.. I didn't mean to push you i just..." He stammers.

"You didn't.. Push me." I give a small smile. "I've just never... You know"

"You've never madeout with anyone?" He questions raising his brow.

I flush with embarrassment, it's obvious he sees how inexperienced I am.

"No I have" I lie, "I just meant what was about to happen.."

"Oh.. And what do you think was about to happen?" He says looking down.

"I well... I don't know but I just haven't... You know done any of that before." I say and I look to the side embarrassed. His hands aren't on me anymore and my legs aren't wrapped around his torso, but he still stands in between my legs with his hands on the counter in each side of me.

He puts his hand to my cheek and forces me go look back at him. He has a puzzled look on his beautiful face.

"It's just embarrassing" I say hoping to answer his question in his head.

"You don't need to be embarrassed" he says laughing slightly. "Is that why you stopped? You thought I would care that you've never done anything like this before?"

"No.. I just... I've always wanted my first time to be... Special." I say and I can feel my face is redder than before.

"Special... Right." He says like he's disappointed.

"And well... We barely know eachother.." I say. I wish I knew him better, if I did I don't think I would have stopped.

He doesn't say anything for awhile. Oh.

"Well uhm... What do you want to do now?" He asks rubbing the back of his neck as he looks up at me.

"I should probably get going actually.." I say and I jump off the counter.

"Oh.. Right, sorry.." He says putting his hands in his pockets walking me toward the door.

"I'm sorry I just...I feel awkward?" I say. How stupid am I?

He lightly laughs, "Madi, it's not that big of a deal." He's slowly starts walking towards me. If he kisses me again... I don't think I'll be able to stop, and I'm not sure I'll want to.

"Oh." I say and break eye contact.

"No I didn't mean it like that I just mean that I'm not offended that you wanted to stop. I completely understand." He lightly puts his hands on my hips and brings me towards him his mouth by my ear, I can feel his breathe on my neck, and it causes goosebumps to rises on my skin.

"Another time.." He whispers. His words send a chill through my body and I can't move. All I do is nod.

His lips meet mine and his touch is gentle. But he pulls away...too soon.

"Now you should get going." He says with a teasing smirk on his face.

I roll my eyes at him and reach for the door and as I walk out I hear "Goodbye Madison." and I look back and smile before leaving the flat.