I'm With You (Karlnap)

I'll Be The match To Your Candle

Tw: Mention's of self harm, physical abuse, alcohol and body shaming/insults.

It's Sapnap's last class before the school day ends. He was looking forward to meeting Karl. He looked up to the clock as the seconds slowly drag by, the last few minutes of the last class always seem to take the longest.

Was he really going to open up to Karl? Sapnap was sitting in class, waiting for it to end. He already had the work done. What would Karl think of him? He'll think you're weak! He was rethinking his decision about going to Karl's house.

What would he actually say to the other? He was starting to over think, was he going to ruin this new friendship? He didn't want to put his problems onto Karl. Sapnap peered arouned the room, trying to focus on images or stationary to calm down. 

His heart started beating faster, he was starting to feel dizzy. He tried to reassure himself, everything was going to be fine. The final bell for the day rang out , Sapnap rose from his seat and picked his bag off the dirty floor.

Some people were saying their goodbyes, a few said them to Sapnap. Which he smiled at them and said the same back. This was draining, he was still feeling lightheaded as he walked out of the classroom.

He couldn't do this, Karl was going to think he was weak, he was going to call him a wimp. Sapnap picked up his pace and walked out of the school completely. Not bothering to look for Dream afraid he would meet Karl along the way.

He walked down the footpath on his own, mind filled with uneasy thoughts. He couldn't hold it together any longer. This was getting harder to keep in. He made his way towards the park, the smell of grass and flowers filling his senses it calmed him a bit. 

He walked down the stony path, he had already started crying. You are no man, men don't cry. He sat himself down on the old bench in the corner of the park, it was hidden behind some trees. His head was racing, what was it going to be like when he got home? Would they hit him again? 

Sapnap sat there for nearly 20 minutes just thinking about the consequences and what would happen when he went home. He finally took a break from worrying only to see he had missed calls from Dream, Karl and even George. 

He felt guilty, making everyone worry about him. He sat alone in the park debating on who to call first. He decided on Dream. He clicked on his contact and Dream picked up on the first ring. "Sap..?" Sapnap's heart broke, it sounded like Dream had been crying.

He hadn't heard that voice for a while, the last time he heard it was when Dream was going through a rough time. Memories of the days Sapnap would go to Dream's house, when he dragged him out of bed and got him ice cream. He hated himself for making Dream feel any way close to that again.

"Dream- I'm so so sorry, I- I.. My mind, it got too much. I had to take a break I-" He tried to apologize but Dream cut him off. "Where are you? You had me worried sick. You can't keep disappearing on me" Sapnap could hear Dream sniffing on the other side of the call. He had definitely been crying.

"Have you been crying?" Sapnap avoided Dream's question, becoming more worried. "Where are you?" Dream pushed on. "Can we just worry about you for a second? Please, I promise I'm safe, I came to the park for some fresh air. I'm sorry for making you cry Dream, I hate what I do to you. You do so much for me and I can't even give it back" Sapnap started rambling on about how he hated making Dream sad. Dream just listening.

"Pandas, you just being here is enough for me. You are the best friend ever, don't you dare say you can't give any of it back. I care about you, that's why I'm upset" Dream's voice was soft. Sapnap was taken back, he was caught off guard. He was expecting Dream to be mad, for leaving and not telling him. But when has Dream ever been mad at him or something like that?