Killing Love - Deidara x Reader

Chapter 21 - Second chance

The week passed fast, with someone to come and make you company. The little bird was on my night shelf, somehow making the room brighter. I knew I have to start training again, I was feeling better and ever, nothing was hurting and I was full with energy. I ran trough the stairs down to Pain's office and I opened widely the door.

- Let's go training! – I yelled eagerly at him, because I was so done with staying in my bed like a 90- years old grandma. He started at him surprised that I didn't knocked, but soon he took out some files from his shelf.

- Other day, kiddo. Today you are going on a mission, again.

- But, I – - I wasn't prepared of missions now. I had to train more, to master more techniques.

- I know. And I think you're sick of this type of missions but let's just say I'm giving you second chance to correct your last mistake.

- What do you mean?

- You didn't finish your last mission, which was to find Orochimaru's hideout and to kill him, Kabuto and whoever tries to stop you. You're going again with Deidara. I believe you both are those who should success this mission. I hope you don't fail again, or that would mean I put my hopes in front of my rationality. Don't fail, Y/n.

- I promise I won't. This time will be my last going there. I won't fail you, Leader. – His eyes opened a little bit, I don't call him "Leader" all the time, but only when I'm 100% serious.

- Tell Deidara, get ready. You are going after 10 minutes, so...

- You should told me earlier... - I ran into my room to take a quick shower and to prepare everything. When I was done, there were still around 2-3 minutes left, and I headed to Deidara's room where he was sleeping.

- Wake up, sleepyhead! We are going on a special mission! – I pulled his arm from the sheets and soon he was on the floor, but at least awaked.

- Damn, what's wrong with you, un! – He tried to go back to the bed but I took some of his clothes, some food and all of his clay in a bag

- Waiting you down in one minute! Get fucking dress, gosh! – I realized he was only in his underwear as I became red as a tomato. I took mine and his bags and shut the door behind me. I just heard his laugh through the door, which made me even more red.

Pain was waiting Deidara with me outside in front of our hideout. Soon, he came too and he took his bag.

- What is the mission about? – I completely forgot to tell Deidara where are we going

- We have a long road so I'll have enough time to tell you, let's stop wasting time and go! – I grabbed his hand and just before I jumped with him on the tree, Pain stopped me

- Be careful. Remember our training. You don't need anger for it, you can control it only when you're with your head. – He vanished in sign that we can start our mission now. We were jumping from tree to tree, keeping a beautiful silence, when Deidara started ranking from nowhere.

- You should tell me earlier about it, I didn't have time for anything!

- Don't blame me, Pain told me too late.

- So, what is the mission about?

- Completing our failed mission.

- Wait, are we going in Orochimaru's hideout again?

- Yes. – I jumped faster and faster so can Deidara stay behind me. I wanted to stay a little bit alone with my thoughts. If this mission fails too, I would be a failure myself. I need to control it, no matter what. We didn't talk about how rinnegans work, but he sent me on this mission. He was right, though, that I'm the one who should success this mission and no one else. In my village, I was the strongest one, but I realized that I'm not the strongest among everyone outside my village. The reality hit me really hard, making me stop believing in myself for a little, but since I have this cursed seal, everything is different. I don't hate it that much, it's actually very useful if you know how to control it properly. I don't look at myself as a monster, no, actually the opposite. I just want to be the best. For me.

- Are you ok, un? – Deidara took me out of my thoughts and I slipped on the branch, falling down. I closed my eyes, trying not to scream loud, but I didn't hit the ground. As I opened my eyes, I saw a pair of hands carrying me, we were still jumping from tree to tree.

- Don't worry, I caught you. – Deidara was smiling at me, tightening his grip. Words can't describe how embarrassed I was, how red...

- I, uh, I – I tried to say something but he interrupted me again

- Don't bother, you won't fall again. – He seemed pretty sure about it. I just allowed him to carry me, admiring the blue sky over us. He was always trying to be the leader, to be the mature one, when I was little, I looked at him as he was a God, but as years passed, he killed my clan and he showed on the Chunin Exams I became the smarter one, the more mature one. I guess he doesn't like the idea, because I see that he is always trying to surpass me. But as I live with him, with the others, I saw too that he isn't the same kid as I knew him. He understanded that no one will be there for him, so he is the one who should pat him on his shoulder, who should keep him cheering up and helping him survive in this world. One day I hope I can show him that there are others, there for him too...

- I will put you down, un. Let me make one of my clay birds so we can get higher view.

- You should do it earlier... - I wasn't tired, but the idea of flying on a huge bird sounded better. He took the clay and soon we were rising high in the sky on the bird. I sat on the edge, watching the forest as it was a little handful of moss. I wasn't able to concentrate completely on the mission because I wasn't seeing such art from a long time. The art of the nature.