Killing Love - Deidara x Reader

Chapter 25 Let me live

A month later, Y/n's pov:

I was kept here a whole month already, waiting for someone to find me and take me back into the normal world. The time, the reality and everything was mashed up in my mind. I was in prison, blaming Deidara for it. Blaming him for everything bad on this world. I was training like a freak in my room which I called "my cell". I got rid of stupid depressive thoughts, build myself up, and ignored the pain, just because I had to went trough a hell every single day. My muscles were mixing with scars, so many scars all over my arms, from all the needles. My legs and wrists from the chains. The black circles invade the skin under my eyes. They took the last bit of chakra I had, not able to summon a tiny flame in my palm. I tried a few times, even though I was warned, to get to the laboratory, for what they took from me, but it was always locked. I was training with Sasuke, beating him every single time. I was always asking myself why don't I try to kill myself? I was looking trough the little window I had, the only way for me to see the outside world. It was beautiful. I wanted to inhale the air, to walk trough the grass, to see the clouds and the night stars. To feel alive again. I could feel I'm somewhere else, the hideout had moved from, when I asked Orochimaru he confirmed.

Sometimes I beg the God to save me, even though I don't believe in God.

Sometimes I want to cry and yell, but it doesn't matter what will I do, it won't help.

As the time flew by, they started having faith in me, to trust me. I hate them, but they didn't. Maybe they were using me, but who didn't... I was in my room, cleaning my little window when Sasuke came in.

- We are going on a mission in the Leaf, you will stay here. I hope you don't do anything stupid.

- I won't. – I cut him out.

- Ok, we are leaving, so, bye. We will see again in a few days, it will be a tough one.

- Good luck. – he left, soon they all went to the mission. I packed them food, and when again in my room.

"Alone for a few days, no. I can't try to escape, I can't without the chakra..." I waited for the day to end, tomorrow I would come with a plan.

I dreamed freedom this night. The beautiful sky, the beautiful lands, the smell of being alive. "I will feel this again, whatever it takes."

The next morning, Deidara's pov:

I went to search for her day ago. I'm searching for people who might saw her, something giving me hint... I was making my clay clones, searching in every direction, and it was a good idea, because soon, one of my clones got to someone who had saw them. It was an old man who saw the three of them, without Y/n around an entrance, hidden in some forest. It was around two days from here, but I will be fast as possible... "Don't bother, Y/n."

Y/n's pov:

I woke up early in the morning, the first thing I did was to check if there is someone else here, but I was the only one. I had to find something to open the laboratory, I tried with the torch, with no use, so I went to search for something else. As I went on the highest level, I saw a broken piece of the roof, showing the blue sky. There was a little white thing on the floor around it, as I took it in my hands, I realized it's clay. Ok, I have clay, I just need to remember about Deidara's hand signs so I can make it explode. He taught me long ago, but I didn't remember it well enough. I separated it in two halves, trying with some random hand sings I was seeing Deidara doing. I put the first half on the handle, but unfortunately after the wrong hand sings the clay turned into ashes. I was left with only one last option, just enough clay to make the door explode. I tried to remember it, and I thought I finally got it, but it was only a matter of time to get in. I put the clay again, took a few steps back, and made the hand sings.

- KATSU! - I hadn't seen good luck in a long time, but as the door explode and the laboratory was in front of me, a hope got into my thoughts. Maybe I can be happy again...

I went inside, going to the experimental table where I was laying before, and the metal sphere full of Orochimaru's liquid chakra. I shook it a little, it was full and it was so heavy. There were some pipes connected to it, with which they took it from me. In the end of the pipes, which were little as a straw, there were connections for needles. I didn't know if I would die from this, am I doing something wrong or should I inject it all in me, it was more than I had for sure. I put all the four needles, two for each hand, and I just sit and wait for the chakra which soon showed in the pipes, to get into me. In the beginning, the feeling was like a venom is getting inside you, making you a little sick, but soon after the half of the sphere was already in me, I couldn't feel any pain. The old heat I knew was feeling inside me. I could feel the power, the fire. It was all back, and it was enough, but I waited for the other half to get trough me too. As I waited, I heard a door crack, three different footprints were coming, and it was bad.

- Y/n? Where is she... - Kabuto called for me, but I couldn't stop now. I had to empty the sphere or I won't be able to do anything. Kabuto ran to the laboratory, seeing me doing the worst possible. I turned my hand at him, blasting him in the wall with my lovely fire. I heard Orochimaru and Sasuke running to me too, I need just a little bit more time. Both of them showed in front of me, kinda surprised that I opened the door and kinda sad that I did it, even after they trusted me. But I'm not some animal kept in a cell, I want to live, yeah!

- Take this, bitches! – I yelled at them and blast another flame, they hided behind the door. Just a little bit, it was soon going to be all injected...

- You are born betrayer, aren't you! You should be kept in this laboratory for the rest of your life! – Sasuke yelled trough the wall, too scared to show his face trough the door.

I took out the needles from my hands, ready to blow the up when I heard someone else's explosion.