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tenth.

Sunhee POV
Throughout the week it was generally normal, Kevin and I are pretty close now, I no longer get nervous sitting next to him. Rooming with him isn't so awkward anymore. I ended up just braving it out, and moving into the empty room that was once my haunted past. It's more convenient for the both of us. I ignore the scratch marks on the door as much as possible, reminding myself that the door isn't locked, I'm not trapped, he's not here.

The good thing is- kevin is a talker, and I'm a listener, so it works out. He hasn't said anything about my secret yet either which I think is a good sign. I still have to go to the peer first responders thing after school, but ironically it has kinda helped. Identifying mental disorders with someone else who can relate was surprisingly nice. The best part is that outside of that office room we don't speak about it at all. It kinda makes me feel like I have a real friend.

Changmin is also pretty nice, he seems sweet and innocent (except when he watches horror movies) and he and Chanhee are really close. Very close.

Now it's friday, the day we all planned to go to the mall after school since Changmin lost some kind of bet between the two. however there's an issue- I forgot. Today is November 7th, the day it happened. The incident. It's a tradition on this day for me to stay in my room all day, suffocated by my miseries, replaying the situation over and over in my head- trying to think what I could have done better. You know, the works. It's partly out of fear in going outside and running to another guy like that- but partly superstition as well because it hasn't happened again since that year on November 7th.

My alarm rings and I turn it off immediately, pulling the blanket over my head. I hear Kevin shuffle around his room, opening and closing drawers, humming a tune. i hear him go in the kitchen as usual, making some sort of breakfast. It does in fact feel a lot less lonely while staying in Kevin's apartment, but today I need to be alone.

I hear a knock on the bedroom door and I scramble up, opening it a crack just to see through.

"You ready?" kevin asks with a smile when half my face peeps out.
"S-sorry, I'm not feeling well," I half lie.
Kevin gasps, "really?! You should've said something! Were you up in the middle of the night? Dude I was awake too you should've told me!"

"No, just a cold probably," I say, adding in a fake cough at the end.
Kevin stares at my visible eye. "Well I can stay here with you from school, how can I help"
"No, really, it's okay, you should go so you can fill me in on what happened at school" I tell him, praying he'll leave.

"no no no," He insists in english. "I'll stay here"
I close the door gently between us, "you're gonna be late!" I say from inside the bedroom, and I lean against the door with my back.

Kevin knocks harder on the door, the sound awakening something inside me as he says, "Just let me innnn". He doesn't say it aggressively at all, but in my head it translates that way when I heard it in the past and I go into panic mode, bringing me back to this day of that year.

"Just leave!!" I shout to the other side of the door, it is unintentionally loud and very stern sounding. My heart is pounding, i close my eyes trying to bring myself to the present.

But I immediately regret it when I hear his footsteps fading into the distance. Without another word I hear him walking around the apartment a bit more, than leaving the apartment, closing the front door.

I slide my back down the bedroom door, burying my head in my knees. Gosh, why did I have to yell like that? I'm the worst- I practically kicked him out of his own apartment. It's not him- it's just Kevin, It's not him. It's not going to happen again, I'm okay, I'm not trapped, this door is unlocked.