SeoulMates | OT7 Soulmate AU

Yeoseot (여섯)

We went back to Mi-kying's after everything was over, it was just the four of us. I was nervous because I didn't know much about my dad so hearing anything beyond what I did know made me anxious.

"Your mother and I were both of your father's soulmates" she said without a build up. Her eyes landed on me and turned sad "And I hated it."

"Why?" I asked with mixed feelings brewing inside of me

"Because I was jealous. I found out about you and your mother when you were around two years old Ma-ri, your dad just called me out of the blue one day and told me he'd found his second soulmate and wanted to bring you both home to Korea. I hated having to share my husband and when I saw a picture of her I couldn't believe how beautiful she was. I felt inadequate in comparison."

"Mom..." Minji sniffled then looked to me

"I know it was wrong but at the time I didn't care. I didn't care about the inevitability of the situation, I wanted him to choose me and only me. He tried so many times to come home but I wouldn't let him because of my own insecurities and selfishness."

"So you knew about me th-this whole time?" I asked, feeling angrier than I've ever felt before. I wanted to choke the life from her body.

"Yes" she answered truthfully, not bothering to wipe her tears away "I have always known about you but I didn't want you to exist, I didn't want you to be real so I never bothered to meet you or your mom. In my mind, as long as I never saw you then I could ignore you"

"Ugghh" I paced the room wanting to hit something or someone. How could she be so fucking selfish! I could've had a family. "So why did dad move us here when I was seven?"

"Soulmate connections can only be severed in death. No matter how long they are separated or how far away they are from one another the longing to connect or reconnect will linger until one of them dies. Your father and I's connection was in jeopardy, soulmate connections are like tree roots, they can dig deep into the mind and body so the stronger a connection the less time and space mates are able to withstand without each other. When the connections aren't nourished the mates start dying. After eight years apart I was starting to go crazy, it's a side effect of your soulmate's absence. Being without them can literally drive you insane so he moved back to be closer to me but even though I was literally losing my mind I still hated him for bringing you and Carla with him"

I felt anger, no I felt rage. A white hot rage that the sun would envy. Every word she continued to speak made me want to erupt like a volcano. I couldn't believe what I was hearing, that she sat on this secret for over twenty years without action.

"I know nothing I say or do will ever make up for the horrible things I put and your mother through, I know you hate me and I deserve it," she finally broke down with blubbering sobs "I'm so, so sorry Ma-ri" Mi-kyung's head hung low as her shoulders bounced. Minji and Minsu sat there completely speechless while I only had one question for her

"Is that why my mother killed herself?" She only cried harder giving me my answer.

You know that moment of complete calmness, the perfect stillness of everything around- the calm before the storm- you feel when you're reached peak devastation? Well that's exactly what I felt in that moment, like everything was as clear as crystal before it shattered into a thousand tiny shards. I grabbed my purse and walked out the house without another word. I calmly climbed in the backseat of the town car and instructed the driver to take me to the hotel as I struggled to keep myself sane. Once I reached my room I snatched a pillow from the freshly made bed, sank to the floor and screamed into it until my voice was hoarse and my throat was sore. My eyes were swollen and bloodshot red from the nonstop crying, I didn't move from the spot until morning. I didn't sleep, how could I?