SeoulMates | OT7 Soulmate AU

Seumul-Hana (스물하나)

Seokjin (continued)

I woke up feeling numb and groggy, blinking repeatedly to adjust to the light I noticed I was not in my bedroom at home. I was in a hospital room. I tried to move but it hurt and I felt extremely heavy, even trying to reach the call button was a lot. With a heavy sigh I hoped a nurse or doctor would come in soon and closed my eyes, trying to think. It wasn't long before I heard the click of the large door opening.

"Looks like he's still asleep. I'm going to check his vitals but you can stay, I'll only be a moment" a feminie voice said softly. I lifted my lids to show I was actually awake

"Actually he's awake" Namjoon said, pointing to me with a nod of his head

"Oh, Mr. Kim, can you speak?" the nurse asked standing on the left side of the bed where all the machinery was stationed. I tried to talk but my throat was really sore and dry. "It's okay, don't force it. I'm going to check your vitals then I will bring you some water" I nodded

She worked quickly, the room was quiet as she didn't say much and Namjoon hadn't opened his mouth. Once she was gone he leaned over the right side of the bed and I could tell he had been crying and it made my heart sink. I couldn't believe I let my selfishness lead me to this point, where Namjoon cried because of me, where Yoongi and I barely talked anymore, where I was being a dick to my lovers who are also my best friends, and to where I risked my life and Ma-ri's because I was being stubborn; I was hurting the people I loved most in every way.

The redness of his eyes made mine water, he grabbed my hand and squeezed it giving me a weak smile "You had us all so worried but I am so, so glad you're okay" his voice was scratchy

The nurse came in with a cup of water and set it on the bed table. Joon thanked her and then held the straw to my lips, I eagerly siphoned the cool water until I was satisfied. I cleared my throat, no longer dry but still sore and thanked him. He sat the cup back down and caressed my face

"Jin, tell me what's going on"

"H-how is Ma-ri? Is she alright?" I asked feeling guilty

"She is. Tell me" he pulled up the chair to sit and listen

I exhaled then cleared my throat again, "I have a pure connection with Ma-ri," I started and his eyes bulged. Pure connections were always rare and even more so today. "The day her mother died was the day I connected with her, the traumatic experience rocked her so hard that her beacon was prematurely activated. That's when my migraines began and I thought I was dying until one night I was in bed about to drift off and I started getting flashes of weird images in front of my eyes. I thought I was starting to hallucinate but even when I blinked or closed my own eyes I could still see the images as they became a clear picture except it wasn't a picture it was a face. Her face." I paused feeling my emotions rise and my eyes welling up.

"She was standing in front of a slumped over body, with fat tears cascading down her cheeks and dropping onto her shirt. I thought I was having a lucid dream at first, it felt like I was there with her, like I was her because I felt the pain in her chest too. I felt the breaking of her heart, the instant loneliness and the anger that raged inside of her, I felt it all as if it was originating within me. At the same time I felt extreme sadness and pity for her, she didn't see it but she heard her mother kill herself; Ma-ri heard the gun go off while trying to break down the door to save her" My tears were racing down my face and I was nearly sobbing at the awful memory.

"Joon, it was so awful" He silently cried as I talked. "She saw her mom like that with her own two eyes only minutes after it happened. I-I was utterly devastated for her. A few days later I told my parents that I kept having weird dreams and that I was getting severe headaches so they took me to the doctor but they found nothing physically wrong with me so they sent us back home. At the time I didn't know much about soulmates, just that they used to exist and now they don't, or so we thought. Maybe a month later I connected with her again, this time she was having a mental breakdown and was admitted to a psychiatric hospital by her grandmother. That's when I really felt everything, the hurt, the pain, the anguish, the love, the longing and her desire to kill herself"