weird feelings

Chapter 2

During the night I woke up because I had to go to the toilet...

As I came back to go to my room, tom's door was open and I look inside and saw him awake...I tell myself that it wasn't my 'problem' and tried to go back to my room without thinking about it too much. I got back to my room lied on my bed and tried to fall back asleep but couldn't, that's what it is to have a overthinking brain and caring about everybody is like....

I got up (again) and walked out of my room to tom's I knocked on his door and he hummed for me to enter, so I entered and saw him as I tough: he wasn't sleeping.

Seriously I didn't even know why I got the idea to go to his room, he hates me but I did so now here we are ...I guess.

"Why aren't you sleeping, it's late" I whispered walking closer to him

"can't sleep" he said shortly I moved so I could sit on the end of his bed

"Why are YOU up ?" he asked me "can't sleep either" I said and smiled

"can I do anything to help you ?" I asked him and he think about something, the opened his mouth to say something but closed it afterwards and sigh

"Tom?" I said still waiting for his response he looked back at me

"uh no" he smiled a little bit. "you sure? You don't seem really fine" I spit out, I really didn't know what i was saying or doing but like really it was like I wasn't in my own body. He was probably tell me to leave him alone or something like that.

"is that so obvious?" he asked and I looked back at him for him to continue

"I had a nightmare if you want to know everything" he said looking straight in my eyes then at the floor. "you want to talk about it?" I asked maybe going off the limit, but whatever

"no, not really but thanks" he replied and I smiled at him. "But for your sleep I can give you some plants, it could help you" I said trying to help him "that would be really nice, thanks" he said and smiled a little bit better, I liked this side of tom, he was nice. So I got up and went to my room to get the liquid and poor it into a cup with some water, I then gave it to him. He hesitate at the color of it "it isn't poison, look "I took a sip of it and he chuckled " see, am not dead" I state giving him the cup. He drank it and lied down again "thanks tho" "no problem" I said and was ready to leave his room but he stopped me in my tracks by saying: "wait, can I do something to help you sleep?" "don't worry im fine" I replied and faked a smile, I wasn't actually fine it have been the 4rd day that I almost didn't slept plus I got diagnosed with depression few month ago...So I actually wasn't fine at all but tom didn't knew my conditions and problems only Haz did.

"Y/n, I know your not fine" he said and I turned to face him furrowing my brows

"what do you mean, im fine!" I exclaimed, well maybe he knew after all.

"do you want to stay sleep here?" he asked and im not gonna lie I was shocked by his proposition. "no im good" I smiled "come on, I know your not just come so you can atleast sleep a bit" he said and I nod. I walked to his bed and he opened the blancket and made space for me, I lied down "how do you know?" I whispered not sure if he heard me. "Haz, told me" of course he did, I mentally shook my he ad.

"well you weren't supposed to know that so please don't treat me either way or act like im sick, just act like how you did before and don't try to ignore the fact that you hate me" I said and he got closer to me I could feel his body warmth heating my bare cold foot and legs I send me chills down my spine.

"I don't hate you, I never did" he whispered in my ears and chills invade my whole body, then I realized what he said, I sat up and looked at him with bare confusing on my face. "you don't?" I asked knitting my brows together "nope" he replied

"tom, stop the bullshit" I said rolling my eyes. "it's funny how you think im joking" he said still laying and looking up at me "I really don't understand you" I confessed "yeah well I don't either" he said and we both chuckled.

I lied back down, and tom came even closer and I could feel his breath on my neck, after some time he fell asleep and turn around to look at him, he was so peacefull when he was sleeping I started playing with his curls and he scrunched his nose wich made me smile. After some time I fell asleep as well.

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When I woke up, tom's head was in the crook of my neck and my eyes widend I din't reallt remembered what happened last night but it should definitively have been weird, few seconds later I jumped at the sounds of haz almoqt yelling outside tom's door, tom woke up. "Tom! Y/n is not here! Do you know where she is!" he was yelling, tom's eyes widen "Umh oh NO, why?" tom said and I looked at him stressing, Haz couldn't see me here. "she probably went for a run " tom continued

Tom whispered to me to go down the blancket, I did as told and jhe picked me up and placed me on his torso so it was the flattest possible.

"IM COMING IN " haz said from outside the door and went straight in

"Goodmorning haz, it's not really like that that I like to be woken up" tom said and I smiled , damn he abs, like toned abs as fuck, okay no stop, stop.

"Yeah, well y/n is missing, she didn't left a note or tell anyone where she was" haz said panicking and I felt bad. "Mate, im sure she's allrigth, she would have called if not" tom tried to reassure haz. "I hope so" haz said and left. Tom chuckled and lift the blancket "that was close" I said and he laughed, he looked intensely in my eyes and I could feel my checks turn red and my smile went brighter. I hide my head in his chest and I was still completely on top of him. "let me see" he said but I didn't move "come on, let me see" he insisted "noooo" I mumbled on his chest skin.

Omg what was I doing, yesterday I tough he hated me and now im literally on top of him. Okay I really need to get out of this situation but at the same time do I want to?- no I don't but its best if I leave..- I think, Oh god y/n just go out it's not that difficult.

"how did you slept?" he asked me and I pop my head out and nod " it was fine" I said teasing him " Fine? You know how many girls would of killed to sleep with me?!" he said and I rolled my eyes, of course he just wanted to take me in his pants

"yeah right" I said and rolled so I was on the actual mattress. "Oh come on, it wasn't like that and I know you don't like all those stuff" he said, he was embarrassing himself more and more. "is that what you think of me?! That I can't have fun that im a 'prude' "I asked angry "what, I didn't say-" he stopped when he realizes he did say that "yeah, you didn't" I said sarcastically and got up.

"look, im sorry I didn't mean it like that" he said and I turned to face him "then what did you meant?" I asked and he did not say anything I just nodded in disappointment. And reach out for the door,

"that you wouldn't want me"