weird feelings

Part 19

22pm:

y/n still has not woken up and I was sitting in a chair holding her hand, the doctor said she passed out because she didn't ate anything. I had texted Haz and he was on a flight to come here, he would be here in the morning. After some time I fell asleep and had a nightmare again... it was y/n she was dying, I woke gasping and sweating, she was still unconscious, I didn't slept after that, I just couldn't.

5 am:

As I said, I did not slept. I felt y/n waking up and I opened my eyes, well okay I just rested my eyes. She opened her eyes and I kissed her hand, "hey" I said softly and smiled, "what are we doing here?" she asked and I sigh "you passed out cause you didn't ate" I said she looked at me and furrowed her brows. "no I did ate I promise" she said and I sigh "I'm not going to get mad at you but don't lie please" I said and she sat up, "I'm not lying tom, I ate at the restaurant, at the competition and In the morning" she said and I nod "okay" I said "I promise tom, I ate" she said and teared up, I got up and hugged her. "okay, I believe you" I whispered in her ear and kissed her head. I called a doctor and he said we could go home, I drove back home and the car drive was quiet, I didn't realized she fell asleep. We arrived and like always they were people at the entrance, I didn't wanted to wake y/n up so I lift her up and carried her in her appartement I opened the door and saw Haz sleeping on the couch, I put y/n in our bed. I took some comfortable clothes, one of my baggy shirts and some boxers, I put her under the sheets and got to take a shower, I turned the water on and washed my body. I got out of the shower and put on boxers and joggers, I got into the kitchen and took a glass of water. I was lost in my though and didn't realized Haz was next to me. "are you all right mate?" he asked and I looked at him, "what? Oh yeah" I faked a smile. "I'm gonna go check on y/n" I said and he nod, I walked to our room and closed the door behind me. I climbed in the bed and took my joggers off since it was hot, I got closer to her and she mumbled something "are you okay?" I whispered, "shh and come here" she whispered, I got closer to her and took her in my arms. "I love you" she mumbled so I couldn't hear it but I did, I kissed the top of her hair. Her head was in my neck and my head was on top of hers she was close to me and I was hugging her tightly. "I love you too" I whispered and she smiled, I played with her hair and we talked a bit. Haz knocked on the door "yeah?" I said and he came in, "how are you feeling?" he asked y/n, "I'm fine thanks, how are you?" she asked "I missed you" he said and she pout "aww come here, big baby" she giggled and opened wide her arms. She hugged him, "so you guys are dating?" he asked and I looked at tom. "no we are not" i said, I said the right thing, if Haz knows then we are done. He would break us apart. And we didn't wanted that at all, she nod and I took her in my arms again, I kissed her head.

y/n's pov:

tom took me in his arms again and kissed the top of my hair, it always comforts me.

"wait but where are you going to sleep?" I asked Haz and he shrugged, I sat up and

sigh "I'm going to clean the other room and you can sleep there" I said and got up. "wait we are going to help you" tom said and walked next to me to the other room, Haz followed us. I opened the door and saw the bed still there with everything that I had left there, "okay so there is a second bathroom in your room" I said and he nod, "wait why did you tell me you only had one?" tom asked. "cause I have to clean it and I didn't had the time when we got here, because of the masterclass" I said and he nod. "lets begin" tom said and Haz put on some music, I cleaned the bed and changed the sheets and Haz was doing the bathroom with tom. I had decorated a bit differently and it looked good. "all right we are done here, what about you y/n?" tom asked. "I'm done too" I said and they got out of the bathroom, "thanks" Haz said and I smiled. I got into the kitchen and sat on the couch. Tom came next to me and I smiled, he let me put my head on his shoulder and I closed my eyes. I soon fell asleep and tom was playing with my hair, I wasn't really sleeping I could hear them talking. "so how was it with y/n when I wasn't here?" Haz whispered. "it was quite nice" tom said, "did you saw Nadia again?" Haz asked, why was he asking that he didn't saw her. "yeah I did" he said, "and what happened?" haz asked. "nothing special, she called me and we had sex that's all" he said and I sigh. I made like I woke up slowly and I rubbed my eyes. "oh you are awake" tom said and I walked to my room without saying anything, "y/n?" I heard tom calling my name but I ignored it. I sat on my bed and stared at my door remembering the moments he wasn't at home and I figured out he was out fucking Nadia. I chuckled for myself sarcastically and shook my head,

better luck next time...

I did tom's suitcase and put it in the hall, "I want for you both to leave and go in London" I said in the hall and tom turned to look at me, "hey what is going on?" he asked and I chuckled once again, "we both know what is going on, so get up and go home" I said and he sigh and gulped. "What is she talking about tom?" Haz asked, "tom told everyone that he has changed but he hasn't" I said and got into the kitchen to take a glass of water. "oh, and I would like to have my key back" I said and he looked straight into my eyes. "There is a flight tonight, you better go before you have nowhere to sleep" I said and sat on the counter. "and I want all of your things gone with you tonight" I said and walked to my room. Few seconds later I saw tom walking in my room, "what the fuck?" he exclaimed and I looked at him, "I said what I had to say now get out!" I yelled, "you said no running" he said with tears in his eyes. "you fucking kidding me ?! you are the one who fucked Nadia! But I am the one who runs away?" I exclaimed and he looked angry at me. "what your going to abuse me like he did!" I said and his face dropped, I didn't realized what I said. But it was to late.

He sat on my bed and looked at me, "you don't have to do that" he said tearing up like I did. "im not the one who did it, you are" I said "this doesn't work" I said "no please no, don't do that I only have you" he begged me to stay. "I can't" I replied coldly and walked to the front door. "I'll come back in London to take my things so I can totally move in here" I said and walked out of my appartement and called Billie. "hey mammas" she said "it's over" I said crying "im coming" she said and hung up, after 10 minutes I saw her car pull out and she saw me, she got out of the car and hugged me. "shhh it's okay it's going to be all right" she whispered in my ear, "what happened?" she asked and I explained everything. "and we are going to your appartement they are the one ho have to leave not you" she said and pulled me upstairs. "did you talked to him?" she asked and I shook my head, "well you have to" she said and I sigh then nod. "I just don't think im able to" I said and she made me look at her in the eyes. "you can do it and you will" she said. We walked inside my appartement and I saw Haz on his phone in the couch, "y/n can we talk?" tom asked and I sigh. Billie pushed me and said yes for me, we got into my room and I sat in my bed looking at him directly... "what do you want to talk about?" I asked and he sat on the corner of the bed. "you can't do that?" he said and I rolled my eyes, "so I can't do that but you can fuck Nadia!" I yelled he looked at me. "I didn't fucked her, I couldn't tell haz we had made out" he whisper shout. I sigh and tears escaped my eyes, "so you didn't?" I said angry and he sat next to me. "no, I could never you are the only one I love" he said and I burst into tears, "hey it's okay" he whispered and hugged me, "im sorry tom" I said and he kissed my head, "it's okay, I know it's okay" he said. After a few minutes I had calmed down and he looked at me, "so can I stay here or?" he trailed and I chuckled, "of course you can stay". We heard a knock on the door and tom got away from me in case it was Haz. "Yeah?" I said and Billie entered with Haz, Billie looked at me and I nod "what happened?" haz asked and sat on the bed. "I just tough tom did something and I got mad at him but now it's fine" I said and he smiled. "okay, good cause I don't want my best friends to fight or worse" he said and I looked at him confused. "what could be worse?" tom asked and haz sight, "that you use her and fuck her" he said and I choked on my saliva. "don't worry that's uh never gonna happ- why do you even say that?" I chuckled. "mate you really think I can do that to her?" tom said and I chuckled again. "even if I did she would not say yes" he said and I nod in agreement "true" I said and haz nod "good cause I don't want you to fuck or be in a relationship other then friends or best friends" he said and I smiled awkwardly. "anyway I have to go buy some grocery stuff, and I'll be back" haz said and left the appartement. Billie sat on the bed and looked at us both like she was going to do her moral.... "you didn't tell him?!" she exclaimed and I looked at my hands. "you see how he just react and he doesn't even know" tom defend us. "all right, but one day he will find out" she said and I sigh while nodding my head. "we know" I said. "and you better not hurt her" Billie said to tom, he chuckled "I won't I promise" he said and I smiled a bit. She walked out and let us both in my room, I looked over at tom "im really sorry" I said and he frowned "why are you?" he asked "cause I didn't believe you" I replied and he took me in his arms. "its okay, just stop feel guilty" he said and I nod. I looked up and kissed his nose, "do you want to order pizza?" he asked me and I smiled widely. "you know me too much" I said and pecked his lips. I took my phone and called the pizzeria, "hi, would it be possible to order?" I asked the guy on the phone, "hi miss, yes of course what would you like?" he asked and I looked at tom. "a marguerita with ham and a second one" tom said chuckling the last part. "a vegan pizza and a 4-cheese pizza, please" I said "perfect it will be ready in half an hour" the guy said and I hung up, I would have to go take it cause I don't want people to know where I live and everything...