weird feelings

Chapter 14

I went out of her room and saw Zendaya sitting down on the couch, I got next to her. "so, how are you doing?" she asked and I nod "pretty fine actually" I replied and she smiled "yeah I see that, she does it to everyone" she said and I turned to face her "excuse me what?" I said totally understanding about who she was saying that. "y/n, she always makes people happier just by being there for them, and im sure that's why you are smiling right now" she continued and I sigh. "you got it right, I asked her to be like a fake a couple" I said "but you really like her" she finished my sentence. "no, she's just a-" I got cut again "a crush, yeah I know" Zendaya said. "all right yes, I do like her maybe" I mumbled and she smiled.

"but you can't date her, tom I know you" she said and I frowned "you really think I am that bad, and I could just use her" I exclaimed. "I didn't say that, I know that it's difficult for you to keep a relationship" she continued and I nod. "I won't leave her cause she's the only one I need" I said, she smiled and patted my back.

We saw y/n getting out of her room and she walked towards us, "what's happening?" she asked and I smiled "nothing, don't worry" I replied and she sat next to me. "All right I leave you guys, I have to go home" Zendaya said and left with Jacob. "what just happened?" she asked and I laughed, "nothing, come im gonna help you unpack" I said and pulled her up, but she didn't move.

y/n's pov:

I stayed sat down on the couch while tom was trying to pull me out of it, "I don't want to" I said and he lift me up "all right, we have to unpack" he said as we entered my room, he throwed me on the bed and got my suitcase. "You do know there is only one bathroom?" I asked and he smirked "I know, and one bedroom disponible" he said, "I'll sleep on the couch" he said, and I rolled my eyes. "Oh, come on, you know that's ridiculous we haven't slept without each-others in week and personally I prefer sleeping with you" I said and he smiled, he got on the bed and on top of me, he licked his lips and looked at me up and down and pecked my nose. Tom put his hands on my chest and took my sweater off, "tom, not now" I said but got cut off by him tickling me. I started laughing so hard and he smiled widely. I got lucky to meet him and to talk with him cause that is where this all began. He looked at me and I chuckled, I pulled him into a kiss taking his face in my hands. He smiled into the kiss and so did I, I turned around and I was now on top of him, and he looked at me straight in the eyes, I felt tears run down my cheek. He looked at me with concern "you okay?" he asked and I nod "y/n, what is happening?" he asked and I began to shake a little. "Nothing I promise, it's nothing" I faked a smile, he put a hand on my cheek and wiped my tears. "y/n tell me please" he asked and I hesitate. "I – I can't im sorry" I said as more tears runned my cheeks. I got up from him and sat, he sat as well and kissed my head. "it's okay, take your time" he said, I took a deep breath "im scared you will leave me, like everybody" I said and he looked at me and pulled me into a hug. "I know it's stupid" I mumbled, "y/n it isn't stupid and I promise I'll never leave you" he replied, whispering in my ear. That's what they always say and they all end up leaving... "I really can't lose you Tom" I said and he patted my head making circular motions, "you won't, okay?" he said and I nod. "we should talk I think" I said and he nod, "why don't you want to be in a friends with benefits relationship?" he asked and I shrugged "I get attached to people easily and it's weird for me like it's not clear" I said "and you like when everything is clear, I know but you make me feel so good and happy I have never been like this in my entire life" he said and we put our forehead on each other's one. "I know, maybe we could try the fake dating thing?" I said "you are sure?" he asked "I am if it's with you" I replied and he took me in his arms. "so we basically do whatever we want outside, like we can kiss and be together most of the time and stuff?" I asked and he chuckled "yes, we act normal like we are and we are not hiding" he said and I smiled at his comment. "all right, so now I can post things" I laughed he gasped and laughed. I opened my phone and saw Billie had liked my pictures and had send me a text.