weird feelings

Part 17

"ha here you go again, let's go! So tom and y/n had sex last night and today was the 2nd day of the masterclass. Wake up y/n your gonna be late!"

I woke up by the smell of bacon and eggs, I opened my eyes and looked next to me, tom was still asleep.

"Oh god who is in y/n's appartement?!"

I got up and put on some joggers and a shirt, I got of my room and went into the kitchen, I approach the couch and saw Zendaya sitting, I sigh in relief. "oh good morning y/n" she said and I hugged her, "hey" I mumbled. "Looks like you had sex" she trailed and I looked at her confused, "what, no!" I exclaimed and she raised and eyebrow. "y/n, there are clothes on the floor and it's not only yours" she said and I rolled my eyes. "whatever" I sigh, "so who is it? And where is tom?" she asked, I laughed I little. Tom came out of my room only wearing his boxers and I covered my head into a pillow. "hey tom, wait what?!" Zendaya exclaimed "Zendaya?!" he exclaimed, "tom please put on something" I groaned and he chuckled "all right I'll be right back" he said and got to change himself or put something on... Zendaya looked over at me and nod smirking "since when?" she asked, "well we are just friends with benefits" I said and she frowned "what no, you're not" she said and I shook my head. "Anyways, I have to take a shower before my class, it won't take long" I said and walked into my bathroom. I quickly took a shower, I got out of the shower cab and realized I didn't had a towel "tom! Can you bring me a towel?!" I yelled and soon after tom opened the door and gave me my towel. He looked at me strangely, "what?" I asked "are you okay?" he asked and I nod faking a smile, "y/n talk to me" he said and I smiled once more "I'm fine" I lied. "Okay, get ready we have to leaving in half an hour" he said and I nod, I got dressed and ate breakfast.

As we got into the building, I saw everybody exercising their technique, everyone except Mia. She was doing her solo with so much passion and emotions I was so proud, I got to her and talked with her a bit. We trained and everybody was happy to be here, they were all listening, and it was nice.

The day went by quickly and I was soon at home, I took my pills and I already felt better, I lied down on the couch and took a nap, or slept...

When I woke up, nobody was in the appartement I figured that Tom went on a walk or something, I got up and went into the kitchen. There I opened the fridge and took some leftovers, I put them in the microwave and sat on the kitchen counter. I felt really tired, the microwave beeped and I took my plate and ate, when I was finally finished I sat on the couch and watched a movie, I usually don't watch any movies cause I don't have time but I guess I finally took some for myself...

I watched multiple movies and did not saw the time fly.

3am:

Tom still wasn't at home, I took a shower and got in bed, after 10 minutes I heard the front door opens and I got up. I walked to the entrance and looked at him, "where the fuck were you?!" I whisper-shout, he sigh and walked straight past me. "don't walk from me" I state and he turned to face me, "where were you, Tom?" I repeated and he looked at his hands. "tom?" I said softly as I walk towards him, "I umh I was at a bar and I" he started "and you drank?" I asked, "yes but it's not only that" he said and looked at his eyes. "what is it tom?" I asked and he looked at the ground, "I umh I danced with a girl but I was drunk and that's why I couldn't come home earlier, I was drunk" he said and face fell. "yeah you were too busy being with some random girls" I state and rolled my eyes, he sigh I walked to my room and came back with my pillow, and put it on the couch. "what are you doing?" he asked, and I lied on the couch and he came closer to me. "y/n" he said, "I'm not sleeping with you" I said and he furrowed. "come on, don't say that" he said and I glared at him, "leave me alone tom" I said and he looked at me confused. "come on," he insisted, I didn't move. "why won't you come?" he said and I raised my eyebrows. "because, I know you fucked a girl and I just don't want to sleep with you, cause I'm not an objet or one of your trophies" I exclaimed and few tears flew my eyes. "I haven't fucked anybody exept you in the last 3 weeks" he said and I looked In his eyes, "but you think I didn't change even after the fact that you said yes to us having a dating relationship, and you think I didn't change?! Because a month ago it would be impossible for me to even think about being in a long term relationship" he exclaimed and I shook my head and I knit my brows together. "BUT WE AREN'T FUCKING DATING TOM!" I yelled and he looked angry at me. "yeah right, so it shouldn't bother you if I have relationships with other woman!" he exclaimed, "of course not, do whatever you like it's not like I care!" I lied and he breath end out, "so it shouldn't bother that we actually sleep together like we did since the beginning" he said and I sigh, I got up and walked to my room. I lied down and looked at the ceiling as tears strolled down my cheeks and into the pillow. Few seconds later I heard my door open and tom walking towards the bed, he climbed in and lied down. I turned so my back was facing him. He got closer, he took me in his arms and more tears strolled my cheeks and into his arm.

"y/n" he said and looked at me in the eyes, he whipped my tears with his thumb and I looked at him.

"I don't want us to fight" he whispered and hugged me tightly, "I don't want either

and I know you didn't had sex, I, I was just worried you would walk away from me... I was anxious cause you weren't home" I whispered and he kissed my head. "I'm not going anywhere without you" he said and took me in his arms, he turned us so my head was on his chest and he kept me close so I couldn't go anywhere, we fell asleep.

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I woke up at 5 am and went into the living room I took a blanket and covered myself with it, I then turned on the tv and went on Netflix, I put my favorite show and watched it. After 6 episode I heard tom groaning and looked at the time, it was 7am... I stayed in the couch and looked at Instagram, I published some pics I took with Billie and identified her, after a few minutes my phone was going crazy again and people were reposting it, Billie liked it and put it in her story it made me smile. "y/n?" tom said from the room, I did not replied I didn't wanted to. He got out of the room and I looked at my phone, "good morning" he said and I nod, "hey" I said softly and he sat next to me on the couch. "I didn't heard you going up, when did you woke up?" he asked "5 am" I said and he sigh, "do you want to take a nap?" he asked as he hugged me, and I nod. "yeah but I don't really have the time" I mumbled in his skin, he swayed us and soon I fell asleep in his arms.

Tom's pov:

y/n fell asleep and I continued playing with her hair, she was so peaceful, I took a pictures and posted it, I didn't care about what people will say. I ordered some bread for us to eat later and a cake, her favorite cake since it was her birthday in 2 days. It would take a day for them to make it and I always have to command earlier cause they have a LOT of orders...

i went into the Prada site and I saw the bag she wanted since she saw it, which was 2 years ago, I looked at the price and I shrugged she deserved it.

I clicked on the button 'put in the cart' and continued looking at things, I ended up only buying the bag. I felt y/n move and I put my phone down, she groaned and opened her eyes. "you feel better? I whispered in her ear and she hummed. She got up and went into the kitchen, I followed her. "how did you slept?" she asked and I nod, "fine" I looked away. "is it the nightmare again?" she asked and I sight, I sat on the chair and looked at her. She walked towards me and sat on my lap, she was facing me and she took me in her arms. "it's okay, it's okay I'm here" she whispered in my ear and I tightened the grip on her I didn't wanted to let her go "I'm not going anywhere" she whispered like she read my mind, she looked at me and kissed my lips, then my nose and my forehead. I smiled and kissed her nose, she blushed and hide her face in my chest I giggled "no let me see your face" I giggled and make her look at me, she was red and I smiled. I kissed her again, and we got up, I lift her up and put her on the counter, she took my t-shirt off and trailed her fingers down my abs, I smiled I took her top off and she looked at me in the eyes. "are you sure?" I asked and she looked confused, "what do you mean 'am I sure' of course I am" she said with tears in her eyes, "hey, no come here" I said and pulled her into my arms. "no, I want to" she said and I looked at her, "y/n, tell me what's going on" I said softly. "nothing" she said and kissed me still crying "nothing, everything is good" she said between the kisses. "okay, now tell me what's wrong" I said making her look at me

"I told you, nothing is wrong I promise" she repeated and I shook my head, "no y/n you are lying" I said and she looked at me. "oh I get it, you don't like me anymore" she said and got out of the counter. "what? I never said that!" I yelled, she turned around and looked straight into my eyes.