weird feelings

Chapter 4

I pull finally back and he looked at me in the eyes, "you are absolutely beautiful y/n, don't ever try to compare yourself, you don't have to be liked by anyone but yourself" he said "but I hate myself" I said and he looked straight into my eyes, he took my head In his hands and kissed the top of it. "okay, we're gonna go train and then well talk okay? Put all your anger into the exercises it helps ...a lot" he said and I nod he took me by the waist and we book walked in the building, as he predicted loads of boys and girls where looking me up and down. "don't mind them" tom whispered in my ear and I faked a smile, we both got to a spot where tom put his bag ang gave me a towel "thanks?" I said.

" okay, first we warm up you can do stretches "he said and I did as told. He glance at me and quickly looked away when I saw it it made me giggle internally.

We got to the treadmill and started running, "I actually hate running" I confessed as we took a break, he looked at me and laughed "yeah I can see, you have zero cardio" he said cause I was breathing too fast for what we runned....

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We got back home and I went straight to take a shower.

Tom's pov

"So how it went?" haz asked and I shrugged. "it went well, apart for the cardio part" i laughed "yeah she don't have any cardio" he added "oh you think so?" I chuckled and went to my room to take a shower as well, I took off my clothes and stepped in the shower, took my shower, got dressed and sat on my bed texting to some girls I have been hooking up with

*The texts*

"hey I really want to have sex right now, can I come to yours?"- tom

"hey, sure can't wait ;)"- Samantha

"im coming in 20"-tom

*End of the texts*

I got up put on my shoes and keys and I was on the road to her house, I barely knew this girl but oh well

I had sex that day and I was happy with it, it didn't meant anything she's really just a hookup .

Your pov

I got out of my shower, got dressed in some joggers and tom's hoodie.

When I got donstairs I saw no one not even Haz, more space for me to sing I guess

I connect my phone to my speakers and began to dance while singing I ws quite strip-teasing but I was alone so it couldn'ggt go bad could it?

I basically sang and danced for about 2 hours and felt asleep on the couch afterwards.

Tom and haz came back and I heard them tripping on the shoes in the hall, I was actually still half-asleep.

"shush, she's sleeping your gonna wake her up " tom whispered

"right, sorry so how was your hook up?" haz asked and tom didn't respond, "tom?" haz repeated and tom pointed in my direction haz nodded. So he was hooking up, I mean I knew he hooked up but never really payed attention to it and I really don't know why I do now, no y/n don't he's just a friend really just a friend and he doesn't like you, I repeated to myself. I 'woke up' and stretched my arms " good to see that you slept" tom said and I faked a smiled once again "yeah, I guess I was tired after all" I said and went into my room. I put on my favourite show and went trough tik tok. I was kinda mad at tom but didn't know why, well I did but I couldn't admit it. I didn't ate anything today and didn't even realized, but I didn't want to eat so id didn't. I heard some shouting from tom's room and decided to go check. As I got into his room I saw a tom no one could distinct he was the one shouting with haz. I saw a pill box opened on the floor I picked it up "what is happening?" I asked and haz pull me away from tom surrounding "y/n it's really not a good timing" he said and I looked at him squinting my eyes. "what are those?" I said lifting the pill box in the air. Tom quickly got up from hi bed, walked towards me and almost dislocated my shoulders with the force he put the take the box from my hands, he throw them into a drawer. "can someone tell me what the fuck is going on here?!" I yelled they both looked at me surprised that I yelled

"we can't tell you" tom said "what is it bout yu hooking with some hoes, and getting STD then I already know it!" I exclaimed, he looked at the floor I got out of the room too angry to continue this conversation right now.

I called lizzie and she came to picked me up, we went to hers I was gonna stay a bit at hers anyways..

"so what's happening?" she asked, Lizzie is my best friend if it wasn't for me she was living with us at the house but you know , boys always think they are the center of attention and decide for everything for everyone

"tom and me got closer than before and now they are hiding things from me, important things there was a fucking pill box on the floor and tom tear it off my hands, and he was like mad really mad almost..violent" you mumbled the last part but she definitively had heard you. She hugged me tightly " you can stay here as long as you want" she said "I actually think it's better if I go back, I will just ignore tom" I said changing my mind about resting at hers.

After resting some hours at hers it was already late and she drove me back home, I opened the front door and went into the living room.

"Where the fuck were you?!" Haz yelled at me "We called you thousands of times!" tom added. "my phone died" I lied "where and wih who were you?" tom asked getting closer to me "I was out with a friend, why do you care?" I asked "why do I care?! Maybe because i-we tough you were in danger!" he exclaimed "i- lizzie picked me up" I replied and sat on the couch "sorry that I didn't said where I was going" I felt guilty "just tell us next time" haz said and hugged me, he's like a big brother to me and he's super protective... I went into my room and tried to fall asleep but again I couldn't, I really didn't wanted to go ask Tom to sleep with him since he's a dick and a fuckboy. But after 3 hours of trying but failing I got up and knocked on tom's door, he opened it and I constate he wasn't sleeping either.

"can't sleep?" tom said and I nodded he made some space for me to enter and I got in "look im really sorry about earlier" I started but got cut off by him hugging me , it felt good to be in his arms. "why aren't you sleeping?" I asked still having my head in his chest "nightmares" he whispered and I looked up to see him "again?" I asked and he nod "it's okay, I have some too" I said, I usually don't tell anyone that, not even Haz or Lizzie because it's a dark side of mine...