weird feelings

Part 18

She looked straight into my eyes, "okay, then why won't you prove it to me" she exclaimed, "so having sex for you is proving that you like someone" I said confused,

"yes! Cause you fucked melissa and nadia and others girls with no problem, but me you won't so that means that you don't like me and that none of it was real. Even if our relationship wasn't real." She said and walked away to our room, she closed the door behind her. I shook my head and punched the table. I sigh and followed her, I opened the door and saw her on our bed... "I don't want us to just fuck, I want us to be friends that can talk, and I didn't wanted to fuck because you are not doing well and it will not resolve the problems" I said and sat on the bed. "you know if it wasn't real it would be much more difficult to pretend it is" I said softly and she looked at me. "but it isn't real, you like someone else" she said and I shook my head, "and who that would be?" I asked raising my eyebrows, "tom you said it yourself we are friends with benefits" she said and I nod sighing. "what?" she asked, "nothing it's just funny that you can't understand that you are the one that I like and that's why I asked you to 'fake date" I said and she furrowed her brows together. "I'm sorry what?" she said, "you heard me" I replied and she zoned out.

y/n pov-

this can't be real, we can't be dating I can't be in a relationship

"y/n?" tom said cutting me from my zoning out, "y-yeah?" I said and looked at him, "are you okay?" he asked and I nod hesitantly, "okay what is wrong now?" he asked and I shook my head. "nothing" I faked a smile "you still can't fake a smile without me noticing, now tell me" he said and I took a deep breath. "We can't date" I breathed out, "I know you would say that" he said and I furrowed my brows "wait what?" I said and he chuckled. "I know what your going to say, that you are not good enough and that you will ruin my career and stuff like that but you won't, okay?" he said and I looked shocked. This guy knows me better then I do, "how do you know I won't?" I asked and he sigh, "because you are more important" he said and I got tears in my eyes. "you do know that if we actually date there is no coming back, I get attached and if it doesn't work then we couldn't see each other anymore" I said and he smiled, "then it will work" he said and whipped the few tears I had under my eyes.

"so y/n, do you want to officialize it?" he asked and I scratch my chest, I do that when I'm stressed. "it would just be for real now, don't stress and you can still say no even if I really don't want you to say no" he said and we chuckled. "i- umh can I think about it?" I mumbled. "okay, do you trust me?" he asked "of course I do" I replied and he looked at me "then what's the problem, and don't say:'me'" he said and I looked at my hands. "I'm scared it won't work" I said, he took me in his arms and I tighten my grip on his waist. "see everything will be all right, and it will work but we have to talk to each other for it. Cause if we don't then It's sure it won't work" he said and I nod. "is that a yes" he trailed and I chuckled and punched his arm, he looked at me and I kissed him. "she said yes! Well I assume, is that a yes?" he asked and I laughed, I nod and kissed him again. "yes, it is a yes" I said and he smiled, he pushed me on the bed and kissed me. "just one thing, I don't want us to be those clingy couples that use stupid nicknames" I said and he furrowed, "ah, nope I'm gonna call you princess" he said and I glared at him, I shook, my head "nah, hell nah, my name is good" I said and he shook his head. "nope, then darling or love" he said and I squint my eyes, "all right, love when we are at home and darling when we are outside" I said and he chuckled. "can't promise that" he said and I stared at him. "all right, all right" he said and put his hand in the air as to defend himself. "but I will kiss you at any time" he said and I rolled my eyes and smiled at bit. "okay, but not in the middle of an interview or something like that" I said and he chuckled biting his lip. "I decide" he said and I sigh, "all right" I said and put my legs around his chest and turned us around I then got up and walked to the door. "wait how the fuck did you do that?!" he asked and I wink while I got into the kitchen, he followed me and we sat at the counter, we ate and talked. "well since we still have a little bit of time, I'll go take a shower" I said and walked to the bathroom I took my clothes off and walked into the shower cab. I turned the water on and let the water running on my body, I felt tom behind me, "hey" I whispered he kissed my neck approaching my body, I felt his erection grow and a smirk lighted up on my face. I turned to face him and kissed his lips, "we don't really have the time" I said and he nod "I know, it wasn't for sex, I just wanted to take a shower with ya" he said and I smiled, I took the body wash and started washing myself, it was pretty weird doing that in front of someone. He did the same, and took the shampoo for my hair, he put on some and started washing them, my back was facing him. At one point he pulled my hair and my back arches, my head fell backwards and I kissed his lips, he smiled. I got normally again and continued washing myself. "we should hurry up" I said and I quickly rinsed my hair and body and let the place for tom to rinse himself as well.