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Esmeralda’s POV

Nag iisip na ba kayo kung ano ang magiging role ko sa story na ‘to?

Hahayaan ko lang kayong mag isip. Dahil hindi ko rin alam kung bida o kontrabida ang role ko. Pwede ring extra lang, depende kay author kung ano ang trip nya.

By the way let me introduce my self first. I am Esmeralda Constantino, born up in Davao and grew up in Manila and live abroad for almost six years.

I was a member of prestigious ballet company based in Milan reason why I was living overseas and my mother strongly disapproved of it reason why we barely talk all those years. I want to fullfill my dream, kahit ayaw ng Mama i go for it. I took my chances and grab the oppurtunity. Sabi nga nila strike while the iron is hot so there I was living alone in a foreign land. No family. No friends. Just me and me alone. Until I met other Filipino dancer who also work there  and belong to the same company. Palibahasa mga pare parehong Filipino we got along very well kahit pa ahead sila sa akin they never make me feel Im new.

At first I manage to visit my Mom once in while but then after a couple of time I get tired of it. She doesn’t want to speak to me whenever I  visited her. She make me feel Im not wanted, I know that was hursh but thats what I felt those times. So insted, I just send postcard.

Living apart of her is not that pleasant at all. I miss my Mom terribly there were time I find myself crying thinking of her. Wondering if she ever think of me too. Don’t get  me wrong but I love my mother so much, its just that I have also this need to fullfil my dreams. I don’t want to regret the chance I missed and blame her about it.

Kaya ng malaman ko na may sakit sya and no one of my relatives inform me about it hindi ko alam kung an ang mararamdaman ko about it. Bumalik ako sa Pilipinas ng wala sa oras and I don’t regret it a bit. Lalo ng magkita kami. Tears start to flow on my check the moment our eyes met. How I missed her. I wished I could hug her but I can’t. The wound from operation is still fresh and I can’t just take a risk of huging her and make her bleed.

Holding my mothers hands bring so much happy memories and wash away the hurt I feel. Seeing her smile at make me smile even more while tears continue flooding my cheek.

“Magpalakas agad kayo para makauwi na tayo sa bahay,” I already made my decision mag stay muna ako dito para maalagaan si Mama.

“In just a couple of days pwede ng umuwi ang Mama mo,” si Doc. “Sorry  for interrupting Ms. Constantino but I need to check on patient vitals.”

“Go ahead Doc, do whatever it is that you have to do just to make sure that my mothers gonna be okay.”

“Kamusta na po pakiramdam nyo?” unang tiningnan ni doc ang bag ng dextrose na nakaconnect sa kanang kamay mama tapos ito nagsimulang kumuha ng pulse. Ilang sandali lang ay tapos na itong mag update ng sa clip board ng result.

“Is everything doing ok Doc?”

“Yes Ms. Constantino, everything seem alright. Wala akong nakikitang problem kung magtutuloy tuloy ang magandang progress in no time everything will be back to normal.”