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I know who you pretend I am~ Sam

Ever since I've known Sam he's always been protective of me. Never let me go on hunting trips and never let's me go alone in public. Sure sounds kind of controlling, but once you know the reasoning it all makes sense. See Sam had already told me what he does for a living. Killing monsters and saving people. He called it the family business. Sounds weird, but I still stayed. He just didn't want me to get hurt. He didn't want to lose me. And that's when he confessed his love to me.

Now Sam is more protective of me. Someone now has to stay in the bunker with me. I have to be armed when I go out. Sam expects me to check in with him every few hours to make sure I'm okay. It gets tiring but I'll stay. Even though I know who he thinks I am. I know he still loves her even though she's six feet below. I know he still has the ring he was going to propose with. I know that he has a picture of her hidden in his jacket. Sometimes he even calls me Jessica on accident. Even through all of that I still stay. For his sake and mine.

I know the pity look that Dean gives me now. He'll always try and talk to Sam and tell him that I'm not Jessica. That Jessica is dead. Sam never listens. Dean always tries to comfort me and tell me it's ok if I leave. I just shake my head and walk to my room. Because what else am I supposed to do? Just leave the man I love? I just can't. And it hurts. 

I'm debating if I should do what Dean says. Leave or stay. Either way my heart gets broken, but what about Sam. He'll be fine if I stay, but what if I leave? Would he be fine? Would he finally break? Would he try and find me and take me back with him? I can't decide. It's just becoming too much for me. It's just so draining. It's just too much pain. Does Sam actually love me for who I am? Or the person he thinks I am? God that's such a stupid question. I already know the answer. He loves Jessica more. And I'm finally done being the second choice.

Walking around the bunker trying to find Sam, I spot Dean. Sighing, I walk into the kitchen to stand by Dean. "I'm finally going to do it, Dean. I'm going to leave," I said tearing up.

Dean just stared at me. Slowly he wrapped his arms around me. "I'll miss you Y/N. Sam didn't deserve you. I'm sorry."

After he said that he let me go. I asked where Sam was and he told me.

" Hey Dean, I'll miss you too. I love you."

"I love you too, see you around kid."

I watched Dean walk out of the kitchen and to go to wherever. Building up my courage I walk to me and Sam's room. Well actually Sam's room now. When I was about to walk in I hear Sam crying. I slowly open the door and wrap my arms around him.

"Shhh. It's okay. I'm here Sam, I'm here," I whispered.

Stroking my fingers through his hair, I start to remember times he said that he loved me. Was he actually telling the truth? Or was it to keep me here?Sighing I look down at Sam. Rocking my body back and forth to try and calm him down. He's crying but not as badly as before. Moving his hair out of his face I look at his eyes. One of the reasons I fell in love with him. How they can change colors depending on his mood or the lighting. God I'll miss him.

Sam wraps his arms around my body pulling me close to him. He looks me in my eyes and softly smiles at me. " I love you Y/N".

I shake my head," Sam I know you don't."

He looks at me in confusion and tries to deny my statement. " Sam I know who you pretend I am. I know you still love her. So you try and protect me at all costs. Because you can't lose her a second time. And I'm sorry Sam. But I can't keep doing this. You're hurting us both don't you see that? Jessica is dead and she is never coming back. So let her go. Let me go."

I kiss his head and slowly started to pack my things. I look back at Sam. He has his head in his hands. I can't tell if he's frustrated or sad. Either way I didn't really care. After I was done packing I walked up to Sam. I wrapped my arms around him. " I wish this hadn't happened Sam. I really love you, you know. I'll miss you Sam."

Walking towards the door I heard him whisper sorry and I love you. 

"I know Sam. I know."