My jaw dropped with my moms response. I looked at my dads reaction, and it is not looking good!
"Venice! ako yung tinatanong hindi ikaw" sita ni dad kay mom.
"ano ka ba Boy, payagan mo na" kalmadong sabi ni mom.
"you weren't like that with me mom" bakas ang pagkadismayado ni ate kay mom.
"that's because you are our first born, atsaka you were keeping it as a secret!" palusot ni mom.
"so me keeping it a secret is enough reason for you to almost kick me out?" ate sarcastically said.
"of course! because you were not honest!" depensa naman ni mom.
I didn't expect ate Amber to snap. I understand she's upset, and mom is being so unreasonable for it.
naalala ko na kasama pala namin si Ethan, so I stood up at hinila ko siya palabas dahil nakakahiya na makita niyang nag aaway si ate at mom.
"sorry about that" I apologized habang nag lalakad kami papuntang room ko.
"it's okay. normal naman na magkaroon ng pagtatalo sa pamilya" sabi niya.
"I'm actually glad na nagkakasagutan sila ngayon" sabi ko.
nakarating na kami sa kwarto ko and we decided to sat at my small couch in my room.
"why?"
"hm.. kasi madalang kaming mag dinner all together, since busy sila lahat palagi. and everytime we're eating dinner sila mom and dad lang ang nag uusap, at tamihimik lang kami ni ate. atsaka parang matagal nang nasa puso ni ate yung ginawa ni mom sa kanya, I guess she's upset dahil iba yung treatment ni mom sa aming dalawa when it comes to relationships" sabi ko and he is listening to me very carefully.
"sorry" mahina niyang sabi.
"you don't have to say sorry, wala ka namang kasalanan" sabi ko, assuring him.
I honestly think na matagal nang kinikimkim ni ate yung nararamdaman niya sa ginawa ni mom noon. I actually think that she is so brave for confronting mom, kung ako yon ay hindi ko iyon magagawa.
people would think na masamang anak si ate dahil nakikipag sagutan siya kay mom. but I think every child has the right to speak up if nasasakal na sila sa treatment ng parents nila. it's like a having a realationship. hindi lang sila ang nasa loob ng pamilya, family contains a mother, father, and child/children. hindi pwedeng sila lagi ang masusunod at ang mag paplano ng buhay ng anak nila. it is not they're life, it's yours.
I wish i have the courage just like my ate.
I remembered reading something online. it says "treat your child the way you wanted to be treated as a child, not like how you were treated as a child."
"you know i'm actually jealous of your family" he said out of a sudden.
"bakit naman?"
"my dad actually died when I was 7 years old. kaya wala akong masyadong memories with him" he said.
it was supposed to be a great and happy dinner, pero ang ending nandito kami sa kwarto ko sharing some stories.
"oh my, I am so sorry" sabi ko while patting his back.
he took my hands off of his back, and he intertwined our hands together.
it gives me butterflies. it's the first time i've ever held a guys hand.
"it's okay. it took me a while to get over it pero okay na ako ngayon" sabi niya sa akin.
I can see the sadness and his longing for his father.
"you know, you can always talk to me kapag may problema ka" I said as I held his hands tighter.
"I know that, at ganun din ako sayo" sabi niya as he held my hands together.
"let's go out? bawi ako sayo, since our dinner is kinda a disaster" tumayo ako as I held out my hand, inaaya siyang tumayo.
"san tayo pupunta?" he asked.
"mag star gazing tayo!" I excitedly told him.
kinuha niya ang kamay ko atsaka tumayo.
lumabas kami ng kwarto at narinig na hindi pa din tapos ang usapan nila ate sa dinig room. sa garden lang naman kami mag istargazing kaya kumuha kami ng blakents and pillows. kumuha din kami ng snacks mula don sa small pantry ko sa kwarto ko, para we can also eat.
pagdating namin sa garden ay inayos kaagad namin ang mga blankets para makahiga kami kaagad.
after we're done we immediately lay down, and looked up.
"wow, it's so pretty" he exclaimed.
"well, I hope sapat na yung stars para makabawi ako sayo" sabi ko and he chuckled.
"sapat na sapat, lalo na't kasama pa kita" he said. I looked at him and I saw him smiling widely.
"I still can't believe na mas malaki ang mga star kaysa sa sun" sabi ko while admiring the stars.
"oo nga, but they both give us light" tuloy niya.
"naniniwala ka ba sa kasabihang, when you die you will become one of the stars?" tanong ko as I looked at him waiting for his answer.
"yes and no" sagot niya. I looked at him, confused.
"huh?"
tumingin siya pabalik sa akin.
"no dahil there is a scientific explanation about stars and yes... dahil I am hoping that it's true, para kapag titingin ako sa taas I would see stars..." sabi niya at onti-onting binabalik ang tingin niya sa mga bituin.
"and I would think that I can see my dad anytime I want..." I can't help but feel bad for him.
he lost his dad at a young age, and I guess he never felt to be loved by his father. ako, I have to be honest may mga times talaga nung bata ako na parang naiinis ako kay daddy because he never spent time with me. pero ngayon i realized na napaka swerte ko pala dahil buo ang pamilya ko.
at kahit papaano ay nakakabonding ko pa din sila paminsan-minsan.
"yun yung pinaniwalaan ko when I was a child. my mom would always pull me and my brother in our backyard to look at the stars. ang sabi niya ay isa daw sa mga stars na nakikita namin ay si dad" tuloy niya.
"I didn't know that you were fond of the stars" sabi ko sa kanya and he chuckled again.
"thank you for letting me bring back my memories as a child" sabi niya and I felt him looking at me. I looked at him back.
"it's my pleasure" i said as he smiled, and I smiled back.
"what is the date today?" tanong ko.
"October 15. bakit?" he asked.
"then november 15 will be our first monthsary?"
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