"Ethan, what are you doing here?" gulat na tanong ni Joyce.
"bawal ba? we're going on a date after this" kalmadong sagot ni Ethan.
oh god, i can the intense atmosphere between the two of them. now i feel like it wasn't a good idea to come.
"ah eh, l-let's sit guys haha" i awkwardly said. buti naman at sumunod sila.
the way that Joyce looks at Ethan...... her eyes screams 'i miss you'
damn that hurts.
parang dapat hindi na kami pumunta pa dito. I feel like something will happen. something that will hurt me. but.. maybe I shouldn't overthink, yeah baka naman namamalik mata lang ako. it's not like i can read people's mind.
"so bakit mo siya pinatawag? anong sasabihin mo?" tanong ni Ethan kaya naman nawala sa pagkatulala si Joyce.
"you do know that I can't talk to her when you're here?" sabi ni Joyce, Ethan clenched his jaw halatang nakakaramdam na siya ng inis.
"at bakit naman? ako ba paguusapan niyo?" tanong nya with a hint of annoyance in his tone.
"calm down babe" I whispered to him.
"oh calm down daw sabi ng girlfriend mo Ethan, ang sweet naman nya. pinapakalma kapa" sabi ni Joyce, diniin nya yung word na girlfriend which made me frowned. is it suppose to be sarcastic?
"oo sweet talaga siya. super sweet" diniin din ni Ethan yung super.
"si Justin din e, sobrang sweet" bawi naman ni Joyce.
"good for you Joyce good for you" sagot naman ni Ethan.
what is happening? why are they acting like this? i don't feel comfortable anymore. parang nagyayabangan sila.
well actually, i don't think i was comfortable in the first place to see them meet like this. what was wrong with me? bakit hinayaan kong mangyari toh? i should've known better. Ano ka ba naman Angela Vivian!
Joyce cleared her throat and said, "this is why you shouldn't be here. mag tatalo lang tayo. why did you bring him here in the first place Angela? di kaba nag sasawang makasama siya?"
Ethan was about to stand up and talk but I cut him off by saying, "hindi"
"bakit naman ako mag sasawa sa kanya?" I asked, confused.
"I think mauna na kami Joyce, may pupuntahan pa kasi kami e" I as I stand up. I looked at Ethan and said, "let's go" sumunod naman sya atsaka kami umalis. I didn't get the chance to look at Joyce before we left.
I was quiet during our whole ride to the mall.
ang sakit pala. is he using me to get her jealous? to get revenge?
kasalanan ko toh e. bakit ba kasi tinanggap ko pa yung friendship nya. if it wasn't for that hindi sana toh mngyayari, hindi sana sila magkikita at hindi ko sana makikita kung paano sila magtitigan at kung paano nila pinamukha sa isa't isa na masaya sila. it was like they were competing. kung sino ang mas unang naka-move on. as if they were checking whether the other one is jealous or not.
"bakit ang tahimik mo babe?" tanong nya sakin.
he acted as if nothing happened at all.
"a-ah, wala, tahimik naman talaga ako e diba" I said and i kept quiet after that.
he kept on talking to me but i kept my answers short. wala ako sa mood to talk to him.
hindi man lang ba sya mag sosorry about what happened kanina? hindi ba nya nahalata that i became uncomfortable because of what happened between them inside that coffee shop?
nakarating kami sa mall, kumain, at napagdesisyonang umuwi without us talking much. imposibleng hindi niya napansin at narealize yung reason on why I was quiet.
"Gela, babe do you have a problem? kanina kapa kasi tahimik e" he gently asked while we are on our way home.
"it's nothing" tipid kong sagot.
"hindi ako naniniwalang nothing lang yan babe, come on tell me" hindi ba talaga nya alam? di ba niya narealize kung anong ginawa nya? nila?
"wala nga, stop asking" i said, i was getting a little bit annoyed.
dumating na kami sa bahay and I was about to get off pero pinigilan nya ko.
"let's talk muna" he said.
he continued, "kung may nagawa man ako, i'm sorry. hindi ako sanay nang hindi mo ako kinakausap babe" hindi nya talaga alam?
"you really don't know?" i asked.
"ang alin?"
"kanina. the way Joyce was looking at you, it looks like she missed you" sabi ko and I couldn't help but tear up.
"and then the way you talked to each other. parang nagcocompete kayo sa isa't isa, para bang you guys were waiting for the other one to get jealous" i said as i looked outside the window.
"babe hindi ganon, i was just expressing how much i loved you and how lucky i am na ako ang naging boyfriend mo--" i cut him off.
"it didn't look like it! parang nafeel ko na ginamit mo lang ako to make her feel jealous and to make her feel her loss." i said, frustrated.
"no no, hindi kita ginagamit babe, trust me. nadala lang talaga ako dahil ngayon nalang ulit kami nag harap. alam mo namang hindi maayos ang break up namin, this was the only time that I got to confront her." paliwanag nya as he held my hands.
gosh those hands, it feels so soft and gentle.
"and about the way she looked at me, I swear babe ni hindi ko nga nakitang nakatingin siya sakin. I wasn't thinking about her nor am i looking at her. I was thinking about which restaurant we were going to. all this time ikaw ang nasa isip ko babe. at kung sa tingin mo e namiss nya ako, well wala akong pake. ikaw lang ang palagi kong namimiss tuwing hindi tayo magkasama" he said, he explained it so well. am i being hard on him?
he wiped my tears with his handkerchief.
"di mo man lang napansin that I was already uncomfortable with the situation" sabi ko habang humihikbi pa din.
"napansin ko. that's why i was about to pull you away, pero inunahan mo ko" he said as he made me face him.
"kanina pa din kitang gustong kausapin, but you looked like you weren't ready to talk about it kaya hinayaan muna kitang mag isip at magpalamig ng ulo." sabi niya.
"tahan kana, baka pumangit ka sige ka" he said trying to cheer me up. I laughed and punched his chest.
"kala ko you didn't think about my feelings e" i said sabay simangot.
"ako? hindi ka iisipin? baka ibang Ethan yang tinutukoy mo Vivian" sabi niya habang nakangiti. the atmosphere got better and lighter.
"ikaw ang palagi kong iniisip Angela Vivian. mula paggising, habang kumakain, nag aaral, hanggang sa pag tulog ikaw ang laman ng utak ko. kaya imposible yang sinasabi mo" he softly said as he held my face.
I can feel and see his sincerity through his words and his eyes. God what am I gonna do with this man, his sweet words made me fall for him even more.
now I feel bad dahil pinag isipan ko siya ng ganon. ano ba yan, ang bilis ko namang bumigay sa kanya. him and his sweet words talaga. lagi akong nadadali.
"sorry" sabi ko atsaka yumuko.
"why?" he asked.
"kasi pinag isipan kita ng ganon, and I let my emotions control me. mas maganda pala talag na dapat pag usapan muna ang mag bagay bagay before jumping onto conclusions" I said as I felt his hands slowly lifting my face, facing him.
"hindi mo kailangang mag sorry, because your feelings are valid. it is my responsibility as your boyfriend na pagaanin ang loob mo every time na may gumugulo sa isipan mo" he said and I smiled at his words.
"ala e you were jealous, and that is completely normal" he kissed my forehead after.
"selosa pala ang girlfriend ko e"
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