I can see dad's eyes that he is sincere. I hope that he's doing what he says. I know my mom is sometimes too much to handle, and it's obvious in their relationship that my dad is the one who love my mom more.
i hugged him and said "thank you dad, your the best" I said as I hugged him tighter.
"ako lang naman ang nag iisa mong daddy eh" sabi niya while chuckling.
I think it's been a while since nahug ko ng ganito si dad. and it feels really good pala, just like the old times.
now I only need to talk to my mom, but I don't know how to approach her.
I walk upstairs to my room, habang nag lalakad ay napatingin ako sa office ni mom.
should I.. approach her? should I talk to her?
maybe not today. hindi ko alam ang sasabihin ko sa kanya... she's just unbelievable. I can't believe that she was going to use me, my relationship with Ethan just to pay her debt in our company.
how could a mother do that?
the next day came, and surprisingly there's no paper work.
I walked downstairs to see mom and dad eating, mukhang umalis ng maaga si ate. nang dumaan kasi ako sa kwarto niya kanina walang tao.
"how come there's no paper work for me these days?" I ask as I was eating my oatmeal.
"just work on your rekationship with Ethan" my mom said, and I dropped my spoon.
I stood up, took my bag and walked out.
I can't stand her! how dare her say that? she's consistent up until the end.
I went to school in a bad mood. I was frowning throughout the whole ride. I can't believe her, I really can't.
pagpasok ko ay napansin yata ng girls na hindi maganda ang mood ko, beacause when I walked inside the classroom I straight up went to my seat without glancing at anyone. and they let me be, giving me privacy.
I was spacing out when I felt someone sat beside me.
"what's with the face?" I heard him say. it was Ethan.
"what?" I asked.
"you looked pissed off. bakit? anong nangyari?" tanong niya. I am hesitant on telling him, maybe i'll tell him but not today.
"just some family thing" I said. i didn't lie though, I was just not specific. I don't want to trouble him.
"okay, if you're not comfortable on telling me hindi naman kita pipilitin. just know that I will always be here, ready to listen to you" he knew that there was more than what I just said. he saw through me.
I nodded as a response. hindi na kami nakapag usap pa dahil dumating na yung teacher.
everything was the same, they just gave me privacy and didn't ask me about why I was not in the mood in the morning, and just acted normal around me.
hapon na at may practice kaming dance club for the Sports Fest. Golden Dawn kasi ang host this year, kaya todo prepare ang lahat.
I texted my dad naman na late ako makakauwi at ihahatid ako ni Ethan para hindi siya mag-alala.
"can I have your attention please" I heard Eli said as he clapped his hands 3 times.
Eli is the dance club president. siya ang madalas na gumagawa ng steps for our dance.
"malapit na ang sports fest, kaya we need to practice hard para hindi mapahiya ang school natin. we don't need lazy members, kaya kung tamarin man kayo the door is open for you guys to leave" sabi niya.
he is always strict lalo na tuwing may competitions or events na ganito.
"Angela halika, dito ka sa center" I walked towards him at ipinuwesto niya ako. and after that ay yung mga kasama ko naman ang ipinuwesto niya.
halos mag seseven pm na nang matapos kami. lumabas ako ng dance room at nakitang nakatayo si Ethan sa labas habang nag hihintay.
"oh bakit dito ka nag hintay manong sa loob na, baka mangawit ka eh" sabi ko, nag aalala dahil mukhang kanina pa siya nag hihintay.
"it's okay babe, kakatapos lang din namin" sagot naman niya.
"sorry for keeping you waiting, masyadong perfectionist si Eli eh first day palang gusto na niya makabisado namin hanggang chorus" I said as I was wiping his sweats in his forhead, halatang galing sa practice.
"okay lang, don't worry about me" he said as he stopped my hands from wiping his forehead and held it.
"let's go?" he said while smiling, I nodded as I smiled back.
"you wanna eat dinner first?" tanong niya, pagsakay namin ng sasakyan.
"sure, medyo gutom na ko eh" sabi ko as I put my seat belt.
nag fast food nalang kami dahil gabi na, we don't wanna be out really late since may pasok pa kami bukas.
"how was your practice?" tanong ko sa kanya as I was eating my burger.
"ayos lang, nakakapagod pero sulit naman. ikaw?"
"it was fine, pretty tiring din pero kaya naman it's not like we haven't done it before" sagot ko at napatango naman siya.
umuwi kami kaagad pagkatapos namin kumain. pag uwi ko ay naabutan ko sila mommy sa living room nanonood.
"oh your home? nandyan pa si Ethan?" tanong ni mom. seriously? she's gonna ask that? hindi pa ba siya tapos? she is so consistent talaga.
I ignored her as I walked upstairs to my room to rest.
after I freshen up humiga kaagad ako ng kama, and I did some thinking.
what's my moms problem? she is using me as a solution to a problem she created. ganon ba ang ginagawa ng isang ina sa anak niya? she is so unbelievable, she is so blinded by money and greed. money can so change a person.
can we ever be a normal family?
isang linggong naging ganon ang set up namin ni Ethan. sometimes he waits for me to finish practicing and sometimes ako naman ang nag hihintay sa kanya.
isang linggo na din nang huli kong makausap si mom. I have a lot of things to say to her, but I don't know how to and i don't want to.
I keep on avoiding her, si daddy lang ang kinakausap ko everytime na magkakasama kami. but she also doesn't even try talking to me.
si ate nga ay hindi ko na nakikita dito sa bahay, it's either maaga siya umaalis ng bahay or nag istay siya sa condo niya.
"you still wouldn't talk to your mom?" tanong sa akin ni dad, when he saw me going upstairs to my room.
"I don't know what to tell her" I answered.
"and it looks like ayaw niya din makipag usap sakin, the feeling is mutual" I added. then I went straight to my room, knowing na may sasabihin pa sakin si dad. but I am already exhausted, I don't have any more energy to talk about this problem.
hindi ko alam kung bat ayaw akong kausapin ni mom, when in the first place siya naman ang may kasalanan.
I'm not sure if I want to tell Ethan about it, I'm afraid of his reaction. baka isipin niya ay ginagamit ko lang talaga siya, but the truth is I trully love him. malabo man nung una, but now I am sure that I am in love with him.
I love him, so much. and I don't want to let my mom or anyone ruin our relationship.
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