All I Want // h.g.

CHAPTER 2

|||EMILY'S POV|||

I wake up to the sound of my mom laughing. She was talking to my cousin on the phone. His name is Shawn. I've never met him, but my family says he's a good singer.

"Oh my god mom! You woke me up!" I yell as I walk downstairs.

"Sorry honey!" She says while she hangs up.

"6:30?! Come on mom, I could've slept longer!" Im extremely annoyed at this point.
Like I want to sleep. I need sleep.

"Oh come on. It's just a half hour. Don't be a drama queen!" I hate when she calls me a drama queen.

After I'm done eating, I go upstairs and get ready. I put on a flower print skirt, a plain black tank top, and my black Vans. I decided to dress up since I'll be seeing Hayes again. We have every class together, including gym, so I can't let him see me sweat. That's just un-lady like. And I really don't want him to smell my sweat. That would be a total turnoff, I mean I'm already ugly and fat, having me sweat is something I don't need right now. I put some mascara on. I don't get why girls wear 5 pounds of makeup. I find it stupid. I kissed my mom goodbye and started walking to school.

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"Hey! Emily!" I hear someone yell. "It's me, Hayes!" I turn around and I see him running to me. He's finally in front of me and he's out of breath.

"Oh hey Hayes!" I almost started laughing at the fact that he can't breathe. "What's up?"

"Oh nothing much, you're kinda the only person I know and... I saw you and thought 'why not say hi?' But now I just realized that I look completely pathetic..." He looks down at his shoes. I feel bad now.

"YOU ARE!" Nash yells from like 30 feet away. I don't know how he heard him.

"No you're not. Don't listen to him." I tried to sound comforting but I'm not really good at that so...

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It's lunchtime and these crazy girls want to sit next to him again. I don't get it. I mean I know he's hot, but I wouldn't react like that. I'm walking with my tray to the table only to see Cammy Acimato sitting next to him. WTF? What the actual fuck?! Why is she sitting next to him?! They're laughing. They're having a great time. Fine, be that way. I decide to sit at another table. Why would I want to sit next to him anyways. I was right he, is an asshole. Lunch ended and he walked back to class with Cammy. Not me, but Cammy. I ignored him for the rest of the day, but he didn't notice. Why? Because Cammy was his bestfriend. Well I'm out of the picture.

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I walk into an empty house. I drop my backpack and run upstairs into the bathroom. I start crying. I'm shaking and I can't breathe. I look at myself in the mirror. "IM SO UGLY! NO WONDER HE DITCHED ME FOR HER! IM FAT AND USELESS! WHAT WAS I THINKING!" I yell at the mirror. I opened the cabinet and took out my moms eyeliner sharpener. I took the tweezers and in screwed the blade. I pressed down and I could feel my skin tearing apart. My heart beat slows down. Then the blood slowly trickles down my arm. I do it again. And again. And again. But then I heard someone at the door.

*ding dong*

I cleaned up everything including my arm. I wiped my tears and tried to hide my arm. It wouldn't stop bleeding. Good luck to me. I run downstairs, open the door only to see that it was Nash. I didn't know he lived here.

"Hey are you okay? I heard yelling and crying and I just wanted to see if everything was okay." He's sounds really worried.

"I'm fine. Okay well I gotta go! Thanks for stopping by!" I say as I try to close the door.

"Um Emily, are you okay?"

"Y-yeah why?" I stutter. I think he saw the blood dripping. Before I knew it, he took my arm and looked at it. He was in shock. I pulled away as fast as I could. I felt ashamed. And then... He hugged me. I wanted to hug back, but I didn't want my blood to get on his shirt.

|||NASH'S POV|||

I hugged her. She didn't hug back, though. I pulled away thinking that she didn't like me. I wanted to ask why, but we're not really friends. She looked at me in my eyes and started smiling. I was smiling, too. After that we went to her kitchen and got her cleaned up.

"Thank you." She said

"Your welcome." I noticed that I was holding her hands. I was reaching for a kiss and she wasn't, so I just hugged her instead. We said goodbye and I left. I think I'm starting to like her. But I can't. Hayes likes her. I walk across the street and get home. I open the door, and what do I see? Hayes with this girl.

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Hey guys!
Emily looks like she judges quickly and that's kind of how I wanted to make her. She's been broken down so many times to the point where everything hurts her.
Sorry it was kind of long😬