All I Want // h.g.

CHAPTER 19

|||EMILY'S POV|||

After a few hours, Sammy drove me back home.

"Mom?" I yell. She wasn't home so I called her and she said that she is at work because of an emergency.

I went in my room and listened to "Jar of Hearts" by Christina Perri. This son gets me every time. During the 2nd time of hearing it, I feel drained, like I've lost all my energy, my happiness, my will to live.

I went to the bathroom... And got a blade.

Bold and italics= song lyrics

'And no I can't take one more step towards you.
Cuz all that's waiting is regret.
And don't you know I'm not your ghost anymore.
You lost the love I loved the most.
And I learned to live half alive.
And now you want me one more time.
Who do you think you are?'

"You're my everything." I say while taking my blade and running it across my wrist.

'Running 'round leaving scars.'

I look down at my scars from other fights with Hayes.

'Collecting your jar of hearts.
And tearing love apart.
You're gonna catch a cold.
From the ice inside your soul.
Don't come back for me.'

"Please come back! Please. Please. Please come back." I cry out as I cut deeper and deeper. "Please. I'm sorry. I'm sorry."

I filled up my wrist with cuts, so I moved to my thighs. My fat thighs.

"Ahh" I scream because I went to deep.

|||HAYES'S POV|||

"Did you hear that?" Nash asks me.

"Yep." I reply.

"Okay, dude I know you hate me and her right now, but she's hurting herself. You can't just sit here and hear her screaming from the pain."

"Yeah? Well watch me." I say.

"Fine I'm leaving." He says and gets up. I grab his arm and pull him back.

"Nash, don't forget that she cheated on you. She deserves this."

"No one deserves this!"

"She cheated on you... With me." I say as he sits back down.

I heard screaming for the next half hour. It hurt me to know that she was cutting.

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Why do people who try the hardest never get the person they love?