this wasn't the plan 》s.w. / n.m.

twenty-two

Lexi's POV

I woke up and I saw nate next to me who was watching tv. his arm was around me with my head on his chest. a smile grew on my face at the sight. But what's gonna happen with me and sammy? I have no clue.

I looked up and he smiled down at me, "good morning" He said. "morning" I said as I literally rolled out of bed. he laughed at me as I went into the restroom to put my hair up and brushed my teeth.

I came back out and cuddled into him. "can we stay like this all day?" he asked. I just smiled. "sorry. this is wrong. I should probably leave im s-" I cut him off. I wasted no time to kiss him. he moaned in surprise and I smirk against his lips. "can we stay like this all day?" I mocked him, but he just laughed and nodded.

I was scrolling through Twitter when I saw sam tweeted.

"@sammywilk: single and loving it." with a picture of his view on his balcony.

"what's that?" nate asked. I showed him. "now we don't have to worry bout sam" he smirked at me, which made me giggle. but actually when I read 'single' it kind of pissed me off because we didn't actually talk about it! I get it, I messed up because i shouldn't have kissed nate right after. but he shouldn't have been getting pictures from other girls.

I should probably talk to him. because I'd lose nate before I'd lose him.

Sam's POV

I was sitting on my balcony, smoking, so I decided to take a picture of the view. I posted it on Twitter and said 'single and loving it' to see how Lexi would react but it's been two hours since I posted it and she hasn't done anything.

yesterday we got into that little argument and yes I was mad because I can't just rush everything. when the boys actually got settled, I would've told them. but no, she has to rush everything. I wish she would chill out.

well last night, I was going through my twitter and they had a naked picture. me being a boy with hormones and all, of course I clicked on it. I didn't want it to seem noticeable so I grabbed a pillow and put it on my lap. well I'm guessing Nash saw because he had to tell the whole group, and lex just so happened to be there, making her more mad.

about an hour or two later, I go up to my room and I couldn't stop thinking about her. I couldnt go to sleep with her mad at me. so I creek her door open. the last thing I wanted to see was happening right in front of me. she was cuddled into nate, not one part of their bodies weren't touching.

tears stung my eyes, what if she chooses nate now? I screwed up. i can't help but think I lost her. I probably did. I should do her and Nate a favor by getting out the way

i knew how nate felt about her. he acts like he loves her. but one thing they don't know is I'm actually in love with her. so no. I'm not going to get out of the way when nate is the one in our way. I went back on Twitter and deleted the picture but the whole world probably seen it already. she probably did too.

I heard my door open. I looked up and saw Lex. "so your single now?" she slammed my door. I can tell she was angry. "I guess so" I looked away from her and back on my phone. "you guess so? you couldn't have talked to me before you just made the decision?"

"well as soon as all that happened downstairs you were probably trying to hook up with nate" I raised my voice a little. "I was not. he wanted to comfort me because of what you did. so if there would be anything going on between us thank yourself." she yelled. I was beyond pissed because I knew it was true. I drove her away and led her into his arms.

I stood up to face her. she crossed her arms. "you're selfish and rude and--" "I am not" she cut me off. "see I can't even finish my sentence without you interrupting." I waited for her to butt in but she didn't. "anyways you're selfish, rude, you don't know when to stop complaining, you're self-centered, and everything is just about you, you, you!" I yelled. "but that's all of the reasons why I'm in love with you" I softly spoke.

he eyes shot to mine, leaving the ground. "you what?" she asked surprised. "I don't love you, im in love with you. I swear I was since the first time I kissed you. and you're so beautiful and I'm telling you I was going to tell the boys as soon as they settled"

"why didn't you tell me that yesterday so we could've avoided all of this?" she said ignoring my feelings about her. "all of what? nothing happened, we didn't even necessarily break up" she was silent and she wasn't speaking any time soon. "please tell me you didn't hook up with nate" I practically begged, hoping It didn't happen. "I didn't 'hook up' with nate" she air quoted. "you kissed him, didn't you?"

she was quiet again. I hit the wall next to her, making her flinch and catching a deep breath. "GOD DAMMIT" I didn't want to cry in front of her so I held it back. "why would you do that?" I backed away and sat on my bed. she sniffled, "I'm not making excuses. you were the one who ignored me. you weren't treating me right, he was. and it just seemed right" she cried out.

"guess I really am" I sighed. "really what?" she crossed her arms, not taking her eyes off me. "single" I looked away but she grabbed my chin and turned my head towards her.

"sammy, we are not done. we both fucked up, but that makes us good for each other. we have to learn from our mistakes. we can make it work, I know we can. sam, please don't let me go." I grabbed her arm and walked her towards the door, opening it, and pushing her out.

"we're unhealthy for each other" I seen tears swelling in her eyes. "sammy. do not close this door, if you do we are done for good" she tried to say confidently, but her voice was shaking. "I'm sorry" my head hung low. I hesitantly closed the door.

I heard her slide down my door on outside and she was sobbing hard. and all that did was make me do the same. I slid down the door from the inside, playing with the strings on my pants, and crying out. so this is it. she's officially done with me.

I hate myself. I regretted closing the door as soon as I heard it click. I wanted to run in her room and apologize and kiss her till I ran out of breath. but I knew it was probably already to late. I just made the biggest mistake in my life.

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heres the update!

I changed the cover because that is my theme for every story I write from now on!!

two most exciting things about my life:

1.) I sell my artwork to buy merchandise.

2.) Im counting down the days until twenty-fifteen comes out😍
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