this wasn't the plan 》s.w. / n.m.

thirty.

Lexi's POV

I woke up from my nap after my last class on Friday. honestly after I get to the dorm, I take a nap, wake up, eat, take a shower, sleep, wake up, go to class, repeat.

Jasmine is rarely ever in. she is here when I take my naps, I hear her sometimes. apparently she cooks, that's how there is always food. but she's never there when I wake up.

but anyways, it's finally the weekend, I get to see jacob! the first weekend I had to stay on grounds, so it's been two weeks since I saw jacob. he doesn't know I'm driving out though so I'm going to surprise him.

after two long dreadful hours of suspense, I pull up in my driveway. I am suddenly confused as I see a unfamiliar car. I unlock the door and walk in and I see jacob sitting at the island alone. "lexi?" he smiles, getting up and hugging me. "what are you doing here" he asked, finally letting me out his hold.

"we got to come home this weekend. so yeah. who's here" just then I see someone round the corner. "mom?" I asked shocked as to what she's doing in California, not Arizona. I forgot to mention that my mom and jacob became close after I brought him to Arizona.

"hey" I drop my purse and ran up to hug her. she kisses my cheek, "hey honey"

"I was just telling jacob that he should call you to get you over here" she caresses my cheek. "why mom what's going on?" I asked her. "sit down sweetie"

I follow her instructions and take a seat across from her, by jacob. I'm actually terrified.

"mom, if it's about the new car, you could've just sent pictures, you know, instead of scaring me" she exhaled a laugh. "that's not it sweetie" she smiled but I could see hurt in her eyes. "what's wrong, momma?"

"I went to my doctor last month" she stops abruptly. "why?" I impatiently asked. "I been having headaches, sometimes, I find it difficult to walk because my muscles won't function properly. and I been vomiting, a lot. also, sometimes, it gets hard for me to speak" and now that I listen, she is slurring some words. "what are you implying?" I asked.

she grabs my hand and a tear falls across her face. "baby, I have a brain tumor" I look at her in disbelief, In shock. "no, no, no!" I burst into tears. In one swift movement, I knocked the vase that was on the table over and walked away, holding my head. I instantly had a headache. my mom jumped from the sudden crash.

I lost my father at a young age. I knew he would miss out on a lot. he would miss out on my first boyfriend, first kiss, my prom, my wedding, my life. when every girl had a father who protected them, I had no one but my mother. but sometimes a girl just needs her dad with her. and now to think I could lose my mother quite early too, furies me.

"this isn't fair, I can't lose you too mom" I cried out. I probably look a mess. my eyes red and puffy, yelling, yanking on my hair. "baby girl, sit down, let me explain it to you" she says. baby girl. it instantly reminds me of nate. I need to call him. I know it's a shame, but I think he'll be able to comfort me more than Jacob will.

I take a seat and stare at my lap. "mom? why did you wait a month to tell me?" I asked slowly. "when I went in last month, they put me on the medicine immediately, but I think it was already too late. I told them to take me off the medicine"

"MOM. WHY WOULD YOU GET OFF OF IT?" I yelled at her. "honey, once a brain tumour reaches a critical size, it cannot be slowed down with treatment, it's just going to keep growing. there was no point in it" that's when her words hit me.

she won't be there to see me grow old. she won't see my husband. she won't see what career I'll take on. she won't see the children I produce. she'll probably watch down on me, like my father, but I need her here.

I cried and she pulls me into her chest. "I need to rest" she tells me. I nod and bring her to the guest room. I look around for the first time and notice jacob left, probably couldn't handle seeing me like that. I helped my mom into bed and kissed her forehead. "I love you momma" she smiles warmly. "I love you more than you will ever know, lexi Marie. and I just want to tell you how proud I am of the woman you are today" I hug the beautiful woman laying before me. "sleep tight" I get up and instantly my tears weld up again.

I take out my phone and dial the one person I been finding comfort in lately.

"hey, lex" nate answer the phone and I hear music in the back. what is he doing? "sorry it's loud, I'm in the studio" he answers before I could even ask. "nate" I croak. "baby girl, what's wrong?" he seems worried all of a sudden.

"I need you"

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GROWING MY INTEREST BACK.

WHO KNOWS, I MAY NOT END IT SO SOON😏😏

SIKE 💋

xoxo,
alexiaaa♡