this wasn't the plan 》s.w. / n.m.

twenty-three

Lexi's POV

I can't even function. I'm crying so hard, I feel as If I can't breathe. I'm gasping, trying to find air. I close my eyes, close my mouth, and breathe in and breathe out. it helps me find the air I need, but only for a little while.

I grab the door handle and force myself to stand up. I didn't think I could walk to my room, since my legs were so wobbly, but I managed. I eagerly opened my closet, grabbing all my suitcases out. I then viciously pull all my clothes off the hangers. throwing them all in the bags and suitcases.

I can't stay here any longer. I can't be around sam, the sight of him makes me desperate for his touch. and I don't want to be around nate. just knowing what I did, makes me sick to my stomach. it's not his fault for my slutty actions, but I can't even face him right now.

hours past and all my clothes are all in suit cases and bags. I ended up having to borrow a couple of bags because I had bought more clothes when I moved in. I look around the room, it's empty.

the white walls, white sheets and pillows, blue curtains, and the wood floor look exactly like it did before I settled in. it's back to being a guest room. and I think it's a good thing. it's not healthy for me to be here, so I'm just going to leave.

I made it outside, seeing that my car was the only car in the driveway. I put my luggage inside of it, but I know I can't just leave without saying something. I open the door back up and search for a sharpie and paper, but I'm not going to make a big deal.

boys,
thank you for letting me get settled in, but I think I know LA surprisingly well now. I'll be on my own. yall have my number if yall need anything.
xoxo,
lex.

I called Mallory, Johnson's girlfriend. "hello?"
"hey, Mallory. can I crash at your place, just for a couple nights?" "yes, you can. I'll see you in a little bit" I thanked her and hung up.

I grabbed the door handle and hopped in my vehicle. I hesitantly backed out the driveway. it was a good ten minutes until I arrived at my destination. I knocked on the door. she opened the door and engulfed me in a hug. I hugged her back, tightly, needing a friend.

"hey. you okay? jack kept me updated. last thing I knew is that you ran off crying after Nash exposed him." I nodded my head. "I'm okay. but I'm only staying here until I find an apartment" she followed me to my car and we grabbed all my luggage.

"this is really sweet of you." she then flashed me a smile. "it's no big deal." I followed her inside. "I cooked dinner if you want some, but I'm not really the best" I laughed at her comment and took my bags to the guest room, which was on the first floor.

when I walked out Mallory was already eating and I decided to join. "is it good?" I asked. "Ive cooked worse" I laughed at her comment. I took a big bite of her casserole because it looked delicious. as soon as I bit in, I regretted it. I started chewing more slowly. "go spit it out in the garbage disposal, I'll order takeout" I nodded and ran to the sink.

about fifteen minutes later, they had dropped off our food. "I'm going get my laptop" I smiled at her and walked to my room and grabbed my laptop. there was no point in unpacking considering I could leave anytime now. tomorrow or even two months from now. but I'm just gonna be living out my suitcase for now.

I sat down on the couch eating my take out and searched up apartments to rent in LA. I come across a loft that isn't too expensive. "Mallory?" she looks up from her phone. "yes, Lexi?"
"please don't tell the boys I'm here. I need this moving to be easy. and it won't be if Gilinsky begs me not to" we both laugh. "I won't tell them" I smile and pull out my phone.

I dialed the number on the website. "this is Anna Rogers. can I help you?" the lady spoke over the phone. "yes, i saw your loft was for rent and i'd like to check it out" I explained. "okay well I have an open schedule tomorrow, you can come at one o'clock after lunch" I might actually leave Mallory's sooner than planned. "okay sounds great" we said our goodbyes and hung up.

"it's been a long day. I'm going to sleep" I told Mallory and she nodded. I went into the room and instead of instantly falling asleep, I cried myself to sleep, still thinking of what happened earlier this morning.

my eyes fluttered opened as the sunshine seeped through the blinds. I checked my phone that read '11:45' oh, crap. I always sleep too late. I saw I had text too.

from G😈
hey. I didn't know you were gonna move out, why didn't you say anything?

from Johnson😏
the house is different without you. come back.

from jasmine🙅
hi. I've been trying to find the courage to text you. I'm sorry and I saw sammy put 'single' on Twitter. are you okay?

I rolled my eyes at this text.

from Skate😌
baby girl, where are you?

of course. none from sam. I decided to ignore all the text. I hoped in the shower. when I got out, my stomach started to growl. I quickly got dressed in a pink crop top, high waisted shorts, and a white kimono cardigan with my white converse.

on my way out I saw Mallory. "Im going eat then going check out the loft" she nodded. "okay good luck" and she hugged me. I make a quick stop at subway then headed to the loft which was probably about twenty minutes away from Sam and them.

"Hi. I'm Anna. Your --?" she asked. "Lexi" I shook her hand. "come on in" as soon as I walked in I saw the living room, then the kitchen connected. next to the island were stairs, where I could see two open bed rooms. a little passed the stairs was an opening to go to the back of the apartment. there was a lounge decorated and the walls were bookshelves filled with books. they had three doors. one was a restroom. the second one was a guest bedroom. and the third was a back door. (see the picture)

"this place is nice. I love it" I told Anna. "yes it is truly lovely, but there is one problem" uh oh. just when I find something good something bad comes along with it. "someone is already living here, they need a roommate to help pay the rent" that's why the rent money wasn't a lot. but a roommate? not too much of a problem. "when can I meet her?" I asked as I let my fingers trace against the walls.

"you mean he"

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ayeeeee😈

this chapter sucked. oh well. next one will hopefully be better.

but yall should do me a favor. see my best friend is writing a story called "lucid" she just started but it's pretty amazing. ( FinnickisBae13 )

it's a Christian leaves fanfiction.

and if you don't know what a loft is, it's like an apartment but everything is like connected and opened.

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xoxo,
alexiaaa♡