Beauty on the Balcony

Harder Than I Thought

It was 5:55 and Lexa hears at small knock on the door from the kitchen which bnb is on the back side of house but beach side. The windows allows her to be able to look out over the ocean. There is a beautiful deck and when she looks , she sees Clarke standing there so beautiful and smiling. Her heart does that skip thing again. She smiles back and walks over to the door and opens it, "how punctual of you Ms. Griffin!" "Why, thank you, I try," says Clarke. Lexa moves so Clarke can come in and as Clarke walks past her, she can smell how good she smells. When she closes the door, she walks over to the counter and looks at Clarke and asked, "you want something to drink, I have beer, wine, juice, water". "I think I will start with some water and save the wine for dinner, Clarke says with a smile. Lexa gets her some bottled water from the fridge and hands it to her. As Clarke takes the water, their fingers touch and she looks at Lexa. There seems to be some nervousness in Lexa and she doesn't know why. "Are you ok Lexa, you seem, I don't know, a bit nervous, did something happen today?" Lexa looks down and she pulls her hand back. She looks back at Clarke, runs her fingers through her hair and says, "Clarke I need to talk to you and I don't know how you will feel afterwards. I don't want to ruin this dinner either and I don't ever want you to be uncomfortable around me so I need to talk to you." Clarke puts her water down and steps closer to Lexa and says, "ok, let's talk." Lexa decides she needs liquid courage and goes and gets a beer. She guzzles some down while Clarke watches. Clarke sees her throat as she drinks it down and she thinks how sexy it looks. She shakes herself out if that thought. She knows they have expressed attraction to each other but has Lexa changed her mind? "Oh god, I have made her feel different. I have caused her to be uncomfortable and now she is going to tell me she just wants to be friends," Clarke thinks She is taken out of her thoughts by Lexas voice, soft, shakey and sexy. She looks so vulnerable Clarke thinks. "Clarke, Lexa starts, I remember the first time I saw you. Standing on the balcony painting. I thought of how beautiful you were dancing and singing and wanted to meet you but was scared. Then you show up at my house for help. As time as past, we have developed a close relationship, one I do enjoy. The thing is Clarke, I don't know if I can do this like this." She looks down. Clarkes heart drops, "I knew it, I made her pul away, I." "I want more Clarke," she hears Lexa say. She looks up at Lexa, "Wait what?' Lexa looks at her and says, "I know you must think I am crazy, we have only known each other a short time but we have learned a lot about each other. I love spending time with you and when I am away from you, all I do is think about you, thinking of ways I can see you again, I know you have been through a rough time just as I have and we both are scared but Clarke, I want to try with you. The only three think is, I live here and you will be leaving and when that time comes, it will probably break me but I must be crazy because I still want to see what happens. We have all the rest if summer. A lot can happen during this time. I know it's scary and I am so sorry. All I know is I care about you, I mean I really care. I have not felt like this in so long, maybe not ever. You made me feel something good, you make me smile, when I am with you, I am just happy and at peace, so I know you think I am absurd and I have probably ruined everything, " and with that, Clarke places her hands on Lexas face and she kisses her softly. Lexa feels Clarkes lips on hers so soft and she loves it. Clarke pulls back and looks at Lexa, smiles softly, and Lexa is shaking. "Just so you know, I feel the same and I want more but I thought I would scare you away." Lexa looks at her, "really?" She smiles as Clarke nods her head and says, "I know things do seems so crazy and yes, we have the rest of summer. I don't know what will.happen Lexa, but I want more too, I want to see where this goes, I wan you." Lexa smiles and takes Clarke in her arms and hugs her tight. Clarke nuzzles into her. This feels good, they both think, this feels right. When they pu apart, Lexa says, "well, we take one day at a time ok, enjoy each others company but for now, you let me fix an amazing dinner for you, spoil you and we will find a good movie ro watch or we can walk on the beach or dance on the deck." She laughs a bit and Clarke joins in, "well now, those are all fabulous ideas and I am starving, so, feed me!" They both laugh and hug again and then Lexa continues to make their dinner. They talk, laugh, share more stories and after they have eaten, they make their way out to the back deck where they stand and look out over the ocean while drinking wine. Clarke stands closer to Lexa and slides her arm around Lexa's waist and Lexa wraps her arm around Clarkes. Its quiet for a few moments and the Clarke says, "I think I want that dance now Ms. Woods." "Oh well, my Lady, let me go put on some music and I think that can be arranged," Lexa says with a wink. Clarke thinks she will melt. When Lexa returns, she takes Clarkes hand and pulls her close while looking in her eyes. She holds her to her body and they begin dancing. They sway to the music and Lexa is a smooth dancer. She twirls Clarke, holds her just right and looks at her like she is the most precious thing on earth. Clarke has never felt like this and she doesn't want it to end. Lexa thinks she could stay I this moment forever, just them two. She loves the feel of Clarke next to her. She wonders how it it would feel for them to be skin on skin, bodies heated in passion. What it is like to kiss all over Clarkes body and hear beautiful sounds coming from her. She wants a that with Clarke, but when Clarke is ready. She won't push, she cares too much. She doesn't even realize that Clarke is thinking the same things. She has to give Clarke time and not rush. Yes, they have confessed how they feel and that they want more but she still wants to treat Clarke right. She wil.have to keep a hold on her urges and take a lot of cold showers. When Clarke is ready, she will let her know. Meanwhile, Clarke is burning up. She feels like her skin is on fine at Lexas touch. She wants to feel more of Lexa. She wants Lexas lips on her, everywhere. She don't want to push though or rush Lexa. Clarke knows herself though and if things keep going like this, Lwxa being so smooth she may just feel the need to just take the leap! They both feel like they need to play it cool for a while, yeah, that will be harder than they thought because both of them are dying to lay the other down and make mad passionate love to them over and over. To have wild sex, holding nothing back, in every room of both houses. Lexa thinks, "this is going to be harder than I thought." Clarke knows this will be harder than she thought. They dance for a while and then it is time for Clarke to head home. Lexa would love to ask her to stay but she won't, not yet. In time she will. She walks Clarke home down the beach and they hold hands all the way. When they reach Clarkes place, they walk up to the door. Facing each other while holding hands, Lexa says, "I had a really nice time with you Clarke, I am glad we talked too, I feel so much better." Clarke smiles and moves into Lexa, her body flush with hers and says, "me too, I really enjoyed myself and give my compliments to the chef." They both laugh. Lexa looks at Clarke and leans in, she cant hold it any longer, she kisses Clarke. She hears Clarke such and it drives her insane. Clarke wraps her arms around Lexas neck while Lexa pulls Clarke closer by her waist. She feels her heart beating so fast. Clarke kisses her back with such want and she thinks how in the world is she supposed to hold back when she gets kissed like this. The kiss begins to get more heated and Lexa had to ul back. "Clarke, I love doing this with you, really I do and it is so hard to stop kissing you but I don't want to rush, I want to do thisright, I want to do you right, I hope that's ok." Clarke smiles and says, yes, it's perfectly fine. Such a gentlewoman Ms Woods, so sexy." Well, to be honest its taking all my willpower to stop tifht now, haha, but when the time is right, and we are both ready, I promise I will make it well worth your wait beautiful," Lexa says. "I am going to hold you to that, and I promise to do the same in return because I want to show you how much I care and how crazy you drive me," Clarke says. The hug goodnight and Lexa watches as Clarke goes in the house and hears her lock the door. She walks back down the beach to her house with the biggest smile on her face and thinking how good this feels. She needs a cold shower right now though, "Yeah, this is going to be harder than I thought!" All she wants to do is lay Clarke down and do things to her that will make a Porn star blush! Then she thinks, "Wait till I tell Anya!"