Always mine

18. Why?

2 weeks later...

Jen's POV

It's been 2 weeks since Alex and Beau got in jail and it's been tougher than I thought it would be, I'm happy both of them are in jail cause they hurt me and my babies but on the other hand, I still think every day about Alex, why did he help Beau? I still don't get it, the last time I saw him and talked to him was when he was arrested and I haven't visited him yet.

Today I'm going to visit him for the first time and, to be honest, I feel a little scared and nervous, I wonder what is he going to say, or if he's going to explain to me what happened and how it was all a misunderstanding.

Somehow, I still have hope that he's a good guy deep down, I know there's still goodness in him, but that doesn't mean I'm not mad at him, a part of me hates him for what he did but there's still a part of me that loves him, I was really in love with him and it's not something I can forget overnight.

Some hours later at the prison where Alex is...

Jen: Hello Alex.

Alex: It took you long to visit.

Jen: Well...the person I thought it was the love of my life kidnapped my son, that's not something you can get over with easily.

Alex: I'm really sorry Jennifer, I had to do it.

Jen: I don't understand Alex, why?...why did you do this?

Alex: Let me explain...after the accident last year, I wasn't feeling so good with you; Noah died, Beau escaped and you were terrified for the following 5 months after the accident; you have to understand me, that wasn't easy for me either, you thought that it was only you the one that was hurting but I was hurting too. Did you ever ask me how I was doing? No, you never did; it was all about you. And then Beau contacted me...he blackmailed me so I had to say yes, the thing was that I didn't know what I was saying yes to; he made me agree to help him and then he told me about his plan to kidnap Max.

Jen: If you didn't like to be around me after the accident why didn't you tell me?

Alex: I couldn't. I didn't want to bother you.

Jen: BOTHER ME? Wtf Alex?! You were faking you loved me for a whole fucking year!

Alex: I'm sorry...

Jen: With what could possibly Beau blackmail you with so you can agree to help him?

Officer: Time's up guys.

Alex: I'm sorry Jen...i have to go...I just wanted to save you...

And he just left, I went to my car and cried for some good 30 minutes, I can't believe the last year of our relationship was bullshit, he didn't want to be with me...I feel really bad because he was right in one thing, I never thought of how was Alex feeling after the accident, I wasn't the only one who lost a baby, he did too; I was a horrible girlfriend and I never noticed, but I don't understand why did he never tell me.

This whole thing it's too much for me to take on so I went to a coffee shop and just sat there alone and cry.

Minutes passed when I noticed that the paparazzi were outside taking pictures of me crying alone in a freakin coffee shop, and when I see someone yelling at the paparazzi so they could leave me alone, I couldn't see who was this person and then he went back on the coffee shop when the paparazzi left and I could see clearly who it was.

Jen: B-Ben?

Ben: Hi Jennifer, sorry about that, I saw that the paparazzi were bothering you and you just seemed to be...like...

Jen: Broken? Yeah, it's okay, let's say I'm not on my best day...You wanna take a sit?

Ben: Sure. Let me guess...you're like this because of Alex?

Jen: Yeah, I just went to visit him in jail for the first time.

Ben: Ugh, that seems pretty tough, well, I don't know much since everything I know is what I see on tv but that dude screwed up...So...how are your kids doing?

Jen: They're good, definitely better, they are home-schooling right now because they don't want to go back to school yet, but that's good because I can get to spend more time with them.

Ben: I'm happy to hear they're good; look, sadly right now I have to go, I have a meeting but would you like to have dinner someday?

Jen: Sure, that sounds good, what about tomorrow night?

Ben: Perfect. Well, see you tomorrow Jen, hope you feel better soon.

Wow, I did not expect I would see him today but it wasn't bad, he made my day a little better, I'm not planning on dating anybody yet but I want to see where is this going.

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