One Mistake is all it Took

Emotional Wreck

I sit up and punch my pillow. I punch it as hard as I can and more. I stand up, (which may not have been the best idea when you get dizzy easily) and rip the IV out of my arm. I wobble back and fourth but finally catch myself on my bed and stand up straight. Then the nurse walked in. Great.
"Mia. You need to lay down. What are you doing?"
"I HATE THIS. WHY WOULD SHE DISOWN ME LIKE THIS? IM HER MOTHER FUCKING DAUGHTER!" I yell. Tears are streaming down my eyes as I scream as loud as I can. I'm crying like a little kid when they get in trouble, gasping for air constantly. I feel like I can't breathe.
"Mia. Please. Lay back down. Calm down." The nurse says. She runs to my side and puts her arm around me and tries to get me to sit down.
"NO. I DONT WANT TO BE HERE ANYMORE. I WANT TO DIE ALREADY! JUST FUCKING KILL ME! KILL ME PLEASE. I BEG YOU." I scream at the top of my lungs. By now, I can't even think straight. I can't see and I'm an emotional wreck. I want to die. My mother disowned me for a mistake. I grab ahold on the nurse and collapse as I fall in a heap on the floor.
"I NEED BACKUP NOW!" The nurse yells to the hall. All of a sudden, three more nurses are standing around trying to help me. I rock back and fourth screaming and crying. What do I do now? I'm so scared and lost and confused. I just want to die.
I know this sounds crazy but how could she even do that to me?
I rock back and fourth in the floor as tears roll down constantly.
Okay Mia. Calm down. You're overreacting. I'm sure if you talk to her, she'll understand. Just calm down.
I think to myself.
Just calm.
Calm.
Deep breaths.
Breathe Mia. Breathe.
I take a few deep breaths gasping for air.
I can't breathe.
I get lifted back up onto my bed by nurses I sink back into my bed.
I hold my head as I get really dizzy.
Breathe.
I think I might be okay now.
The tears aren't as bad.
I can breathe a little bit.
I just need to calm down.